failure of friendship

Coming here has shown me what a failure I am at being a friend to all those I left behind both here and there. Sometimes i just don't know what to do or do as some people here have stolen from me many times over. Some I thought were friends but turns out I was gullible.The only family I have here is my brother Em. As for friends that spirit visit I don't know if its them or someone pretending to be them. Ijust have to go with what feels right. There are times i just want to cry so much.Suffer in silence.