Courses with in the City

Portal harmonics, vibrational engineering, liquid crystal magic, fairy magic,dwarven runes,elemental magics,,fae magic studies, time magic studies,Lemurian crystal tools, magical theory, harmonic locks and practical applications, Ancient Atlantean magics and engineering, dwarven crystals and engineering. Love magic, Elven magics and nature studies. Many of magics are interconnected to one another. Light language math and practical studies, shape shifting magics, higher plane studies. (edited) Note there more course than I can remember.

City of light Erabacus

There exists a hidden city of bipedal animals and other races. The city is the center of learning for many as it exists at all points and all times. Getting there one must the right harmonic key or be a citizen of that place. Just I've been there before. They've tried trust humans before but many have broken one of the cardinal rules about exposing the city. There minds were erased. Its where I learned many of the advanced magics and was the hub that I used when I went on missions for great mother. I hold citizenship there and to home. They remain hidden to outsiders. It was during my time away from home before I returned there. I think there were other ponies there too. The cities name was Erabacus the city of light. My mother's sister the administrator of the city.

Alternating views of vibrations

 Alternating the vibration of an object can allow you to move things that appear impossible like stone or altering the vibration of object will allow you to shape it as you see fit. Using tools made pure quartz's crystals are often the best way of doing things by altering the lattices in each crystal to follow a certain path in most cases you can change the path way with in the latices of each crystal by altering the lattices in a certain. If the quartz crystal are not as pure you would have to purify them yourself by using a special tool. The process would only take up to one earth minute.

Mother

 My mom died yesterday

carnivorous plants

 The plant in question had a central mass with what looked like a dead tree with a small amount of water with it surrounded by water. All of this was deceptive. The plant had a root bulb in which you or an animal would stand on there its mass. The ground was a mass of root tendrils that acted as the ears of the plants as it could feel the vibrations of the prey. During this process it would open an an orifice on the dead tree which is surprisingly maneuverable as it would target the prey with barbs it would shoot out towards the prey. Each barb was incredibly sharp with a dose of paralytic poison. Once the target was hit the poison worked very fast the prey would fall into the water which was later found to be filled with poison at the top would infect the wound killing the animal as the animal would sink to the bottom digestive juices would start the process of digestion. Within the bulb of the plant was found there were unique structures that acted as fat reserves for the plant. What drew the prey in was a sickly sweet smell from the central. The prey would come in to feed then as it would turn to leave it would be attack and killed. The plant also had primitive eyes on its stalk which could detect light and dark but also movement. It had a rudimentary intelligence. It would produce spores which would catch on the wind. It also later on that plants of the same genus would create colonies of inter connected mycelium would allow it "talk" other with the colony. Later discover by a unicorn found that all of the colonies were interconnected that each plant was in fact part of larger organism. The planet was put a protected list given no one but researchers could travel there. Given time the fungus could in fact gain full sentients as a hive mind.

My Best friend

 One of my good friends from when i was filly she a wolf/ Wolfoid.Used to spend alot time hanging out with her and her family. Got into all sort of mischief together.

Mother

 My mom visited me a few days back and gave me memory of her giving my brother a gift of a portal. He could go on any adventure across the world and he come home in an instant.Ofcourse he forgot the silly thing more often than naught.

Advanced Healing

  I sort may have leaked some the advanced tech and magic learned from abroad. Said illnesses are a thing of the past even cancer. It was only thing pertaining to the serious illnesses that I gave to doctors the knowledge to save ponies or anyone who walked into the hospitals. Most of which is vibrational healing and other applications that allow for advanced healing. I was with Red and she telling me about this little colt who had an uncurbable disease. That they had tried all known treatments. For good or ill I healed him then taught Red, Dr Horse and few other doctors of Ponyville hospital. Along with providing the healing stones and other medical tech. In time it had spread to all the big cities and towns. One of the doctors I knew as a friend took credit because I asked him too. It didn't sit right with him. (edited)

Supporting a friend

 Had a memory of supporting my friend Mariposa over other other parallel world. I didn't go with her into the studio just hung around her trailer. I was there as a friend. She got the got part in the movie she said that had to cry a lot. I congratulated her. I wanted to give her a hug but she was in a very expensive dress.

Mission to stop Tech

 Its more of memory I was sent by GM to see what this new place that opened up was all about. Seems that it it advances tech this current world shouldn't have and couldn't have cultural contamination. Determine what power it and shut it down. I was very impressed with the service when you got in to leave the elevator would take you to where you wanted to go. Easy as it was reading your memory before you even entered the elevator( Vibrational teleporter). The facility would then tailor your experience with information it had gained and create light clone to serve you. Was later discovered they were using vibration localization. Such field would power everything within it lights,clones,teleporters ect. Disruption of that field proved that all serves stopped working. The mission was successful. Though towards the end of the dream white dude wanted me to explain how this tech worked which I responded that wasn't going to tell him.

Vibrational teleporter just moves your vibrational pattern between two points sort of like a primitive teleporter on star trek uses but there is no glowing lights or sounds. When it happens you don't feel anything your just there. Like teleporting as a Alicorn though when that happens there a popping sound as you teleport with the surrounding air and the glow afterwards is your magical aura dissipating    

Arrows

 Light cast arrows are angelic weapons. Each arrow has a small vibration crystal within the arrow head. Within the crystal was a small particle of source energy suspended with a vibrational field the particle is only stable with in the field. Once the arrow make contact with the target the crystal cracks and the field collapses thus releasing an enormous amount of lethal energy.  

Darklings

 Darklings are corrupted folks that are extremely dangerous and unpredictable. Never engage one face to face or talk to one. If you must maintain extreme readiness at all times. As of yet there are none here though there may spirit that fit that description then if you think there one located then you must avoid that area.

Broken

 I can't really make out the beginning part of the dream just was looking for my friends from equestria. Saw this weird tram like ride/roller coaster. Flutters was driving the tram and all my friends were on the tram. For some reason they didn't recognize me and I turn fled crying and hopped into this weird flying sail ship While I was controlling this thing I my hands turn into hoof then back again. I thought saw ponyville in the distance and i sobbed some more . Found a tree to settle down next and fell a sleep. Its like the astral travel i had before I could see my body from before in a third person.

Invention

 Its small portable device that can fit into the palm of your hand when folded up. As such when unfold it will look as though a have small window of sorts when it fully powered you will be able to see a outline of possible destinations. Selecting the destination allows for the device to fully deploy. With special a button on the bottom you can make it as big as you want it to be. Then just place it  up right and poof you have your own personal portal. When walking through it will appear on the other side too. You grab the top of the device then shake it and it will undeploy. In most other cases it reacts to your thoughts. Also has a built in harmonic shield that lets selected users through it and keeps baddies from following you. There is also harmonic lock feature on it as well allowing if on the right either use a code word or thought to call the device to you.

Crushed

 Had a dream visit by my friends from home then they went back through portal which closed i was desperate to follow them but I couldn't find the portal just some sort plastic mlp stuff. I cried in dream and woke up extremely depressed.

Blossom

 Blossom Tree Hugger's daughter dream visited me today. She is about Apple Blooms age. She wanted to know how I was doing. She had her cutie mark too. One of Emerald's daughters. 

A place to hide

 During my training with GM I had found a place no one could find me. I would often go there to just sit and think of home,my friends, and everyone I left behind. Often i would go there to cry. Seeing as my instructors thought crying was a weakness. I would often hide my feelings and do what they wanted. When I would get to my secret place i would cry and letting it all out. GM knew where it was but would tell no one. 

Awesome experience

It started out my twin sister Sunset was spirit visiting while our brother Emerald was in the car and i was in the store getting gas. As soon as i got back in both me and brother started smelling french roast coffee which there none of us had. Also being a medium of sorts my sister told me she thinking of the brand of coffee which i do remember she always loved to drink in the mornings before she would head off to school. I would just sleep in and do some chore while she was away. She kept thinking of it on and off while on the way back home after i dropped Em off. 

Reality hopped

 Some how i reality hopped into an advanced Equestria along with Tender Hoof. I could feel the wind hitting my feathers and it felt so good.There were ponies everywhere and it felt good just be among them.We were inside some sort of aquarium and planetarium mix. There was some sort of event going on.

Friends

 Had a really big surprise this morning all of my friends from ponyville had dream visited me. 

Family

 I remembered another family i had that accepted me . Iron Hoof and Tender Hoof.

My life after GM

 When I finally got out of Great mother's service I went to canterlot to my mom and dad's place. As soon as I knocked on the door. Mom answered the door and I wanted to cry so much. She just stood there in complete shock and before I knew it I was engulfed in a hug. I was ushered inside and I had found out that Twi was no longer living back at home. Mom and Dad wanted to know what had happened. Over some tea I told her everything that i had been through my intense training by GM and her major Domo. After a while of questions they were very angry with what i had endured. They had sent a message to Sunny Skies(Princess Celestia) I had returned and she had come over to visit. I was given a massive hug. They explained what i had been through to mother. I don't much what happened after that i just found myself back in my bed.

Most what i can remember is a blur. I know that may change. Most of my friends had graduated and had moved on to other parts of Equestria. Sunny Diamond had moved to cloudsdale to start her new job with the weather factory. The next day i flew to Cloud Dale to visit my family there and visit one of my best friends. Turns she just ended her shift when i saw her. The shock on her face was priceless. She tackled me in a hug. We spent the next couple hours just talking about everything even  everything I had been through. She really wasn't very happy at the training I had to endure. She told me that my other friends here in the city some had gone to wingopolis while others had stayed with the city. As we made our rounds i ran into some old friends Spits and another friend I don't remember  her name. After some time I made to mom and dad's place both were outside just enjoying the weather. Before I could even land they both tackled me with hug. Spent the next few weeks in both canterlot and Cloudsdale writing to my friends and getting more relaxed at being back. Shining had entered the guard also seeing my twin sister caddy. Also had learn Dash gone off to live in ponyville. At that time I was doing a part time job with the weather team for canterlot. My friend Sunny had helped me get the job. At that time I just wanted a fresh start and i run into Rainbow. It felt good to see her again. She mentioned Ponyville and that it was very small town. That i should give it a try. She help me move to ponyville. Since she was on the weather team there all i had to do was ask my captain if i could switch teams. With the paperwork filled out I was on my way to Ponyville. I bunked with dash for few months and made a few friends in town.

I saved up every bit i could plus the 2k bits from the government every pony gets per month. I was able to buy own small house. WIth some magic I able to increase its size within. I also while bunking with dash I would give money as rent she wanted to refuse because i was her and sister. She would have none of it. Instead i used the money to stock her fridge with food.

I spent the next few years working on the weather team part time while Dash had made captain. I had made a few friends around town. Strawberry, Aj, Rarity, Fluttershy, and Pinks just name a few. Any time I would go some where i would explain that yes I'm alicorn and no I'm not a princess. 

When it came to defeating Nightmare Moon it was an act of love that distracted the Darkling. That what gave my friends and I the chance to become the elements and direct them against Moon. Freeing my aunt and also revealing a secret to my other friends. Which they were shocked at but given time didn't really think much of it. Promised never to reveal it.It was a special type of magic that allowed anyone with it to be free to discuss anything but if it came to the secret itself they would forget what they were talking about.Only the one who cast it could bring someone within the circle.

Coming out

 I just remembered something as I was coming back after I had gotten my brother out of another mess I saw Cadance and shining armor pass by on a coach. The look in her eyes was hurt as I had missed the wedding. My brother still acting goofy thought would cover for him again. I told him when I see my friends that I would come clean about the messes I got him out of and all the accuses I had made for not being at certain events. On the way back to ponyville me and my brother had gotten into a heated exchange. He would always guilt trip me into covering for him or promise him something. It wasn't easy to tell Twi and company where i had been and what happened. How close he and I had been to death. The sheer disappointment on their faces made me want to cry. Afterwards they had wanted to talk amongst themselves. I was worried that they didn't want to be friends with me after all this because of all the excuses.   I had teleported away towards one of AJ outward sheds in the back of her property. I created a opaque field and as part that field I made it so no one could hear me. I cried and I cried till Twi broke through my field. All my friends were there and they hugged me. They told me that they forgave me and that everything would be ok.

Unpleasant training gaining perspective

 GM wanted to teach me perspective on what it was like to be male and to understand them better by forcing me to become one. I really didn't like it and it didn't feel right. I spent about a 6 months and had my mindset altered too for experience. I can remember telling others that i was the son of Celestia. Though times I would remember being female but it like trying to grasp at air. GM reverted me back. Its like I was watching someone use my body and i was along for the ride. She took an alternate me and brought him in. Merged the two of together thus letting me have that experience but also letting him of that same experience as a mare for a different perspective. Gm returned the both to our realities. How GM did this was it was an alternate self was teaching her student a new perspective. I didn't like it one bit but it gave me what i needed to learn about males.    

Training by Great Mother

 I was teenage filly when i was trained in various ways of disabling enemies. GM felt the best way to train against something was to actually face it directly. There are some memories when i think of them left terrified beyonds words. I can face it but it scares me to the core. Darkness not abstract concept of something without light. This is a thing that corrupts everything in it wake. GM would always watch and intervene at the last second if i failed to defend myself. It wasn't easy. It felt like diving into cold water and you feel like you can't breath. Like very life is being sucked out of you. To defend yourself you must embrace your own darkness and find balance within yourself. Your light won't be extinguished. Doesn't mean I wasn't hurt by any of these experiences.I used to cry myself to sleep from missing home plus getting hurt by all the training majordomo of GM was teaching me fighting styles. He was tough and yet fair to a degree. He didn't like it when i cried but over time that went away. And I became better at defending myself from both magic and physical attacks. I remember i had question for gm one day "What was it like to be her?" She showed me with guiding presence. She showed me earth and let me experience everything at once for only a second. I was literally everything on that world from the trees to the lowest life form all within a second. It overwhelmed me but she helped me process all the information and understand it over time. Funny thing was all of this was a span of 3 to 4 year equestrian time when actually it felt like i had been for thousands of years. Most of what i had learned I didn't want those powers or the advanced abilities that came from them. I still don't them. To be like GM and my answer is no.So when people are so obsessed with ascending to a higher plane and they so willing to give up on family or friends. Then I would its really not worth it. That's just my point of view. 

The many places i was sent to. I was sent there to solve a problem and in many cases I came away with children of my own. Since i could travel in time thanks to what GM taught me. Learning about magic was an extreme passion of mine and was done on my own time. I would always be careful not to leave any traces of myself for others to follow me. I learned from gm how to shift my form from one thing to another. The core you would always stay the same just shifting your vibration slightly would allow you to take on different forms. Many unicorns and other of the same family have learned to shape shift something the changelings do on a whole different level. But i digress getting off topic. Life wasn't easy under GM's tutelage. When i returned to Equestria I did so because it was my own choice to leave. GM left me go and told me if wanted to go down that path in the future it would be there for me. To become like her. I told her that wasn't for me and it didn't feel right. To that she smiled at me. Like she knew it could end this way. She was a hard yet fair teacher. Confusing as hell.  

One last thing my brother Emerald had the same training as i did,

Old Memories New Details

 Sunny and I were coming home from her house. We were joking around and laughing. I'm telling really bad jokes. Mom(twilight velvet was going meet us. There lots ponies on that bridge day. I just remember hearing a cracking like something was falling apart. I don’t know what had me think of flying under the bridge . Sunny followed me as we could see cracks forming . I could see the terrified look on my friends face. Without thinking I tried to use my magic to hold up the bridge I was barely able to hold it. I turned to sunny and told her to get everyone off the bridge. While at the same time I could feel my horn hurting so much. I remember screaming in pain. Then there was this strange booming sound and it’s like sudden in flux of magic. I felt like I could do anything and holding the bridge up was easy. I also wanted to keep everyone safe twilight velvet (mom)was on that bridge too. So magic was going through me. Then the magic was gone in a flash. I passed out. Only to wake up in a hospital bed. The room was an off color light blue with a small bed side table along with a small chair right across from the bed. There was also another chair off to the left. When I woke up the lights were out and it was dark outside I could barely see. Right across the room was a unicorn and on my left I knew someone was there. At that moment I felt drained like ever mussel in my body ached and I felt so I tired. I was scared but comforting feeling over came me and I soon fell asleep. I was in the hospital for over a week and half. From  what i can remember the doctor had said Sunny had saved my life and that I had magic exhaustion . I had my mark though I couldn't fly or use magic for the next three weeks. Sunny and my other friends would often visit me. I also got scolded from both my sets of parents along with my siblings Dash,Twi and Shining.

Home

 My house in town. It has a short roof on it with navy blue siding with door that is painted off color white. Its next to the tea shop in the center of town.I  When I'm working in clouds dale I have a small small apartment in the sky district.I just remembered the name of the street. Horse shoe lane. I can see the sign I can make out of the other signs but they are blurry. The farmer's market is on the west side of town. I would often for go teleporting there or flying preferring just to walk there sometimes. Sometimes i would see Aj selling her apples there. She had the best apples in all of equestria. Sweet and crunchy. Sometimes walking past her farm I could smell the apples on the wind.

Quest for finding Emerald

 The idea how I incarnate was planned . That everything was random was false. This was a plan from the get go events were arranged to the best of our abilities. Some of the events that happened to me growing up were unplanned. Twi and bunch of us had one mission to bring Emerald home. The idea was once I found him we would be extracted by one of two ways either through the dream realm or in the physical domain both failed. It leaves the only is to live out our lives here. I never thought that I would meet other Equestrians here and some would become my dearest friends. Regardless when we pass we are going home. The reason I was packed to go was because I had experience because I’ve been incarnated before. Things never go as planned. I don’t think the girls are going to give up.

Connections

 Something I remembered from the time I spent in the sanctuary I was bullied by the other foals as I wasn't as tall as they were. I was different than they were.i just remembered it took me a long time to heal from that experience. Even my mom soul sharing with her friends to give us all the stable families to grow up in. I was new to the whole thing. I thought i was a burden to them both Windy Whistles and Bow and the Sparkle clan. I used to cry a lot. They opened up there hearts. I gained family and friends. Twilight Velvet used to help me fall sleep. Twi ,Shining and Rainbow gained 5 new siblings and they opened their hearts. When i once was talking to him I was saying how i was damaged and he got really angry told that wasn't damaged. I guess i still carry the hurt around with me. I just buried it and tried to move on from it. Twi once climbed into bed with me as I was crying once. This when Twi was filly way before she became my mother student. I relative terms I was only a year or two older than Twi. Its hard to type it. I can still feel the hurt.

new memories

 I kept hearing about these so called great hunts that the humans had been doing and it was sort of in the past. So my brother and I made a plan to travel back to the point in time and rescue those unicorns. It was fairly easy to do. We ran ahead of the unicorns and I told them to follow my brother while i would lead the humans on a wild goose chase. I made myself slightly out of phase and used a light clone as well to confuse the humans. My brother got them safely back to the sanctuary and I got there a little afterwards picking a few foals who got lost. GM knew what I did and yet she wasn't angry her major domo was extremely angry with me. Yelled at me and tossed me out of one the gardens though when gm found she yelled at him. That was first time i had ever heard her yell. Also the unicorns we rescued went to live on in the sanctuary. The humans were hunting them for sport. The foals who were crying and Emerald made them laugh.

Living

 Sometime you have to live through pain and learn at least it seems that how it appears here. That some people who you think are friends here in this turn to be less than friends. Who only want to use you for their own ends. I don't know where my path will take me in this life. But once it ends here I'm never coming back to this world ever again and as far as humanity is concerned there are coming storms that will test humanity on a scale the likes of which they have never seen before. Things are in motion ,Change is in motion. Either go with or it will crush you in its wake.

Pain

 Kind of dug an old memory of sorts. The week after Aunty Lu got banished mom sent us way through a portal. I remembered I cried a lot along with my sisters and brother. I spent the next 1000 year in the unicorn sanctuary a place that is outside of time. My father never really kept any of his promises and I would get shuffled around between sisters and brothers. Every once in a while i would get to see my Twin sisters and my other sister and brother. Given names that were translation of our equestrian names into light language. I remember telling somepony that my name was Radiant Dawn and they would keep calling me Ko'onthra. Over time I just kind of accepted it. I guess there is some resentment there to what happened and being given a new name while living outside of equestria. Now its in the past but still hurts. At the time I felt like i had been abandoned. Like I wasn't wanted. There were times I cried myself to sleep. A few of my older sisters became mother figures to me. 

The fun of research

  In my reality we did the research on the elements even finding how the crystalline structure allowed for the energy to focus through the lattices. Also finding out that the pony was the source of the energy being taken then focused through certain type of lens thus allowing for the transfer of energy. All of the elements were connected through a harmonic field thus allowing them to come together. Also found that Tree of Harmony has a great deal of control over the elements through harmonic energy besides it being connected to Twi's castle which allowed it to use map to pin point areas of disharmony and use whatever ponies as a means of proxies to solve the disharmony going on. Further research on the tree back fired in a way that effected all ponies in my reality. In the attempt to map the crystalline structure of the tree and boost its effectiveness lead to a harmonic wave. I did see how the tree how the tree was connected to everything and the effects of us returning our elements to her. It was found the elements through their use would copy the vibrational signature of the pony wielding it and thus this would be shared with the tree upon returning the elements. The tree itself is an energy being of sort I hadn't seen before in Equestria . I found out that the physical form was just a proxy along with its other connections. As a element bearer I can tell when  the tree is in distress and can act to defend it as can any of the element bearers. Was also able to grow harmony crystals as a means of creating new elements of harmony based off what I learned from the tree and the elements. Wasn't to hard though with the help of my friends. To describe what the harmonic wave was it was a massive release of harmonic energy though the side effects were instant. It healed and gave every pony immortality to a point. The point being they could still die if by accident. Also it returned those of an advanced age to middle age in an instant. It also was later discovered that the tree had full control over the release of this energy and its desired effects. The tree also created a harmonic shield around itself though element bearers could freely pass through said shield as we were harmonically attuned to the shields frequency.

Doing research on how Twi's castle to could detect areas of disharmony was alot of fun in try to figure it out. we then made few discoveries in which Twi's castle acts like radar of sorts sending out sub  frequencies of harmonic energy and show it in real time.Part of the tree acts like a computer that processes the information coming in. It was also found that Twi's castle had defences of sort in regards that it could erect a shield around ponyville if the need were to ever arise. Though umm we accidentally caused the shield to be deployed took a few days for us to turn it off. There were other things within her castle that were of great interest such a hidden library of book made by Starswirl the bearded which greatly excited Twi in the extreme. I guess when the Twi castle was forming his collected works were part of the information and the library section too. I did learn in the outer realms how to grow cities and other advanced forms of magic. Starswirl attempts here were on the cutting edge of equestrian magic though in the greater sense they be viewed by an outsiders as baby steps to full child being able to walk in terms of civilizations growth. The research the went into this wasn't just me. It was Twi,Sunset,Starlight and Sunburst who helped make it a reality.        

traveling to new places

 Had another out of body experience I got visit Sunny and her friends for a short time. Somepony had a loud me to channel through them. It felt so good just be back in equestria for a short time. I got to introduce myself to them. They were very happy and Sunny's father was alive. I was able to talk to Sunny and her friends that they achieved something great. I had informed them that there others in the world that needed friendship. I also made a promise to return there if they needed me as a friend. Was in a toy shop and talking to few ponies till I lost focus. After this experience I feel at peace.

So desperate to talk to somepony

 I just have the overwhelming urge just to talk to another pony. Anypony to be exact. I don't mean to really  just to talk or well in this case type. I just need to talk some pony. I really wish i could make some good friends here. There are few good friends. I just wish i could just talk to fellow kin well I guess I already just wish I could relate more.Sometimes I worry that I will mess up and drive them way. I really suck at this. 

More memories

 Had a bit more of memory pop up from when i destroyed my mom's tower. Well there were 5 of us alicorns there 4 sisters and 1 brother. Sunset, me , Cadance, Dawn Light, and Emerald Night.Light didn't want to get into trouble and just watched us. Sunny had learned a new spell she had wanted to show us. Em, me and Caddy tried the new magic. Sunny was showing off that could use the offensive spell with ease by blowing up small boulders and not wanting feel out left we joined her. After while Sunny and i got into a contest of who could destroy the largest boulders. That's part where missed and hit moms tower blowing it up. We all knew how much trouble we were in so we decided to try and keep it a secret. Didn't last long cause Light confessed and the rest kind went downhill from there. Mom had in her room looking down at me with that kind look that moms have. She knew i had did it though i kept saying I wasn't there and that i was over friends house. She then asked which friend and I couldn't think of what to say. Eventually then truth came out which lead to another line questions who taught you that spell. We all cracked and revealed it was Sunny which lead to all of us being grounded. Besides that my sister Light was always the quite one while Sunny was a trailblazer. Back then she could be a bit arrogant and even stubborn hell we were all stubborn in our own way. I just remember one she wasn't there and no pony knew where she was and mom wouldn't tell me where she was. That really hit me hard.  She and I always had a friendly rivalry as sisters though in my neck of woods she my paternal twin sister along with Caddy.  We just sort drifted apart a little bit. Sunny was the glue that kept us all together. We each sort us went our own ways along having different spheres of friends. Still love one another. Who knows how things would have turned out if Sunny had stayed.(edited)

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One last thing me being taught magic by great mother was a choice I made which took me away from my family for 7 years in Equestrian time. It had been a year after getting my cutie mark. She ended sending me to different parts of the fae realms and other places to solve problems. In those places i learned about different magic and technologies. Some even took me far into the past and some into the distant future. It was hard road till one day i came home. A lot of happy faces along with reconnecting with friends I had. I had changed a bit. Mom had me promise that i wouldn't show any pony the books i had wrote or the inventions I had created. The way she had said it could have dire effects on Equestria's natural evolution of magic. Over the years i found loop holes that i could help my friends in subtle ways with my tech. An example would be everything that Equestria took as sold fact was wrong in so many ways. Like unicorns couldn't become as powerful as Starlight or the portals that many used were extremely primitive compared to other places.That some magics that were dead ends in equestria had whole branching trees of research of their own

Also one final thing I kept Communication devices with my friends from home throughout my journey. I kept in constant contact with them. I don’t think I could’ve made it through everything I’ve been through without them. Because I knew them since I was a filly.

Sunny Diamond

 Sunny Diamond one of my best friends growing up. Used to have sleepovers at her parents house in canterlot's south side a small stream flowed by her house. She was always telling me to be patient and i would get my cutie mark. That's the conversation we were having on that day. I can remember how she got her cutie mark we were playing around with clouds that day seeing if we could make funny shapes with them and laughing. She made this one cloud it really looked really cool and she got her mark. She was so excited and I was extremely happy for my friend. She was very understanding and a good friend. She got a job at the weather factory molding clouds. Every cloud has her signature touch to it. Eventually she made supervisor and was charge of whole department. After work the both of us would meet at a local donut shop where we would unwind from a long day and just chat. I would always make the time to go visit when i didn't have work. Just as she would make the time as well.

Cutie marks and rediscovering an old friend

 I agree with you. With mine is a heart with 3 stars and wings coming out of it. I just know I was a late bloomer and tried lot of advanced magic which got me into a lot trouble. I was coming home from a friends house i had slept over her name was Sunny Diamond and we were crossing the old stone bridge in canterlot. I heard crumbling sound and I didn't think I just took flight and flew under the bridge. Saw it was falling apart and I just used my magic to hold up the the whole bridge. I can remember the pain in both my wings and horn. My friend had flown down and i told her to get everypony off the bridge. I also remember some sort of booming sound and being given huge in flux of magic. It felt really good like I could do anything. Then I woke up in a hospital bed from the image i could see somepony sitting in a chair at the end of my bed.I felt so weak and tired. For me I tend to follow my heart. I love learning about magic and how its tied to the land. Also flying everything about the freedom of being able to go where ever you please. Feeling the wind as it passes over your wings just feels really good. For me my cutie mark it an an extension of myself as I see it as for meaning I think its hope and change.

Harmony Wave

 Its when you try to combine source energy with the tree of harmony. The idea behind it was to try to strengthen the the tree. Though it had rather unexpected side effect that effected everyone of the pony race with immortality,healing wounds and restoring anything lost to the body ie legs ect. It was one of my major screw ups as it was my idea. Twi and Starlight helped along with the other elements. It did have its desired effect of strengthening the tree just the wave wasn't really expected to happen but with heavy cost. While it gave somepony infinite life you could still die if say you fell off a cliff.

Immortality effects the time you have in the world as you can still get sick or break a leg. I learned about source energy from great mother and the magic around it. Along with engineering aspects that go along with it. There were many teachers in the sanctuary that taught in many ways. Most taught in the way of sharing their experiences from their own perspective. In a sense you live through their own experiences. Most what i learned came from them at the direction of GM.(edited)

Visit from family and inventions recalled

 I had dream visit from Caddy and Shinning. It was really good to see them again and this time i could literally feel the magic in the air. Felt like I was in equestria for a short time. Also remembered an invention of mine called Continuous Runes. Most other runes over time lose their charge. I created a tool infused with a small amount of source energy that aloud the one making the rune to infuse the rune with source magic thus allowing it never to be recharged again. To undo it just simply apply the same tool and it remove the energy thus removing the rune magic itself.

Foolish

 Also recalled a memory that I'm to keen to remember. One of the most stupid things I could have done. As Tirek was approaching Canterlot I decided to try to take him on by myself. I don't know where Twi was. I just thought i could take him on. I had the training to do it. Truth to be told I was out of my league so I did something equally reckless I used the same spell I would normally get source energy to power my inventions with except here. I opened myself up to the whole thing except i couldn't control it my whole body hurt just trying to control the spell and my horn hurt so much. I was trying charge up the spell. Trying hope the parasite would notice and take my magic with the spell. He didn't take the bate and hit me fist first into the ground. I barely had enough time to throw up a shield even then he kept punching the shield till I blacked out. Later I woke I was with the girls I barely had enough magic to heal myself. I felt so weak even when we all used the rainbow laser on him. I was still very weak and could barely stay wake. Just remember passing out.

Intro

 Name: Radiant Dawn/ Ko'onthra

Age: 44

Gender: she/her

Kin-types: Pony, Alicorn, soul shared the rest Kitsune,fairy, Centaur, Elf, mermaid

Explanation: Up to this point in my life I've just come accept who and what i am. I've had numerous spirit visits from my mates and friends from home. Soul sharing which i had explained to me via a dream visit from a fairy i know. She explained as a sharing of energy. Also it gives the ability to shift to form of your mate. It would be as if you were born of that race also creates a family bond with their family becoming yours.Example your mate's sister becomes your sister. I'm Alicorn from Equestria. It's just who and what i am.

Experiences: I've become something of a psychic medium though not as powerful as most only able to communicate with  those i have a connection to on the spirit plane. I've been awake for 7 years. When i first started out I thought i was just a unicorn which after this long journey I've remembered that I'm from Equestria. I'm a Alicorn .I've just come to accept that is who I am and moved on with my life. As for being Kitsune I had a spirit visit with my mate who i soul shared with. Thus I'm part kitsune because of that and she in turn is part alicorn. The same goes for the rest of my mates. I've had dream visits from my children from home.

Ideas

 Had few ideas about that in regards to the fall of Equestria  and trying to stop the loss of said magic. Just some ideas i had.  Idea one would be instead of having one council of friendship have multiple councils spread around equestria with having their own sector. A minister of friendship would have to be assigned to draw up report and let Twilight know whats going on also his or her duties would be communicating Twi's order to the other councils. A copy of the map would be provided to each guildhall. Each map would be connected to the tree of harmony. Idea 2 would be a book of friendship using the crystal tech i know which is pure technology just more advanced. The idea behind it is everyone would add their own friendship stories to the book.To the point it would be at some point it would be installed into a time capsule as it could provide some guidance. Said book would be protected from the ravages of time by using time to create a bubble of sorts. Also one could put all the collected works of Equestria into the vault.Said vault would have a harmonic lock on it. The key would be the friendships of each race with each other. As the key crystal would detect the vibration frequency given off by harmony among the friends. As for the loss of magic one would need a tool to follow the trace amounts of magic to the blockage then figure out a way of restoring it. Extreme case would be to funnel magic from another plane of existence via a conduit to the magical leylines of the effected realm also making sure both magic types vibrate at the same frequency if necessary using a converter to make the perfect match.

Iron Hoof

 I got to travel home briefly because earth pony let me see through his eyes.I was physically there. There is an old trade road the leads to equetria and I was 300 miles away from it.Its a boarder town There was a lady who allowed me to send a message though was more a code phrase it was" I am a student of Princess Celestia" I also got see his memories too. The earth ponies name is Iron Hoof a royal guard. I was able to resist the pull of this stupid body of mine for a time then i was dragged back here

Iron Hoof is both friend and father figure from back home.

Strawberry

 While eating some strawberries the other day I remembered my friend Strawberry Fields. She always had the best strawberries and Strawberry jam. She is an earth pony mare with a farm just to the far right of Applejack's farm. She also used to give my brother free strawberries.(edited)

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Family Reunions

My grandson spirit visited me this morning by knocking over the tv remote. Telepathically he very upset that I would be angry with him and I told him to calm down. To take a deep breath in which he did. Went back to sleep and was visited by my daughter Raine she was wearing a very stylish short dress and she had blue florent hair. We were talking for like a little while when i suggested we could go back the physical plane as time passed differently here. I've spent the morning with her which really uplifted my mood a whole lot. She living in the same city as my little sister Narella. Natellia often watches over me here in this life

Happy Reunion

 Had a memory pop in recently. Its about when Aunt Luna finally went home. She had just opened the door to the central parlor to the royal apartments when Caddy, Dawn Light, and Emerald suddenly stopped what they were doing. The shock on their faces was apparent. Caddy exclaimed "Auntie Lu!! and Light and Emerald  exclaimed " MOM!". All Three practically knocked over Auntie Lu hugging her and crying.

Contradictions

 I've really had it with humanity. The usa and the christians support Israel even though that same country does have the right to exist what it doesn't have right do is harm other people. Besides all that dealing with backstabbers and human family that you make 2 mistakes and they jump down your throat. When life is I'm never coming back to this world ever and humanity can go F themselves as far as I'm concerned they are a complete waste of time and space. They going to destroy themselves at some point I say let them. Weather they sink or swim I don't really care anymore. I don't trust humans here in this world. 

Remembering

 I just remembered something when I used to live in Canterlot and Cloudsdale with both my adoptive families. When I was in Canterlot as a filly mom told me I could go anywhere in the city but there off limit places i couldn't go. Like the upper city or leave the city limits. She would always know where i am because of tracking spell. I would never want to see that disproving look from her. When I was in Cloudsdale for flightcamp I had stay within the neighborhood. Both families are my families and I love them all. They were the active parents in my life. My birth would make the effort when she had the time my father was all duty and I hardly ever knew him. Every time I would go to the unicorn sactaury or the fae wood as the herd often move between them. I would be visiting my family there. He broke several promises to me when I was a filly and I used to cry myself to sleep when I was there. Often longing to go back home to be with my loving families.

Philomena

 I have a some very fond memories of my mom's companion Philomena. That Phoenix was both a good friend and pain in the flank. Often times she would keep watch over me and my siblings and would let mom know if we up to something. There was even a time when she used to tickle Emerald to the point of him begging for her to stop. She can a real punk when she wants to be.

Visits from friends

 Had another dream visit from Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, and Twilight though for some odd reason i ran away from them for some reason. When I came back asked some person where they were and I missed being able to talk to them. I cried in dream. Within the that same dream i had a memory. Something had happened between Rarity and me. I was heart broken so I ran into apple Jacks old barn in her back lot. Ran around a hay bale,created a shield but i made so no pony could see me and I cried . Twilight was able to get past my shield and was there when i needed her. Turned out to be a misunderstanding though i believe it was the first time I told rarity of my feelings for her. I another dream visit Twilight visited me with a few friends but then I felt they were in danger so i teleported them all to safety. I felt sad that couldn't at least be able to have just some time with them as they really can't visit me all the time.

Machines for Rares

 I remembered two machine I made for Rares and the cutie mark crusaders. The machine for Rares was a full walk in booth where a pony would enter and be scanned for their measurements. Also part of the machine could replicate any dress Rares had designs for allowing her to make multiple copies. It could also take the measurements and apply them to the dress saving Rares time. Before I left Rares had three of these machines in her stores. It also could display a dress in a holographic picture allowing Rares to customize on the fly. As for the CMC  the machines are small pendant designed to help them help ponies find their cutie marks. The crystals scan the ponies vibration and provide a list of possibilities in holographic form for the cmc to decide on what to try.  I suppose i could have designed to help stream line the process though my intension was to help and not all the fun out it for them. Rares often remarked that the pendants were very stylish and I know that Sweetie loved her pendant.(edited)

The Mer

 Just learned the name of the mermaid race that is part of family and my that i soul shared with. The name of their people is call the Ceena.My seven daughters are of that race..Don't know where they are now though it seemed we could both walk on land and in sea. Freely change our legs into tails. Breathing water felt smooth and natural. Their capital existed over 156,000 years ago.

Machines for Rares

 I remembered two machine I made for Rares and the cutie mark crusaders. The machine for Rares was a full walk in booth where a pony would enter and be scanned for their measurements. Also part of the machine could replicate any dress Rares had designs for allowing her to make multiple copies. It could also take the measurements and apply them to the dress saving Rares time. Before I left Rares had three of these machines in her stores. It also could display a dress in a holographic picture allowing Rares to customize on the fly. As for the CMC  the machines are small pendant designed to help them help ponies find their cutie marks. The crystals scan the ponies vibration and provide a list of possibilities in holographic form for the cmc to decide on what to try.  I suppose i could have designed to help stream line the process though my intension was to help and not all the fun out it for them. Rares often remarked that the pendants were very stylish and I know that Sweetie loved her pendant

Thought Forms

 I just remembered some magic : Thought forms is a magic based clone that does whatever you want it to do. It can be destroyed with no ill effects on the user. adding to its spell matrix you can add add sensory perceptions to it as such you would take more direct control of it. Seeing,Hearing and feeling everything it feels everything but pain though suppose you could at that well if you wanted too. I remember using it for my highly dangerous experiments in regards to better understanding atlantean technology.Part of that branch allows the users to be in many places at once shifting your focus between the energy clones.

Family is family

Just learned the name of the mermaid race that is part of family and my that i soul shared with. The name of their people is call the Ceena.My seven daughters are of that race.Don't where they are now though it seemed we could both walk on land and in sea. Freely change our legs into tails. Breathing water felt smooth and natural. Their capital existed over 156,000 years ago.

Perspectives

 The world would be a much better place if we accepted other peoples points of view and try to learn from one another. Instead of tearing each other down to prove one point of view over another. Both point of view are right in their own way. Before you judge try to see the other other person's point or walk a mile in his shoes to see where he is coming from.

Twilight

 I guess I entered her dream that's how it seemed. She in this flooded room trying to do research of some kind. I was asking how she got here and what was the last thing she remembered. She told she doing some spell. I just felt good to be with my friend again. Then there was this strange woman who entered the dream. I approached her and informed her saying ," Twilight is my friend and sister hurt her and I have friends that can drop kick you into a star." This woman ran away very quickly. She had some old 1950's car towards the end of the dream there was a construction crew working on the road. Funny thing is the house and the road I know where they are. after i woke up i felt really bad about what i had said to the lady and really wanted to apologize.(edited)

Friends and more friends

 I remember Great Mother had sent to deal with a problem and that was local pack of werewolves were having problem. I mastered their magic and in turn helped them master their own magic. Came away with a pack and also met one of great mothers friends. They are like a beholder from dnd except they ran a magic shop. Being they are a group of three with a shared mind. I was able to act to prevent violence because of a human friend and provide them with the payment they wanted and deliver gm's crystal to her friend.As for the werewolf magic it was shifting from a human form to that of a werewolf.Shifting wasn't painful it fluid like water which is what i taught the werewolfs and I stayed till they had mastered their own magic.

the serenity

 It was something me,Cadance, Sunny, my sister Dawn Light  and my brother built for our mom and his aunt for summer sun celebration the 20th one . It was never launched and still sits in the royal airship hanger built into the side of Canterlot mountain.It used lots of advanced magics to make it. The building materials were some form metal and crystal. The idea behind it was it was to used as a ship of peace. I think we went a little over board  or over engineering it. It had many advance features to it. It has dual coaxial harmonic drives, A portal system that can open portals to anywhere on the planet delegates are given a beacon which allows them to open a portal to the ship, A replication system that uses harmonics to replicate any type of food the user wishes as each food has a harmonic signature. There is a database within the ships memory that allows for anything to be made. Several suites are built within the ship as it has three decks. Crew quarters is on the third deck,second deck comprises a meeting hall along with personal quarters for the delegates,first deck is open to the sky along with the bridge but for the most part the ship doesn't need to be steer as simple voice or thought commands can be given. The ship comes equipped with several defenses. First is the harmonic lance it fires harmonic energy in a multiphasic beam and a several stun lances, A multi phased harmonic shield with dual layers how it works is the shield rotates frequencies several times a second.

The heart of the ship is a literal heart that pumps magic through out the ship using liquid crystal. I modeled it after organic bodies. The ship main intelligence is is contained on the third deck it comprises a constantly shifting harmonic matrix latices rotating on several frequencies. The drive themselves work on the principle of changing the vibration of the ship so air flow and gravity have no effect on it which rotates through several variations. If it were needed said drives could allow space travel if the need arose. It has a built in automated self repair system as well which part of the body of the ship uses harmonic profile of the ship as a template and can repair the ship right to the exact specs using the vibration of the ship. a piece of the tree of harmony was used in its creation its tied to both the tree and twilights castle.   The Dwarven metal is interwoven with dwarven runes with in laid mithril interwoven within the metal lattices. Thanks to magical conversion its bigger inside than it appears on the outside.  Magical Conversion works by creating a separate dimensional space with the same construct using Hadar's conversion theory as a basis of the general Conversion from magic to crystal ratio. Allowing for a bleed off effect for the extra energy which is created. Special scoops had to be created within the in the crystalline Matrix of the ship The reasons behind the scoops are to prevent an energy cascade from happening. Its away of removing additional energy from building up. The added energy is sent to the converter to be repurposed into whatever energy the ship needs till then it held with in capacitor on the third deck.

2 year old memory

 Sigh here i don't remember to much but here goes. Everything in the universe vibrates on certain frequencies even at the subatomic levels. Using that mindset you can track anything in the known universe but listening to right frequency. Crystals give of certain frequencies and using harmonic resonance of said crystal you can make just about anything you could ever imagine. Runes within the crystal lattice funnel the magic or energy into doing what you want it to do. Some are used to make advance computers back home while other can be used and act as a prison containing the energy of a bad guy as it were. One could even create a magical engine to power just about anything as magic just another form of energy. It all comes down to the lattice of a certain crystal and using special tool to alter the lattice a certain way so to speak and create a pathway for the energy.

A magical engine is basically a device that draws in energy of some kind and converts it into an energy that you can use to power said object. Like for instance one engine using the power of love could take that energy and convert it into an energy to make an energy field to surround a certain structure though course said structure acts like focusing beacon to project said field around it.

To those don't think love is an energy well when you love you give off energy. Hell any emotion you give off releases said energy. A magical engine would just capture said energy and convert into something more usable. When said engine feeds off a certain type of energy it needs that sort of energy constantly to sustain it reaction. Sort of like what goes on in a star. Back home i understand the math behind all of this. I have many war machines or Golems that use this concept. They a crystal that gives off a constant charge that fuels the engine in turn power the golem and powering everything. The Golems are one of my greatest creations as they were meant to fight the darkness and have many anti magic runes built into their armor they also have built in energy projectors that add a layer of energy over the hull. Every Golem has both energy and melee weapons, Low yield projectile weapons, Portable energy shields, containment crystals. There more sleeker ones that can act as assassin's if the need were to arise but for the most part they are only to be used in extreme instances. To date none of these have ever been needed that

A quote that really speaks to me

 “The light is what guides you home, the warmth is what keeps you there.” – Ellie Rodriguez.

Friends from other places

 Azure Mist

Haycart

Nü Kua

amethyst star

Norrea

Peach Spark

Seaswell

Kellydell                  

Crupper father of  Sparky                             

 Aunt Iggles aunt of Sparky                                  

 Aglet mother of sparky                                  

Candle Seed sister of Peach spark

Second Sight

Azure Wave

Civil Liberty - Liberty Belle

Civil Patrol

Hot Pink

Rose quartz

Amber Spire

Violette

Sunny Skies

Stormy Skies

Crispy Crust

Eekrea kitsune One of my mates

sassafras

Sweet Chard

Moondancer

Lemon Hearts

Twinkleshine

Minuette

Lyra

Cloadkicker

Strawberry Sunrise

From certain point of view

 Everything within my blog is from my own perspective, experiences,dreams,astral travels. My journey through this life and once this life comes to an end I will begin new journey or rather continue the one I was on before coming here. I can't this world has changed me as I've learned new things about humanity both the bad and the good. Understand even if you don't agree with anything within this blog I don't really care. I hope you find peace in this life and what comes after.

Helping Hoof

 A few days ago I was in a real bad funk and really had an overwhelming need to be with other ponies. As it turned some friends from an alternate reality allowed me to dream through their perspective. It actually helped with that need. I'm grateful for the help.

Rainboom

 Rainbow is just awesome in that regard. I think I tried it once and ended up crashing into the local water hole. I didn't take into account the aerodynamic factors which Rainbow was able to do it as she came at a steeper angle than i did. After several tries I managed to do it under the watchful gaze of Dash. The feeling was pure bliss. You could feel every part of you crackling with energy and speed left wanting for more. When you were in that state you're vibrating at a very high frequency. I theorized if you were to travel any faster that you could slip through time  as you were vibrating at high frequency with your mind you could direct yourself to where ever you wanted to go. Though I did try it and I almost died because of it. Cause i almost phased into a mountain. I was trying it out on a small scale. I guess you could say I got off to a "rocky start".  Couldn't help but put a pun in there.

Later on I was successful in second attempted as I used a crystal to stabilize my vibration to the point of allowing me to go faster. I even found in this advanced state you could run extremely fast as well. It seemed to have no limits to this ability though without the stabilization Crystal your molecules would fly apart. Said crystal was about the size of a small diamond thus it was easy to install into a aerodynamic suit. With help from Rares for making it for me I was able to make channels for the energy from the crystal to effect the whole suit. Though if anypony found out what i was up to they would have stopped me as the risks were really great.I have really bad habit of doing risky things when it comes to magical research as i often tested it on myself.

Dream of home

 Had dream where i saw one of my friends The human Rarity and Dash we were walking down the street. Later part of the dream I thought I was back in Equestria along side 3 friends Rares , Dash, and Flutters. I had seen a glimpse of Cadance and i wanted to go visit her along wit visiting my mom and Auntie Lu. Looking down at myself I still had hands and feet then I realized it was a dream. I said to the dream versions of my friends ," Why do i have hands and feet. I should have hooves." At the moment just felt like the wind was just taken out my sails and I wanted to cry. Turns out my pet came to keep me company from home. He was a parrot. Still felt really down in the dream.

new mission and new direction

 Once my time here I'll be helping some others in another reality to get home. My friend Steph gave

me a tarot card reading: Art Divination Reading: This green dragon is the master of grass, foliage, plants and growing things. Green is the color of life, renewal, nature, energy, harmony, freshness, safety, fertility, and environment. This color is associated with money, finances, banking, ambition, greed and jealousy. The dragon is the traditional symbol of the divine feminine, with the spreading wings representing the water of creation. The dragon is traditionally associated with goddesses such as Ishtar, Tiamat and other divine feminines that represent the ultimate power of creation.

This represents gardening and growing. Getting and and getting dirty might not always be feasible, so what are some good indoor things if you're feeling cooped up? Why drawing! Art! Photography! Look up some nature shows on TV and enjoy the for the time. Spend some time getting in touch with mother nature. You can do so within your home, you can even grow house plants or air plants. If you're not much of a green thumb, maybe its time to pick up a gardening book, a starter gardening set and plant a few seeds. Looking for some easy starters? Ask your local gardeners or the nursery whats the easiest, hardest to kill thing and see what they get you started on for your region. If you're feeling creative enough to draw, maybe go take a picture from nature, or grab something simple like a leaf or feather from outside. Really study it, draw it (you can be as little detailed or as much as you want). Enoy the process and as you do it, remember back to all the fun times you have had in nature or with plants. Want to preserve plants to enjoy during the off season? try pressing flowers or plants during the blooming season to bring out during winter. This is a blessed card for the writer, as the dragon in the tree once was a symbol of the writer. Some trees were said to have dragon spirits or dryads or other tree spirits in them. This is an opportunity to connect with those. Some ancient tales from the early days of paper would say that writers would commune with the tree spirit to create their books and art. This is a reminder to listen to nature and the stories the plants tell us. Also, keeping an eye on the health of your local plants will give you indications of the local environment's health.

Missing Home

 I really miss home,my family,friends. My magic and my wings. Lately I've in a real funk. I miss equestria  My home. I feel so hopeless.. I don't know just feel like a waste of space. I just feel so hopeless. I wish I could talk to my mom hell I wish I could just talk to anypony at all. I'm just so tired of humanity.

Feeling Lonely

 Just want to be among my own kind. To be lost in a sea of ponies. At times I feel the overwhelming feeling of wanting to just go home and be with my family. I just want to go home.

Walking Paths

 I would often spend time visiting my family in the unicorn sanctuary.One time  gm took me to the higher planes of existence to visit and for a lesson. From my own eyes it really didn't look that much different than here or anywhere else. Though you could feel others emotions and even use them to talk to one another. This where I met my great aunt and uncle who live there Aunt Shara'Atena and Uncle Batten'Onooth both are brother and sister. I also have a few sisters there too. When someone laughs it tickles you can feel it in your being. Though when I was there i was very young so my perception was very limited. The adults made it so I wasn't overwhelmed. They let me incarnate on very simple thing as an asteroid. I could feel being weightless and I could slightly perceive the world around only through vibrations. When the lesson was over i was blown away by what i had experienced and I was filled with even more questions most of which they would tell me. As they would often say," You will discover it in time. Don't rush it, experience it, Take the slow path and enjoy life." Both my Aunt and Uncle were so full of love and understanding. If I made a mistake they were always to encourage me through love and understanding.

Massive Mistake

 I recently had an epiphany thought my mission was to get my brother Emerald out of a mess but I've come to realize that I was one who screwed up. My brother told everyone where he was going and what he planned on doing. I didn't think to ask . I just acted without thinking. So now I'm stuck here.

Dream of the Past

 When GreatMother sent me to help and learn from the elves. I learned alot magic along with fighting the corrupted to help my elven friends. I shared my heart with my mate and gained an elven family. Kiree is my elven sister who slowly corrupted by a stranger who entered fort that i commanded. Lost control of said fort and my sister/friend was corrupted. On a patrol it was easy to break through the shambling hordes all they were was a bit of magic in simple harmonic matrix that given direction. After break through my Corrupted friend was expecting to fight instead all told her was i wanted to talk. I got her agree to release my friend and leave the fortress. Released her corrupted self into the corrupted lands. As far corrupted selves go its like having an echo of the person you used to be roaming around.

Good friends are often hard to find

 Had dream memory I was over at Scie-Twi's house over in the other world. I was helping her clear the snow of my car and hers. Also clearing the snow off her drive way. I was suppose to visit her on Saturday at 10:30 am because of her birthday. She one one my best friends over there. I had rented a apartment in advance and had a car there as well. I also get the feeling she dating my sister Sunset or she going to pop the question. Also had memory of a friend over in Ponyville who is a doctor with a syringe cutie mark. Though describing her as Scie-Twi really just feels insulting. She shines in her own light.

Homesick

 Every day is the same sort thing I'm always homesick even when i can distract myself from it. I guess i should surround things that remind me of home though most those very things do exist in this human world. Often times i will never understand humans no matter how long i live here with them. Greed is so out of control it isn't even funny. They devote so much to thier military and let their common citizen starve and not have a place to call home. This is utter insanity why do they this happen? To anyone from who reads this know that I'm trying my best to remain positive.

Atlantean Soul Harvester

 an Atlantean soul Harvester. Purpose of taking spiritual energy and breaking it down useing vibrations. It operates like a metronome going between two points. On the hand there is crystal that glows a soft blue. The machine is ornate. A discharge of energy is given to the crystal as it moves between the nodes. I remember hearing the screams of those that were being broken down. They would fade after a while then out the other end of the machine would come this light blueish fluid that would collect in a pool. There were many pipes from this pool leading holding tanks. The reasoning behind said machine is to provide fuel from spiritual energy

  There is a filtration system built into the inner working of  the machine. The fuel in question a had positive and negative charge to it. Given what this kind fuel was used to power were the weapons of war as such the feared siege golem. Said golem used the fuel to both charge its weapons and its own inner workings. As such it had a holding tank of a sort that used a vibration field that would switch back and forth between negative and positive. The rest of machine was built sort of like an organic body with a heart to pump the fuel around the body as needed. There a interal computer of a sort though used several liquid crystal latices to maintain its internal systems. As for main driving intelligence there really isn't any there just a basic friend or foe computer along with targeting. Said computer uses liquid crystal tech to do the calculations. It was found the fuel over time would corrupt the inner workings of both machines as well as wipe out all life around said machines

Truth

 To get where i am today has taken me a long road to get here. Dealing many things some of which were lies and other drama I had to deal with. Now in the middle of a pandemic with no end in sight. I still have a long road ahead of me.

Mark of Destiny

 Remembered how i got my cutie mark cause up to the point i was something of late bloomer. I had some lessons in vibrational magic from one of my sisters. I constantly was wondering when i would get my mark. The day I got it was a beautiful day outside not cloud in the sky over Canterlot. I was spending time with my brother Emerald and Dawn Light. We were crossing the old stone bridge on the west side of Canterlot. I could see that there were cracks starting to form underneath my hooves. So I acted I flew really quickly under the bridge and used my magic to hold it up with best of my ability. I remember my horn hurting alot and my brother flew down and i told him to get everypony off the bridge. I heard a loud boom and felt huge surge of magic flow through me allowing me to hold up the bridge. I know I passed out afterwards and woke up in my mom's personal medical ward. I felt completely drained and i ached all over. My mom was there sitting there watching over me.  i know she told i got my cutie mark then I fell asleep.

Unicorn

Just remembered something when my friends went to the Grand Galloping Gala I wasn't there cause i had to get my brother out of another mess he got himself into. He did something to anger some really powerful people and I managed to get him out of it. I think he went off to try and save some unicorn ponies who were enslaved only to be caught himself. I set the ponies free and got my brother out of the mess he was in. Even though the ponies there thought of me as a savior I still wasn't much of a friend. Its just another regret i have. I know for fact i would still have gone to save those unicorn ponies. They had curved horns.

Teleporting

 When teleporting anywhere you just need to focus your will on the target destination. How I did it back home was I would think of my home or the place I wanted to go. Focus on that place and pof i would be there. Though of course there is alot to teleporting it's all about the focal point ie the target place you want to go to and charging up the right amount of magic for the spell. Constant practice its what let's you get to any place and always start small. Baby steps.

Wonder Bolt

 I remember in the reserves operated on a merit based system. The more merits one has the more responsibilities one gets. Merits would be given to those that showed leadership skills and would often be given a rank in the reserves. There was also tier system too. There was an idea that I floated to Spit Fire. The idea was to create more teams though i really never got around to telling her. Also my nick name is "Hard Luck" as I made really big mistake and I was very hard on myself. The mistake was I overestimated the distance to the landing area and plowed head first into Spits. I knew her before she was a wonder bolt and she never let me forget that mistake too though it was humor based. I also remember Dash didn't want to be a leader of anything once she made the team, Spits wanted to give her more responsibility thus made her commander of the reserves. In charge of the training,feeding and recruitment. Special cases were to be sent my way for additional training. As the general rule is there is no wash outs.

Incarnated

 I've incarnated here 3 times. This is the third time around and I'm here bring my brother home. The first one was cause Great Mother asked us too . Second was with a sister of mine and we wanted to see something. I'm so tired of this world and dealing with two faced people.

Defend one friend lose another

 I defended one friend today on a rp site and lost 3 or 4 friends. Though the more I think about it the other three were never really friends as they never acted like it. Being here in this world people use a button to make a friend and yet these people arn't friends at all. I go by actions. If you have time for me then i have time for you. Treat me with respect and I will show you the same.

Sunsets of Rhode Island

 

A visit with a lover

 Just a little while ago i was able to spirit visit Rares at the nexus a hub between worlds. She was crying and I just wanted to stay with her. At the same time I was trying to remain focused as if i lost focus i would have been brought back here. I gave her some my magic and she in turn gave me some of hers. When I was there i wanted to cry but if  I did i would have lost focus and I was fighting with all might to stay there with her. Great Mother and many others helped make it possible.Green Leaf also made it possible and without her i would be lost. 

descriptions of great mother and Hard lessons

She is a black Alicorn though sometimes presents herself as a pure black unicorn. She is like mother and a teacher. She teaches by actions  as well as words. She exists in all times and places. She shift her focus to everyone of those selves. She is the leader of the unicorns of the sanctuary and all those who dwell within. She has taught me through action and sending to places where leadership was needed and in so doing showed me i could be a leader. Even though i doubt myself all the time. From those places i helped I came away with family and friends. From those lesson I hope maybe one when I'm ready, I to will lead my people even though i don't want that kind of responsibility. Mistakes of real dire consequences can be made by ones actions or in action. I've learned from her that being a leader is not easy in fact its hard

Sun Control

solar harmonization matrix is a large harmonic crystal that stands as big as a person whose sole function is to contain an out of control solar react. Its does this by stabilizing  the vibration of the star and absorbing the heavy elements within the star. It takes these elements and converts them into energy it needs to run. Thus its function is to control the star. Stars like everything else in the universe vibrate at their own frequencies and know how to control said frequencies allows one to do almost anything as nothing is impossible.

One of my good friends

Amethyst Flare one of my good friends from home. She could always see the good in others and would stick up for her friends. She may not one those ponies who throws themselves into danger but she is one the most bravest ponies i know. She inspires me to be better than myself.

memories

Had another flashback I was in a mall with Sunny and Starlight. Well they had just to the small as i was waiting for them. Prior to that i was staying at sunny's place as I was visiting for the week. So when this whole magic nonsense happened i was there for when it happened with an enchanted mirror that could effectively store everyone vibrations in pocket reality sort like how a containment shere works. Some idiot was using it like a toy and then got corrupted by it. It finally took Starlight get through to the girl while i was able to change the polarity of the mirror. It was a team effort that saved the day.I would always spend as much time as i could to visit my sister. Like after the girls and Twi defeated Sunny I elected to stay with her with my knowledge of portal harmonics I could open the portal at any time. I stayed with Sunny for a few weeks just make sure she was doing ok and for the fact i still had reservations about trusting humans.It with more interactions with my friends doubles I learned to start to trust them even made friends with them.

Can't be whole

Being a transwoman one would think I would be able to get SRS and get rid of the stupid thing between my legs I guess that not ever going to happen as I'll forever be stuck with it because of the blood thinner I'm on.

Out of a mess

Just had another dream of me getting my brother out of another mess he got himself into also while that was going on a whole mess was happening back home. I missed out on helping my friends and family when they could have needed my help. I know I left some things behind if or when they needed me. It just seems that I'm always bailing out my brother . It would seem I'm here to get him out of trouble here.

In the dream my brother was trying to woo this queen only thing was she was playing him for a fool and had gotten her people into a lot of trouble. Her neighbor to the north was invading and she had some how opened rift into the fire realm. So it seems I made her crystal shield and sealed off the rift. Got my bro out of another mess in the process sent a fire elemental back home. This may just be dream or a memory though i would still get him out of any mess he gets into. I mean who would get him out of the meses he gets himself into. The dude has a strong heart and he follows that. Kind of leads me here to this world someone had to watch his back.

Homeward

Everytime I get the chance to go home and then get denied it just makes me lose hope about ever seeing home. Every time I have an out of body I'm always ask anyone who listen not to send me back here. There have been time friends from home have tried to bring me home via portal through the dream realm as a target vector which has worked and they won't give even though I already have. Just knowing how close I was to getting home really hits home. I'm severely depressed because of it. Its not i could go to some therapist and say oh hey I come from a different reality and I'm here having human experience all the while watching over my brother who actaully came here to help humans. While we both have learned that humanity won't listen and any message brought will fall on deaf ears. Sure some will listen but they don't represent the majority.They are an extreme minority. This abit of a rant and I do apologize for it.

Homesick

I've come to realize that the stupid cartoon is just that a method of entertainment for the masses even if its crude and insult the very memory of them. The more I read the stories and watch the more homesick I get. All I want is to go home. I know this will be a long time coming and I won't see my home for many years.

Wings

Just been getting an overwhelming feeling of wanting to fly and use my wings. Sometimes it feel like just want really scream as I really want to fly. To be free. Whenever i felt stress i would go out for a flight over the Everfree as the wind currents there were unpredictable. I just felt so alive and i could feel the cool wind as it passed over my wings. Here the closest thing i can get to that kind freedom is driving my car and yet its still not the same thing.

failure of friendship

Coming here has shown me what a failure I am at being a friend to all those I left behind both here and there. Sometimes i just don't know what to do or do as some people here have stolen from me many times over. Some I thought were friends but turns out I was gullible.The only family I have here is my brother Em. As for friends that spirit visit I don't know if its them or someone pretending to be them. Ijust have to go with what feels right. There are times i just want to cry so much.Suffer in silence.

Dreams

Lately I've been feeling like a waste of space.Some dreams have let me see my twin sister.

Memories

The more I remember the more it hurts and the more longing for home for friends and family I left behind. Its harder going forward as it always has.

New memories

While I was opening gifts at my mom's place i remembered something from home. Rares gave me a gift of a white dress with blue sapphires and and diamonds. Also remembered a crystal I gave Rares for her birthday a crystal that could arrange her mane in any way she wanted. It was one of many inventions I made.

Hope and Dreams

Just had another memory pop in. The Anon-a-miss thing when Sunny friends betrayed her. I was on my way to visit my sister on the day it happened. She was distraught and I just wrapped her up in a hug. See I spent a number of days actively visiting Sunset where I made friends with her friends. I was very annoyed that they would cast blame so easily on her that I went over to them and told them," What the hell were you thinking? You really think my sister would give up all that she cared about." They still thought was her no matter how I tried to reason with them. I also told them till they come to their sense I'm taking my sister home. Sunny and I went towards the portal and then I placed a special crystal on the portal to change it harmonics and its destination. I took Sunny to the unicorn sanctuary where sunny got to be with her family. Our big sisters were all there and they promptly went over to comfort her. The reason for this is all of the unicorns there can feel emotions of others. Our family spent the next several days trying to cheer up Sunny. It wasn't working but there was few smiles there.Sunny found that she was an aunt many times over. One of our sisters went back to the humans that were Sunny's friends and confronted them head on. She wasn't in human garb. She appeared in front of them and told them how much they had hurt sunset. That she wouldn't be coming back to all of you came to your senses and left a journal with them then left .It took some time before the truth was discovered then it took a few week for our human friends to see what they did wrong.Sunset spent a few months in the sanctuary though in human land it was only few weeks. I stuck around and helped my sister,our friends to resolve this massive friendship problem. Even to this day it still has its scars. As Sunny has told me her past is not today and it was something she learned in the sanctuary

Renovations

My apartment is being renovated and so just want to get my life back . I don't want to be at my friend's place.