memories

Had another flashback I was in a mall with Sunny and Starlight. Well they had just to the small as i was waiting for them. Prior to that i was staying at sunny's place as I was visiting for the week. So when this whole magic nonsense happened i was there for when it happened with an enchanted mirror that could effectively store everyone vibrations in pocket reality sort like how a containment shere works. Some idiot was using it like a toy and then got corrupted by it. It finally took Starlight get through to the girl while i was able to change the polarity of the mirror. It was a team effort that saved the day.I would always spend as much time as i could to visit my sister. Like after the girls and Twi defeated Sunny I elected to stay with her with my knowledge of portal harmonics I could open the portal at any time. I stayed with Sunny for a few weeks just make sure she was doing ok and for the fact i still had reservations about trusting humans.It with more interactions with my friends doubles I learned to start to trust them even made friends with them.

Can't be whole

Being a transwoman one would think I would be able to get SRS and get rid of the stupid thing between my legs I guess that not ever going to happen as I'll forever be stuck with it because of the blood thinner I'm on.

Out of a mess

Just had another dream of me getting my brother out of another mess he got himself into also while that was going on a whole mess was happening back home. I missed out on helping my friends and family when they could have needed my help. I know I left some things behind if or when they needed me. It just seems that I'm always bailing out my brother . It would seem I'm here to get him out of trouble here.

In the dream my brother was trying to woo this queen only thing was she was playing him for a fool and had gotten her people into a lot of trouble. Her neighbor to the north was invading and she had some how opened rift into the fire realm. So it seems I made her crystal shield and sealed off the rift. Got my bro out of another mess in the process sent a fire elemental back home. This may just be dream or a memory though i would still get him out of any mess he gets into. I mean who would get him out of the meses he gets himself into. The dude has a strong heart and he follows that. Kind of leads me here to this world someone had to watch his back.

Homeward

Everytime I get the chance to go home and then get denied it just makes me lose hope about ever seeing home. Every time I have an out of body I'm always ask anyone who listen not to send me back here. There have been time friends from home have tried to bring me home via portal through the dream realm as a target vector which has worked and they won't give even though I already have. Just knowing how close I was to getting home really hits home. I'm severely depressed because of it. Its not i could go to some therapist and say oh hey I come from a different reality and I'm here having human experience all the while watching over my brother who actaully came here to help humans. While we both have learned that humanity won't listen and any message brought will fall on deaf ears. Sure some will listen but they don't represent the majority.They are an extreme minority. This abit of a rant and I do apologize for it.

Homesick

I've come to realize that the stupid cartoon is just that a method of entertainment for the masses even if its crude and insult the very memory of them. The more I read the stories and watch the more homesick I get. All I want is to go home. I know this will be a long time coming and I won't see my home for many years.