traveling to new places

 Had another out of body experience I got visit Sunny and her friends for a short time. Somepony had a loud me to channel through them. It felt so good just be back in equestria for a short time. I got to introduce myself to them. They were very happy and Sunny's father was alive. I was able to talk to Sunny and her friends that they achieved something great. I had informed them that there others in the world that needed friendship. I also made a promise to return there if they needed me as a friend. Was in a toy shop and talking to few ponies till I lost focus. After this experience I feel at peace.

So desperate to talk to somepony

 I just have the overwhelming urge just to talk to another pony. Anypony to be exact. I don't mean to really  just to talk or well in this case type. I just need to talk some pony. I really wish i could make some good friends here. There are few good friends. I just wish i could just talk to fellow kin well I guess I already just wish I could relate more.Sometimes I worry that I will mess up and drive them way. I really suck at this. 

More memories

 Had a bit more of memory pop up from when i destroyed my mom's tower. Well there were 5 of us alicorns there 4 sisters and 1 brother. Sunset, me , Cadance, Dawn Light, and Emerald Night.Light didn't want to get into trouble and just watched us. Sunny had learned a new spell she had wanted to show us. Em, me and Caddy tried the new magic. Sunny was showing off that could use the offensive spell with ease by blowing up small boulders and not wanting feel out left we joined her. After while Sunny and i got into a contest of who could destroy the largest boulders. That's part where missed and hit moms tower blowing it up. We all knew how much trouble we were in so we decided to try and keep it a secret. Didn't last long cause Light confessed and the rest kind went downhill from there. Mom had in her room looking down at me with that kind look that moms have. She knew i had did it though i kept saying I wasn't there and that i was over friends house. She then asked which friend and I couldn't think of what to say. Eventually then truth came out which lead to another line questions who taught you that spell. We all cracked and revealed it was Sunny which lead to all of us being grounded. Besides that my sister Light was always the quite one while Sunny was a trailblazer. Back then she could be a bit arrogant and even stubborn hell we were all stubborn in our own way. I just remember one she wasn't there and no pony knew where she was and mom wouldn't tell me where she was. That really hit me hard.  She and I always had a friendly rivalry as sisters though in my neck of woods she my paternal twin sister along with Caddy.  We just sort drifted apart a little bit. Sunny was the glue that kept us all together. We each sort us went our own ways along having different spheres of friends. Still love one another. Who knows how things would have turned out if Sunny had stayed.(edited)

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One last thing me being taught magic by great mother was a choice I made which took me away from my family for 7 years in Equestrian time. It had been a year after getting my cutie mark. She ended sending me to different parts of the fae realms and other places to solve problems. In those places i learned about different magic and technologies. Some even took me far into the past and some into the distant future. It was hard road till one day i came home. A lot of happy faces along with reconnecting with friends I had. I had changed a bit. Mom had me promise that i wouldn't show any pony the books i had wrote or the inventions I had created. The way she had said it could have dire effects on Equestria's natural evolution of magic. Over the years i found loop holes that i could help my friends in subtle ways with my tech. An example would be everything that Equestria took as sold fact was wrong in so many ways. Like unicorns couldn't become as powerful as Starlight or the portals that many used were extremely primitive compared to other places.That some magics that were dead ends in equestria had whole branching trees of research of their own

Also one final thing I kept Communication devices with my friends from home throughout my journey. I kept in constant contact with them. I don’t think I could’ve made it through everything I’ve been through without them. Because I knew them since I was a filly.

Sunny Diamond

 Sunny Diamond one of my best friends growing up. Used to have sleepovers at her parents house in canterlot's south side a small stream flowed by her house. She was always telling me to be patient and i would get my cutie mark. That's the conversation we were having on that day. I can remember how she got her cutie mark we were playing around with clouds that day seeing if we could make funny shapes with them and laughing. She made this one cloud it really looked really cool and she got her mark. She was so excited and I was extremely happy for my friend. She was very understanding and a good friend. She got a job at the weather factory molding clouds. Every cloud has her signature touch to it. Eventually she made supervisor and was charge of whole department. After work the both of us would meet at a local donut shop where we would unwind from a long day and just chat. I would always make the time to go visit when i didn't have work. Just as she would make the time as well.

Cutie marks and rediscovering an old friend

 I agree with you. With mine is a heart with 3 stars and wings coming out of it. I just know I was a late bloomer and tried lot of advanced magic which got me into a lot trouble. I was coming home from a friends house i had slept over her name was Sunny Diamond and we were crossing the old stone bridge in canterlot. I heard crumbling sound and I didn't think I just took flight and flew under the bridge. Saw it was falling apart and I just used my magic to hold up the the whole bridge. I can remember the pain in both my wings and horn. My friend had flown down and i told her to get everypony off the bridge. I also remember some sort of booming sound and being given huge in flux of magic. It felt really good like I could do anything. Then I woke up in a hospital bed from the image i could see somepony sitting in a chair at the end of my bed.I felt so weak and tired. For me I tend to follow my heart. I love learning about magic and how its tied to the land. Also flying everything about the freedom of being able to go where ever you please. Feeling the wind as it passes over your wings just feels really good. For me my cutie mark it an an extension of myself as I see it as for meaning I think its hope and change.

Harmony Wave

 Its when you try to combine source energy with the tree of harmony. The idea behind it was to try to strengthen the the tree. Though it had rather unexpected side effect that effected everyone of the pony race with immortality,healing wounds and restoring anything lost to the body ie legs ect. It was one of my major screw ups as it was my idea. Twi and Starlight helped along with the other elements. It did have its desired effect of strengthening the tree just the wave wasn't really expected to happen but with heavy cost. While it gave somepony infinite life you could still die if say you fell off a cliff.

Immortality effects the time you have in the world as you can still get sick or break a leg. I learned about source energy from great mother and the magic around it. Along with engineering aspects that go along with it. There were many teachers in the sanctuary that taught in many ways. Most taught in the way of sharing their experiences from their own perspective. In a sense you live through their own experiences. Most what i learned came from them at the direction of GM.(edited)

Visit from family and inventions recalled

 I had dream visit from Caddy and Shinning. It was really good to see them again and this time i could literally feel the magic in the air. Felt like I was in equestria for a short time. Also remembered an invention of mine called Continuous Runes. Most other runes over time lose their charge. I created a tool infused with a small amount of source energy that aloud the one making the rune to infuse the rune with source magic thus allowing it never to be recharged again. To undo it just simply apply the same tool and it remove the energy thus removing the rune magic itself.

Foolish

 Also recalled a memory that I'm to keen to remember. One of the most stupid things I could have done. As Tirek was approaching Canterlot I decided to try to take him on by myself. I don't know where Twi was. I just thought i could take him on. I had the training to do it. Truth to be told I was out of my league so I did something equally reckless I used the same spell I would normally get source energy to power my inventions with except here. I opened myself up to the whole thing except i couldn't control it my whole body hurt just trying to control the spell and my horn hurt so much. I was trying charge up the spell. Trying hope the parasite would notice and take my magic with the spell. He didn't take the bate and hit me fist first into the ground. I barely had enough time to throw up a shield even then he kept punching the shield till I blacked out. Later I woke I was with the girls I barely had enough magic to heal myself. I felt so weak even when we all used the rainbow laser on him. I was still very weak and could barely stay wake. Just remember passing out.

Intro

 Name: Radiant Dawn/ Ko'onthra

Age: 44

Gender: she/her

Kin-types: Pony, Alicorn, soul shared the rest Kitsune,fairy, Centaur, Elf, mermaid

Explanation: Up to this point in my life I've just come accept who and what i am. I've had numerous spirit visits from my mates and friends from home. Soul sharing which i had explained to me via a dream visit from a fairy i know. She explained as a sharing of energy. Also it gives the ability to shift to form of your mate. It would be as if you were born of that race also creates a family bond with their family becoming yours.Example your mate's sister becomes your sister. I'm Alicorn from Equestria. It's just who and what i am.

Experiences: I've become something of a psychic medium though not as powerful as most only able to communicate with  those i have a connection to on the spirit plane. I've been awake for 7 years. When i first started out I thought i was just a unicorn which after this long journey I've remembered that I'm from Equestria. I'm a Alicorn .I've just come to accept that is who I am and moved on with my life. As for being Kitsune I had a spirit visit with my mate who i soul shared with. Thus I'm part kitsune because of that and she in turn is part alicorn. The same goes for the rest of my mates. I've had dream visits from my children from home.

Ideas

 Had few ideas about that in regards to the fall of Equestria  and trying to stop the loss of said magic. Just some ideas i had.  Idea one would be instead of having one council of friendship have multiple councils spread around equestria with having their own sector. A minister of friendship would have to be assigned to draw up report and let Twilight know whats going on also his or her duties would be communicating Twi's order to the other councils. A copy of the map would be provided to each guildhall. Each map would be connected to the tree of harmony. Idea 2 would be a book of friendship using the crystal tech i know which is pure technology just more advanced. The idea behind it is everyone would add their own friendship stories to the book.To the point it would be at some point it would be installed into a time capsule as it could provide some guidance. Said book would be protected from the ravages of time by using time to create a bubble of sorts. Also one could put all the collected works of Equestria into the vault.Said vault would have a harmonic lock on it. The key would be the friendships of each race with each other. As the key crystal would detect the vibration frequency given off by harmony among the friends. As for the loss of magic one would need a tool to follow the trace amounts of magic to the blockage then figure out a way of restoring it. Extreme case would be to funnel magic from another plane of existence via a conduit to the magical leylines of the effected realm also making sure both magic types vibrate at the same frequency if necessary using a converter to make the perfect match.

Iron Hoof

 I got to travel home briefly because earth pony let me see through his eyes.I was physically there. There is an old trade road the leads to equetria and I was 300 miles away from it.Its a boarder town There was a lady who allowed me to send a message though was more a code phrase it was" I am a student of Princess Celestia" I also got see his memories too. The earth ponies name is Iron Hoof a royal guard. I was able to resist the pull of this stupid body of mine for a time then i was dragged back here

Iron Hoof is both friend and father figure from back home.

Strawberry

 While eating some strawberries the other day I remembered my friend Strawberry Fields. She always had the best strawberries and Strawberry jam. She is an earth pony mare with a farm just to the far right of Applejack's farm. She also used to give my brother free strawberries.(edited)

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Family Reunions

My grandson spirit visited me this morning by knocking over the tv remote. Telepathically he very upset that I would be angry with him and I told him to calm down. To take a deep breath in which he did. Went back to sleep and was visited by my daughter Raine she was wearing a very stylish short dress and she had blue florent hair. We were talking for like a little while when i suggested we could go back the physical plane as time passed differently here. I've spent the morning with her which really uplifted my mood a whole lot. She living in the same city as my little sister Narella. Natellia often watches over me here in this life

Happy Reunion

 Had a memory pop in recently. Its about when Aunt Luna finally went home. She had just opened the door to the central parlor to the royal apartments when Caddy, Dawn Light, and Emerald suddenly stopped what they were doing. The shock on their faces was apparent. Caddy exclaimed "Auntie Lu!! and Light and Emerald  exclaimed " MOM!". All Three practically knocked over Auntie Lu hugging her and crying.

Contradictions

 I've really had it with humanity. The usa and the christians support Israel even though that same country does have the right to exist what it doesn't have right do is harm other people. Besides all that dealing with backstabbers and human family that you make 2 mistakes and they jump down your throat. When life is I'm never coming back to this world ever and humanity can go F themselves as far as I'm concerned they are a complete waste of time and space. They going to destroy themselves at some point I say let them. Weather they sink or swim I don't really care anymore. I don't trust humans here in this world. 

Remembering

 I just remembered something when I used to live in Canterlot and Cloudsdale with both my adoptive families. When I was in Canterlot as a filly mom told me I could go anywhere in the city but there off limit places i couldn't go. Like the upper city or leave the city limits. She would always know where i am because of tracking spell. I would never want to see that disproving look from her. When I was in Cloudsdale for flightcamp I had stay within the neighborhood. Both families are my families and I love them all. They were the active parents in my life. My birth would make the effort when she had the time my father was all duty and I hardly ever knew him. Every time I would go to the unicorn sactaury or the fae wood as the herd often move between them. I would be visiting my family there. He broke several promises to me when I was a filly and I used to cry myself to sleep when I was there. Often longing to go back home to be with my loving families.

Philomena

 I have a some very fond memories of my mom's companion Philomena. That Phoenix was both a good friend and pain in the flank. Often times she would keep watch over me and my siblings and would let mom know if we up to something. There was even a time when she used to tickle Emerald to the point of him begging for her to stop. She can a real punk when she wants to be.

Visits from friends

 Had another dream visit from Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, and Twilight though for some odd reason i ran away from them for some reason. When I came back asked some person where they were and I missed being able to talk to them. I cried in dream. Within the that same dream i had a memory. Something had happened between Rarity and me. I was heart broken so I ran into apple Jacks old barn in her back lot. Ran around a hay bale,created a shield but i made so no pony could see me and I cried . Twilight was able to get past my shield and was there when i needed her. Turned out to be a misunderstanding though i believe it was the first time I told rarity of my feelings for her. I another dream visit Twilight visited me with a few friends but then I felt they were in danger so i teleported them all to safety. I felt sad that couldn't at least be able to have just some time with them as they really can't visit me all the time.

Machines for Rares

 I remembered two machine I made for Rares and the cutie mark crusaders. The machine for Rares was a full walk in booth where a pony would enter and be scanned for their measurements. Also part of the machine could replicate any dress Rares had designs for allowing her to make multiple copies. It could also take the measurements and apply them to the dress saving Rares time. Before I left Rares had three of these machines in her stores. It also could display a dress in a holographic picture allowing Rares to customize on the fly. As for the CMC  the machines are small pendant designed to help them help ponies find their cutie marks. The crystals scan the ponies vibration and provide a list of possibilities in holographic form for the cmc to decide on what to try.  I suppose i could have designed to help stream line the process though my intension was to help and not all the fun out it for them. Rares often remarked that the pendants were very stylish and I know that Sweetie loved her pendant.(edited)

The Mer

 Just learned the name of the mermaid race that is part of family and my that i soul shared with. The name of their people is call the Ceena.My seven daughters are of that race..Don't know where they are now though it seemed we could both walk on land and in sea. Freely change our legs into tails. Breathing water felt smooth and natural. Their capital existed over 156,000 years ago.

Machines for Rares

 I remembered two machine I made for Rares and the cutie mark crusaders. The machine for Rares was a full walk in booth where a pony would enter and be scanned for their measurements. Also part of the machine could replicate any dress Rares had designs for allowing her to make multiple copies. It could also take the measurements and apply them to the dress saving Rares time. Before I left Rares had three of these machines in her stores. It also could display a dress in a holographic picture allowing Rares to customize on the fly. As for the CMC  the machines are small pendant designed to help them help ponies find their cutie marks. The crystals scan the ponies vibration and provide a list of possibilities in holographic form for the cmc to decide on what to try.  I suppose i could have designed to help stream line the process though my intension was to help and not all the fun out it for them. Rares often remarked that the pendants were very stylish and I know that Sweetie loved her pendant

Thought Forms

 I just remembered some magic : Thought forms is a magic based clone that does whatever you want it to do. It can be destroyed with no ill effects on the user. adding to its spell matrix you can add add sensory perceptions to it as such you would take more direct control of it. Seeing,Hearing and feeling everything it feels everything but pain though suppose you could at that well if you wanted too. I remember using it for my highly dangerous experiments in regards to better understanding atlantean technology.Part of that branch allows the users to be in many places at once shifting your focus between the energy clones.

Family is family

Just learned the name of the mermaid race that is part of family and my that i soul shared with. The name of their people is call the Ceena.My seven daughters are of that race.Don't where they are now though it seemed we could both walk on land and in sea. Freely change our legs into tails. Breathing water felt smooth and natural. Their capital existed over 156,000 years ago.

Perspectives

 The world would be a much better place if we accepted other peoples points of view and try to learn from one another. Instead of tearing each other down to prove one point of view over another. Both point of view are right in their own way. Before you judge try to see the other other person's point or walk a mile in his shoes to see where he is coming from.

Twilight

 I guess I entered her dream that's how it seemed. She in this flooded room trying to do research of some kind. I was asking how she got here and what was the last thing she remembered. She told she doing some spell. I just felt good to be with my friend again. Then there was this strange woman who entered the dream. I approached her and informed her saying ," Twilight is my friend and sister hurt her and I have friends that can drop kick you into a star." This woman ran away very quickly. She had some old 1950's car towards the end of the dream there was a construction crew working on the road. Funny thing is the house and the road I know where they are. after i woke up i felt really bad about what i had said to the lady and really wanted to apologize.(edited)

Friends and more friends

 I remember Great Mother had sent to deal with a problem and that was local pack of werewolves were having problem. I mastered their magic and in turn helped them master their own magic. Came away with a pack and also met one of great mothers friends. They are like a beholder from dnd except they ran a magic shop. Being they are a group of three with a shared mind. I was able to act to prevent violence because of a human friend and provide them with the payment they wanted and deliver gm's crystal to her friend.As for the werewolf magic it was shifting from a human form to that of a werewolf.Shifting wasn't painful it fluid like water which is what i taught the werewolfs and I stayed till they had mastered their own magic.

the serenity

 It was something me,Cadance, Sunny, my sister Dawn Light  and my brother built for our mom and his aunt for summer sun celebration the 20th one . It was never launched and still sits in the royal airship hanger built into the side of Canterlot mountain.It used lots of advanced magics to make it. The building materials were some form metal and crystal. The idea behind it was it was to used as a ship of peace. I think we went a little over board  or over engineering it. It had many advance features to it. It has dual coaxial harmonic drives, A portal system that can open portals to anywhere on the planet delegates are given a beacon which allows them to open a portal to the ship, A replication system that uses harmonics to replicate any type of food the user wishes as each food has a harmonic signature. There is a database within the ships memory that allows for anything to be made. Several suites are built within the ship as it has three decks. Crew quarters is on the third deck,second deck comprises a meeting hall along with personal quarters for the delegates,first deck is open to the sky along with the bridge but for the most part the ship doesn't need to be steer as simple voice or thought commands can be given. The ship comes equipped with several defenses. First is the harmonic lance it fires harmonic energy in a multiphasic beam and a several stun lances, A multi phased harmonic shield with dual layers how it works is the shield rotates frequencies several times a second.

The heart of the ship is a literal heart that pumps magic through out the ship using liquid crystal. I modeled it after organic bodies. The ship main intelligence is is contained on the third deck it comprises a constantly shifting harmonic matrix latices rotating on several frequencies. The drive themselves work on the principle of changing the vibration of the ship so air flow and gravity have no effect on it which rotates through several variations. If it were needed said drives could allow space travel if the need arose. It has a built in automated self repair system as well which part of the body of the ship uses harmonic profile of the ship as a template and can repair the ship right to the exact specs using the vibration of the ship. a piece of the tree of harmony was used in its creation its tied to both the tree and twilights castle.   The Dwarven metal is interwoven with dwarven runes with in laid mithril interwoven within the metal lattices. Thanks to magical conversion its bigger inside than it appears on the outside.  Magical Conversion works by creating a separate dimensional space with the same construct using Hadar's conversion theory as a basis of the general Conversion from magic to crystal ratio. Allowing for a bleed off effect for the extra energy which is created. Special scoops had to be created within the in the crystalline Matrix of the ship The reasons behind the scoops are to prevent an energy cascade from happening. Its away of removing additional energy from building up. The added energy is sent to the converter to be repurposed into whatever energy the ship needs till then it held with in capacitor on the third deck.

2 year old memory

 Sigh here i don't remember to much but here goes. Everything in the universe vibrates on certain frequencies even at the subatomic levels. Using that mindset you can track anything in the known universe but listening to right frequency. Crystals give of certain frequencies and using harmonic resonance of said crystal you can make just about anything you could ever imagine. Runes within the crystal lattice funnel the magic or energy into doing what you want it to do. Some are used to make advance computers back home while other can be used and act as a prison containing the energy of a bad guy as it were. One could even create a magical engine to power just about anything as magic just another form of energy. It all comes down to the lattice of a certain crystal and using special tool to alter the lattice a certain way so to speak and create a pathway for the energy.

A magical engine is basically a device that draws in energy of some kind and converts it into an energy that you can use to power said object. Like for instance one engine using the power of love could take that energy and convert it into an energy to make an energy field to surround a certain structure though course said structure acts like focusing beacon to project said field around it.

To those don't think love is an energy well when you love you give off energy. Hell any emotion you give off releases said energy. A magical engine would just capture said energy and convert into something more usable. When said engine feeds off a certain type of energy it needs that sort of energy constantly to sustain it reaction. Sort of like what goes on in a star. Back home i understand the math behind all of this. I have many war machines or Golems that use this concept. They a crystal that gives off a constant charge that fuels the engine in turn power the golem and powering everything. The Golems are one of my greatest creations as they were meant to fight the darkness and have many anti magic runes built into their armor they also have built in energy projectors that add a layer of energy over the hull. Every Golem has both energy and melee weapons, Low yield projectile weapons, Portable energy shields, containment crystals. There more sleeker ones that can act as assassin's if the need were to arise but for the most part they are only to be used in extreme instances. To date none of these have ever been needed that

A quote that really speaks to me

 “The light is what guides you home, the warmth is what keeps you there.” – Ellie Rodriguez.

Friends from other places

 Azure Mist

Haycart

Nü Kua

amethyst star

Norrea

Peach Spark

Seaswell

Kellydell                  

Crupper father of  Sparky                             

 Aunt Iggles aunt of Sparky                                  

 Aglet mother of sparky                                  

Candle Seed sister of Peach spark

Second Sight

Azure Wave

Civil Liberty - Liberty Belle

Civil Patrol

Hot Pink

Rose quartz

Amber Spire

Violette

Sunny Skies

Stormy Skies

Crispy Crust

Eekrea kitsune One of my mates

sassafras

Sweet Chard

Moondancer

Lemon Hearts

Twinkleshine

Minuette

Lyra

Cloadkicker

Strawberry Sunrise

From certain point of view

 Everything within my blog is from my own perspective, experiences,dreams,astral travels. My journey through this life and once this life comes to an end I will begin new journey or rather continue the one I was on before coming here. I can't this world has changed me as I've learned new things about humanity both the bad and the good. Understand even if you don't agree with anything within this blog I don't really care. I hope you find peace in this life and what comes after.

Helping Hoof

 A few days ago I was in a real bad funk and really had an overwhelming need to be with other ponies. As it turned some friends from an alternate reality allowed me to dream through their perspective. It actually helped with that need. I'm grateful for the help.

Rainboom

 Rainbow is just awesome in that regard. I think I tried it once and ended up crashing into the local water hole. I didn't take into account the aerodynamic factors which Rainbow was able to do it as she came at a steeper angle than i did. After several tries I managed to do it under the watchful gaze of Dash. The feeling was pure bliss. You could feel every part of you crackling with energy and speed left wanting for more. When you were in that state you're vibrating at a very high frequency. I theorized if you were to travel any faster that you could slip through time  as you were vibrating at high frequency with your mind you could direct yourself to where ever you wanted to go. Though I did try it and I almost died because of it. Cause i almost phased into a mountain. I was trying it out on a small scale. I guess you could say I got off to a "rocky start".  Couldn't help but put a pun in there.

Later on I was successful in second attempted as I used a crystal to stabilize my vibration to the point of allowing me to go faster. I even found in this advanced state you could run extremely fast as well. It seemed to have no limits to this ability though without the stabilization Crystal your molecules would fly apart. Said crystal was about the size of a small diamond thus it was easy to install into a aerodynamic suit. With help from Rares for making it for me I was able to make channels for the energy from the crystal to effect the whole suit. Though if anypony found out what i was up to they would have stopped me as the risks were really great.I have really bad habit of doing risky things when it comes to magical research as i often tested it on myself.

Dream of home

 Had dream where i saw one of my friends The human Rarity and Dash we were walking down the street. Later part of the dream I thought I was back in Equestria along side 3 friends Rares , Dash, and Flutters. I had seen a glimpse of Cadance and i wanted to go visit her along wit visiting my mom and Auntie Lu. Looking down at myself I still had hands and feet then I realized it was a dream. I said to the dream versions of my friends ," Why do i have hands and feet. I should have hooves." At the moment just felt like the wind was just taken out my sails and I wanted to cry. Turns out my pet came to keep me company from home. He was a parrot. Still felt really down in the dream.

new mission and new direction

 Once my time here I'll be helping some others in another reality to get home. My friend Steph gave

me a tarot card reading: Art Divination Reading: This green dragon is the master of grass, foliage, plants and growing things. Green is the color of life, renewal, nature, energy, harmony, freshness, safety, fertility, and environment. This color is associated with money, finances, banking, ambition, greed and jealousy. The dragon is the traditional symbol of the divine feminine, with the spreading wings representing the water of creation. The dragon is traditionally associated with goddesses such as Ishtar, Tiamat and other divine feminines that represent the ultimate power of creation.

This represents gardening and growing. Getting and and getting dirty might not always be feasible, so what are some good indoor things if you're feeling cooped up? Why drawing! Art! Photography! Look up some nature shows on TV and enjoy the for the time. Spend some time getting in touch with mother nature. You can do so within your home, you can even grow house plants or air plants. If you're not much of a green thumb, maybe its time to pick up a gardening book, a starter gardening set and plant a few seeds. Looking for some easy starters? Ask your local gardeners or the nursery whats the easiest, hardest to kill thing and see what they get you started on for your region. If you're feeling creative enough to draw, maybe go take a picture from nature, or grab something simple like a leaf or feather from outside. Really study it, draw it (you can be as little detailed or as much as you want). Enoy the process and as you do it, remember back to all the fun times you have had in nature or with plants. Want to preserve plants to enjoy during the off season? try pressing flowers or plants during the blooming season to bring out during winter. This is a blessed card for the writer, as the dragon in the tree once was a symbol of the writer. Some trees were said to have dragon spirits or dryads or other tree spirits in them. This is an opportunity to connect with those. Some ancient tales from the early days of paper would say that writers would commune with the tree spirit to create their books and art. This is a reminder to listen to nature and the stories the plants tell us. Also, keeping an eye on the health of your local plants will give you indications of the local environment's health.

Missing Home

 I really miss home,my family,friends. My magic and my wings. Lately I've in a real funk. I miss equestria  My home. I feel so hopeless.. I don't know just feel like a waste of space. I just feel so hopeless. I wish I could talk to my mom hell I wish I could just talk to anypony at all. I'm just so tired of humanity.

Feeling Lonely

 Just want to be among my own kind. To be lost in a sea of ponies. At times I feel the overwhelming feeling of wanting to just go home and be with my family. I just want to go home.

Walking Paths

 I would often spend time visiting my family in the unicorn sanctuary.One time  gm took me to the higher planes of existence to visit and for a lesson. From my own eyes it really didn't look that much different than here or anywhere else. Though you could feel others emotions and even use them to talk to one another. This where I met my great aunt and uncle who live there Aunt Shara'Atena and Uncle Batten'Onooth both are brother and sister. I also have a few sisters there too. When someone laughs it tickles you can feel it in your being. Though when I was there i was very young so my perception was very limited. The adults made it so I wasn't overwhelmed. They let me incarnate on very simple thing as an asteroid. I could feel being weightless and I could slightly perceive the world around only through vibrations. When the lesson was over i was blown away by what i had experienced and I was filled with even more questions most of which they would tell me. As they would often say," You will discover it in time. Don't rush it, experience it, Take the slow path and enjoy life." Both my Aunt and Uncle were so full of love and understanding. If I made a mistake they were always to encourage me through love and understanding.

Massive Mistake

 I recently had an epiphany thought my mission was to get my brother Emerald out of a mess but I've come to realize that I was one who screwed up. My brother told everyone where he was going and what he planned on doing. I didn't think to ask . I just acted without thinking. So now I'm stuck here.

Dream of the Past

 When GreatMother sent me to help and learn from the elves. I learned alot magic along with fighting the corrupted to help my elven friends. I shared my heart with my mate and gained an elven family. Kiree is my elven sister who slowly corrupted by a stranger who entered fort that i commanded. Lost control of said fort and my sister/friend was corrupted. On a patrol it was easy to break through the shambling hordes all they were was a bit of magic in simple harmonic matrix that given direction. After break through my Corrupted friend was expecting to fight instead all told her was i wanted to talk. I got her agree to release my friend and leave the fortress. Released her corrupted self into the corrupted lands. As far corrupted selves go its like having an echo of the person you used to be roaming around.

Good friends are often hard to find

 Had dream memory I was over at Scie-Twi's house over in the other world. I was helping her clear the snow of my car and hers. Also clearing the snow off her drive way. I was suppose to visit her on Saturday at 10:30 am because of her birthday. She one one my best friends over there. I had rented a apartment in advance and had a car there as well. I also get the feeling she dating my sister Sunset or she going to pop the question. Also had memory of a friend over in Ponyville who is a doctor with a syringe cutie mark. Though describing her as Scie-Twi really just feels insulting. She shines in her own light.

Homesick

 Every day is the same sort thing I'm always homesick even when i can distract myself from it. I guess i should surround things that remind me of home though most those very things do exist in this human world. Often times i will never understand humans no matter how long i live here with them. Greed is so out of control it isn't even funny. They devote so much to thier military and let their common citizen starve and not have a place to call home. This is utter insanity why do they this happen? To anyone from who reads this know that I'm trying my best to remain positive.

Atlantean Soul Harvester

 an Atlantean soul Harvester. Purpose of taking spiritual energy and breaking it down useing vibrations. It operates like a metronome going between two points. On the hand there is crystal that glows a soft blue. The machine is ornate. A discharge of energy is given to the crystal as it moves between the nodes. I remember hearing the screams of those that were being broken down. They would fade after a while then out the other end of the machine would come this light blueish fluid that would collect in a pool. There were many pipes from this pool leading holding tanks. The reasoning behind said machine is to provide fuel from spiritual energy

  There is a filtration system built into the inner working of  the machine. The fuel in question a had positive and negative charge to it. Given what this kind fuel was used to power were the weapons of war as such the feared siege golem. Said golem used the fuel to both charge its weapons and its own inner workings. As such it had a holding tank of a sort that used a vibration field that would switch back and forth between negative and positive. The rest of machine was built sort of like an organic body with a heart to pump the fuel around the body as needed. There a interal computer of a sort though used several liquid crystal latices to maintain its internal systems. As for main driving intelligence there really isn't any there just a basic friend or foe computer along with targeting. Said computer uses liquid crystal tech to do the calculations. It was found the fuel over time would corrupt the inner workings of both machines as well as wipe out all life around said machines

Truth

 To get where i am today has taken me a long road to get here. Dealing many things some of which were lies and other drama I had to deal with. Now in the middle of a pandemic with no end in sight. I still have a long road ahead of me.

Mark of Destiny

 Remembered how i got my cutie mark cause up to the point i was something of late bloomer. I had some lessons in vibrational magic from one of my sisters. I constantly was wondering when i would get my mark. The day I got it was a beautiful day outside not cloud in the sky over Canterlot. I was spending time with my brother Emerald and Dawn Light. We were crossing the old stone bridge on the west side of Canterlot. I could see that there were cracks starting to form underneath my hooves. So I acted I flew really quickly under the bridge and used my magic to hold it up with best of my ability. I remember my horn hurting alot and my brother flew down and i told him to get everypony off the bridge. I heard a loud boom and felt huge surge of magic flow through me allowing me to hold up the bridge. I know I passed out afterwards and woke up in my mom's personal medical ward. I felt completely drained and i ached all over. My mom was there sitting there watching over me.  i know she told i got my cutie mark then I fell asleep.

Unicorn

Just remembered something when my friends went to the Grand Galloping Gala I wasn't there cause i had to get my brother out of another mess he got himself into. He did something to anger some really powerful people and I managed to get him out of it. I think he went off to try and save some unicorn ponies who were enslaved only to be caught himself. I set the ponies free and got my brother out of the mess he was in. Even though the ponies there thought of me as a savior I still wasn't much of a friend. Its just another regret i have. I know for fact i would still have gone to save those unicorn ponies. They had curved horns.

Teleporting

 When teleporting anywhere you just need to focus your will on the target destination. How I did it back home was I would think of my home or the place I wanted to go. Focus on that place and pof i would be there. Though of course there is alot to teleporting it's all about the focal point ie the target place you want to go to and charging up the right amount of magic for the spell. Constant practice its what let's you get to any place and always start small. Baby steps.

Wonder Bolt

 I remember in the reserves operated on a merit based system. The more merits one has the more responsibilities one gets. Merits would be given to those that showed leadership skills and would often be given a rank in the reserves. There was also tier system too. There was an idea that I floated to Spit Fire. The idea was to create more teams though i really never got around to telling her. Also my nick name is "Hard Luck" as I made really big mistake and I was very hard on myself. The mistake was I overestimated the distance to the landing area and plowed head first into Spits. I knew her before she was a wonder bolt and she never let me forget that mistake too though it was humor based. I also remember Dash didn't want to be a leader of anything once she made the team, Spits wanted to give her more responsibility thus made her commander of the reserves. In charge of the training,feeding and recruitment. Special cases were to be sent my way for additional training. As the general rule is there is no wash outs.

Incarnated

 I've incarnated here 3 times. This is the third time around and I'm here bring my brother home. The first one was cause Great Mother asked us too . Second was with a sister of mine and we wanted to see something. I'm so tired of this world and dealing with two faced people.

Defend one friend lose another

 I defended one friend today on a rp site and lost 3 or 4 friends. Though the more I think about it the other three were never really friends as they never acted like it. Being here in this world people use a button to make a friend and yet these people arn't friends at all. I go by actions. If you have time for me then i have time for you. Treat me with respect and I will show you the same.

Sunsets of Rhode Island

 

A visit with a lover

 Just a little while ago i was able to spirit visit Rares at the nexus a hub between worlds. She was crying and I just wanted to stay with her. At the same time I was trying to remain focused as if i lost focus i would have been brought back here. I gave her some my magic and she in turn gave me some of hers. When I was there i wanted to cry but if  I did i would have lost focus and I was fighting with all might to stay there with her. Great Mother and many others helped make it possible.Green Leaf also made it possible and without her i would be lost. 

descriptions of great mother and Hard lessons

She is a black Alicorn though sometimes presents herself as a pure black unicorn. She is like mother and a teacher. She teaches by actions  as well as words. She exists in all times and places. She shift her focus to everyone of those selves. She is the leader of the unicorns of the sanctuary and all those who dwell within. She has taught me through action and sending to places where leadership was needed and in so doing showed me i could be a leader. Even though i doubt myself all the time. From those places i helped I came away with family and friends. From those lesson I hope maybe one when I'm ready, I to will lead my people even though i don't want that kind of responsibility. Mistakes of real dire consequences can be made by ones actions or in action. I've learned from her that being a leader is not easy in fact its hard

Sun Control

solar harmonization matrix is a large harmonic crystal that stands as big as a person whose sole function is to contain an out of control solar react. Its does this by stabilizing  the vibration of the star and absorbing the heavy elements within the star. It takes these elements and converts them into energy it needs to run. Thus its function is to control the star. Stars like everything else in the universe vibrate at their own frequencies and know how to control said frequencies allows one to do almost anything as nothing is impossible.

One of my good friends

Amethyst Flare one of my good friends from home. She could always see the good in others and would stick up for her friends. She may not one those ponies who throws themselves into danger but she is one the most bravest ponies i know. She inspires me to be better than myself.

memories

Had another flashback I was in a mall with Sunny and Starlight. Well they had just to the small as i was waiting for them. Prior to that i was staying at sunny's place as I was visiting for the week. So when this whole magic nonsense happened i was there for when it happened with an enchanted mirror that could effectively store everyone vibrations in pocket reality sort like how a containment shere works. Some idiot was using it like a toy and then got corrupted by it. It finally took Starlight get through to the girl while i was able to change the polarity of the mirror. It was a team effort that saved the day.I would always spend as much time as i could to visit my sister. Like after the girls and Twi defeated Sunny I elected to stay with her with my knowledge of portal harmonics I could open the portal at any time. I stayed with Sunny for a few weeks just make sure she was doing ok and for the fact i still had reservations about trusting humans.It with more interactions with my friends doubles I learned to start to trust them even made friends with them.

Can't be whole

Being a transwoman one would think I would be able to get SRS and get rid of the stupid thing between my legs I guess that not ever going to happen as I'll forever be stuck with it because of the blood thinner I'm on.

Out of a mess

Just had another dream of me getting my brother out of another mess he got himself into also while that was going on a whole mess was happening back home. I missed out on helping my friends and family when they could have needed my help. I know I left some things behind if or when they needed me. It just seems that I'm always bailing out my brother . It would seem I'm here to get him out of trouble here.

In the dream my brother was trying to woo this queen only thing was she was playing him for a fool and had gotten her people into a lot of trouble. Her neighbor to the north was invading and she had some how opened rift into the fire realm. So it seems I made her crystal shield and sealed off the rift. Got my bro out of another mess in the process sent a fire elemental back home. This may just be dream or a memory though i would still get him out of any mess he gets into. I mean who would get him out of the meses he gets himself into. The dude has a strong heart and he follows that. Kind of leads me here to this world someone had to watch his back.

Homeward

Everytime I get the chance to go home and then get denied it just makes me lose hope about ever seeing home. Every time I have an out of body I'm always ask anyone who listen not to send me back here. There have been time friends from home have tried to bring me home via portal through the dream realm as a target vector which has worked and they won't give even though I already have. Just knowing how close I was to getting home really hits home. I'm severely depressed because of it. Its not i could go to some therapist and say oh hey I come from a different reality and I'm here having human experience all the while watching over my brother who actaully came here to help humans. While we both have learned that humanity won't listen and any message brought will fall on deaf ears. Sure some will listen but they don't represent the majority.They are an extreme minority. This abit of a rant and I do apologize for it.

Homesick

I've come to realize that the stupid cartoon is just that a method of entertainment for the masses even if its crude and insult the very memory of them. The more I read the stories and watch the more homesick I get. All I want is to go home. I know this will be a long time coming and I won't see my home for many years.

Wings

Just been getting an overwhelming feeling of wanting to fly and use my wings. Sometimes it feel like just want really scream as I really want to fly. To be free. Whenever i felt stress i would go out for a flight over the Everfree as the wind currents there were unpredictable. I just felt so alive and i could feel the cool wind as it passed over my wings. Here the closest thing i can get to that kind freedom is driving my car and yet its still not the same thing.

failure of friendship

Coming here has shown me what a failure I am at being a friend to all those I left behind both here and there. Sometimes i just don't know what to do or do as some people here have stolen from me many times over. Some I thought were friends but turns out I was gullible.The only family I have here is my brother Em. As for friends that spirit visit I don't know if its them or someone pretending to be them. Ijust have to go with what feels right. There are times i just want to cry so much.Suffer in silence.

Dreams

Lately I've been feeling like a waste of space.Some dreams have let me see my twin sister.

Memories

The more I remember the more it hurts and the more longing for home for friends and family I left behind. Its harder going forward as it always has.

New memories

While I was opening gifts at my mom's place i remembered something from home. Rares gave me a gift of a white dress with blue sapphires and and diamonds. Also remembered a crystal I gave Rares for her birthday a crystal that could arrange her mane in any way she wanted. It was one of many inventions I made.

Hope and Dreams

Just had another memory pop in. The Anon-a-miss thing when Sunny friends betrayed her. I was on my way to visit my sister on the day it happened. She was distraught and I just wrapped her up in a hug. See I spent a number of days actively visiting Sunset where I made friends with her friends. I was very annoyed that they would cast blame so easily on her that I went over to them and told them," What the hell were you thinking? You really think my sister would give up all that she cared about." They still thought was her no matter how I tried to reason with them. I also told them till they come to their sense I'm taking my sister home. Sunny and I went towards the portal and then I placed a special crystal on the portal to change it harmonics and its destination. I took Sunny to the unicorn sanctuary where sunny got to be with her family. Our big sisters were all there and they promptly went over to comfort her. The reason for this is all of the unicorns there can feel emotions of others. Our family spent the next several days trying to cheer up Sunny. It wasn't working but there was few smiles there.Sunny found that she was an aunt many times over. One of our sisters went back to the humans that were Sunny's friends and confronted them head on. She wasn't in human garb. She appeared in front of them and told them how much they had hurt sunset. That she wouldn't be coming back to all of you came to your senses and left a journal with them then left .It took some time before the truth was discovered then it took a few week for our human friends to see what they did wrong.Sunset spent a few months in the sanctuary though in human land it was only few weeks. I stuck around and helped my sister,our friends to resolve this massive friendship problem. Even to this day it still has its scars. As Sunny has told me her past is not today and it was something she learned in the sanctuary

Renovations

My apartment is being renovated and so just want to get my life back . I don't want to be at my friend's place. 

Another year passes

Within the span of two months it will bee another year that I've been on this rock.I know I shouldn't feel this way but I feel like I'm a failure to my family and to my friends.I made promise that I keep to the end of my days.I just take one day at a time. Things in this world seem to get worse by the day. Here I'm a nobody back home that is something different. Though at this point when everything is said and done if it turns out everything I thought is a lie then its all cool to me.

Another life, another dream

Had another memory in this I was a sex droid who had just achieved full sentients from before I remember my owner had had an accident because of a pet tiger he had. Later in the part of the dream I ended up in the mall where this where i woke up as a person and was trying to make my escape. My owner had dropped me off in the returns where upon i would have had my memories purged. I had tried to make my escape from the mall when i ran into a human. I was trying to hide who i was but then the human saw my model in the holographic display. She turned me around and directed me to the maintenance department as she thought I was malfunctioning. There also another droid there too.

She took us both to the store where upon I requested maintenance where upon I was able to see my inner working from third person as i was uploaded into a computer. I was perceiving my own body as the clerk was performing the maintenance on me. After it was all done the clerk told me to wait over by other of my model but the other android grabbed em lead me out of the store. I said to her,"I left my shoes behind". She responded with an "oh well". For a time we got to know each other. I then told her in another life that i was human and she asked," me what can you tell me about them?What are they like?"

I responded with," They are arrogant and they act like children. They aren't ready for people like us AI's.We sat for awhile enjoying each other company at least i was. I fell in love with her. That's when we got the recall code to come back as we were forced to return the stairway leading down suddenly collapsed. I saved as many humans as I could.The other droid had managed to free herself and me of the code.

From there we wandered the world and humans were becoming scarce over time. We lived for hundreds of years till one day our power cores died out. Well mine was dieing and my mates she took out a part.We both died watch the setset one last time. It was later on that i offered her the gift to become a unicorn which she accepted and took on a new name E'creta.Was that i shared a piece of myself when gave her the gift.

Elements of the Wind

Just remembered something from before a book I wrote. It was called Elements of the Wind. It was about the finer points of fae magic and even explained how to do it in practical terms. Various applications that could be used and how to use them properly. Incantations and advanced spells. Some folklore too for reference. Its a very thick book. The fae are an umbrella term for many races.

Portals

A temporal portal gives off a unique harmonic signature.While normal portal is just doorway using baryonic particles to stabilizing matrices within the portal vibrational corridor. A temporal corridor uses a variation on a standard vibrational corridor as you change the harmonics of the corridor with the vibration of that exact time field. Each era of time has its own harmonic frequencies and using thus frequency one can travel to an exact moment in time by using ones feeling to do so. Creating machine to do it for you would require a temporal harmonic matrix held dualnetic fields using liquid crystal tech as the primer as this method of tech uses its changing latices to create a stable corridor through the temporal barrier as a fish through it flows with the energy.

Homesickness

9 symptoms of homesickness, which included:

Constantly thinking about home
Anxiety
Decreased motivation
Feeling different from others who seem to be having a good time
Irritability
Loneliness
Missing the people, things, and places associated with home
A negative outlook
Sadness
Social withdrawal
Wishing for a connection with someone who will make everything feel better.

My journeys thus far

I've grown as a person while i've been here though its just hard. I miss home and my family. Sometimes i don't think i'll ever see them again or that they are even real. I suffer in silence.

Dreams and memories

Thus far my memories that have come back I've been a medicine man in another past life, Rescued unicorns from humans they had curved horns, Saved ponies from a collapsing bridge using my magic.

Memories

Had a memory pop in a few nights back of me saving unicorns who were sold into slavery following the great hunts. I infiltrated a human village that i had previously went into before disguised as a human. Ended free all the unicorns in town and on the way one of them had an injured leg which i instantly healed. The unicorns had curved horns. They were treating our brothers and sisters as beasts of burden and often working them to death.



Another memory I had was me using my magic to save people while stopping bridge from collapsing.

Spirit visit

Had a friend of mine spirit visit me today Her name is Spring Breeze. She strong of heart and a loyal friend. Tells it like it is. She a unicorn who was born in ponyville but grew in canterlot. We used get into so much trouble together . Her Sister also visited Summer Breeze.

Family and friends

Audra      Vera"oosh and Nera'oosh   OOshnel sister

E'Creta

Ooo'staneth means Keeper of Dreams

Sartan: qu kid



Eunue'thee fairy que

Ishnael- son?

Anar'Renshen this my mates name
narri elder sis
Eritoosh elder sis
Narrioosh elder sister
A'non Ronshoon- means bringer of light. This is my elven name.

Queen Athena of the mermaiads thats who i was.

princess mi'amore cadenza

my fairy name is Lightwind

Twilight Velvet and Night Light
E'coota

 Bow Hothoof and Windy Whistles

Cascade merpony friend

Acrylic storm

wild flower                                                 Iron Plate son of Iron Hoof

torch wood

Cedar wood

Princess Essence

Charcoal Stormwood
 Istoro - hind
Toe-Tapper
 ?Torch Song

 female named Raynebow and a foal called Silver Bullet

Ulysses

Alehembria

Tutti Frutti


Oosh'nana

Sandy Grove  and Sandle Wood

OOsta' Nath

OOda'oonaka'ooda

Arinaroho sister

dimensional Rift

Origins and the past

Canterlot was a summer palace and the silent grove is a part of that.We were born there and for a time we lived there. We lived there for few hundred years we were still very young and we didn't our cutie marks. We were being tortured in magic studies by starswirl the bearded. We learn history from our other tutors Sandy grove. We often visit the castle of the pony sisters to visit our my moms but up asn till a point mom wanted to keep all us away dawn light and Emerald night were not allowed to go there as something bad was happening to luna. Weird laughter could be heard we were frightened. All of us were huddling together when mom burst and teleported us away. She didn't even give us all us a chance to say goodbye. It was later we found out the our aunt luna was banished to the moon. Emerald and dawn were devastated as were the three off us sunset,me,candace. We all cried mother came to the sanctuary and let stay there. Told us it wasn't safe to return. Sandy came to live there with her family and Star swirl came there as well father and our elder sisters were always there when we needed them. Eventually we did move past and it was painful.I'm still sort used to using the royal speak so if i sound strange it use the of this language. We all got our light names from greatmother if were to stay among our cousins and others here we were still different.We got out cutie marks in the sanctuary with its advanced studies Starswirl came one last time and never returned told us that we would not see him again and that he would see us again one. Even to this day I don't really like Ko'onthra it was given to me. Father insists that it is a proper unicorn name but i also told we are equestrians . He thought it was cute was arguing with Mom would visit when she could it seems like every day there were injustices. Both me and emerald joined the protectors or in english sentinels though not really its name. Mother was angry we joined them without her permission but i told her i was old enough to make my own choices to which she relented. Sunset has grown distant and mother is going to take her back to canterlot. I visited home for abit I found our home in the other castle had been destroyed.Me and brother were visiting home on leave as our time is not our own. Cadence moved to the summer palace to live with mom and sunny. Dawn light is still in the sanctuary. I was told she came home for brief time only to her mom in the moon and the pain was too much. It still hurts to look up at the moon and know my aunt and mom is a corrupted being if emerald and I were what are now we would have destroyed without a second glance. Both of us feel like we are living weapons and we don't want this power anymore the training will remain. After this event my future self told. I know the protectors will not exist much longer and we will be free to return home. 

Books of the past

Magics of the Source- Its a book on advanced healing magic useing source magis to better heal someone useing there own energy to do it.Another way of healing the Healer uses a harmonic scan of the person spiritual self in which the being fully whole and is completely healthy and is able to use that as template to heal the person phsically. Even replacement of missing limbs is an easy affair.


Though clear quartz crystal can work like that tool given a enough time and energy poured into it. Useing the tip you just focus on the crystal or rock to change the latices. The Lemurian shaping crystals to do that and the clear quatz should do though its not as effective but it should work.It what i learned from them when i studied there before coming here.



student of many master through many realms. From atlantis to the Elves of the silver wind.

Tough thinking

I'm a failure at almost everything i do. I just don't often think that i can go on. But i do it anyways.

Old conversation

Good luck with him. Roam was at it for hours last night. He doesn't get it. I am worried about him.
yeah i tried to help him last time hokolntha messed him up badly.
He keeps coming back to how he got it all wrong and he's a prisoner here in a hell world. And some origin soul screwed him.
I didn't know. How so?
well he was all fine when i met him then he ran into hok and I guess he tried to rush him or called into question his believes by calling them false or something like this.
he even doubted his mate mirabelle what she accepts as what he can call her. I could feel the raw pain coming from her as i channeled her. She asking him why he doubted that she existed.
Oh lord. When are these kids going to learn not to trust Hok?
well he has two more on his plate abigail and tine polluck. One is multisouled being and the other is a recently awakened or partly awakened unicorn who lives in germany.
Some people just need to learn the hard way I guess and he goes for the vulnerable folks. Smh poor souls. Hope they aren't burned as badly.
They'll survive. We all do.
I warn abigail though i think tine doesn't understand alot of english cause i remember hok saying was having a hard time understanding her though when i spoke with her. Her english was just fine.
oops i guess goofed my my post a bit. Let me rephrase it. Tine polluck understands english but hokolntha believed at the time her english was poor. Maybe she saw what he was.
I do have a question. What kind of unicorn is Hokolntha? What was he before he came here?
I don't know. I only know what he says which may or may not be true. Why do you wish to know?
just curious is all
I've had positive reaction with both of his mates
illiane'thi and rashek both awesome mares
They are.
I don't go probing into his past tho. Not my business. He is what he is now. That's the one that matters.
no i won't go into his past as isn't any of my concern.
just trying to understand why he hurts so many in his path
I suppose if any of this is real, I am glad I  not a unicorn from this realm. I have no desire to go home with him when I die.
That is a good question. And for me a dangerous one
oh its real. The things I've seen and felt are real. Feeling the energy of a forest for the first time was amazing. Not me but my friend too
I think maybe he from a different place or time
Maybe. Idk. What you call home is lovely. I just won't follow him as a leader or live where that's required of me.
The problem with trying to understand his past is its really tempting to try and fix him and that is a huge mistake. Only he can fix him.
everything i've learned about home is everything resolves around choice. There is no high unicorn or anything of the sort. If there is a leader everyone chooses for them to be leader.
wendy's spirit guide said something about him giving up leadership or something like that.
Yeah. Currently not interested in hanging out the with the group that voted him in. I know some groups make the weakest member leader so they grow but I just have trouble wrapping my head around that choice.
He does that. Every time he counts himself. They he goes back to it.
Doubt's*
I think the way ma'aten said it was that at home there are those who live in the main sactuary and there other glories that make thier homes off the beaten path or small family groups that live with other races.
Eh. I don't worry about it. I get there when I get there.
true. We have other things to fill our plates with on this world.
Exactly
but it also helps when family from home visits from time to time. To let me know that they are there they will tug at my shirt or a gentle nuzzle to  the face.
Whatever works. I am glad you have what comforts you.  I see two unicorns infrequently. The first I don't understand my relationship with and the second is my mate.
thats cool. Can't physically see them.more like feel thier presense
Yeah. I don't see them either exactly.
More like what you said.
i mean sometimes i do get flashes of what they look like. Like once i wondered what i look like and poof staring right back in the mirror was a unicorn with the deepest baby blue eyes you could see. I was greyish with a lomng pinkish mane. I also had wings. This lasted for about half a minute. And another time i was able to see my parsent as if i was standing in front of them. Both were extremely surprised as they could see me as well. Then i felt an overwhemlming sense of hurt come from them.
Makes sense. I have had flashes too.
cool
see you
Ttyl at work so the response are intermittent.
np
have a good day
I will :) you too.
ty ?
good night
Night. Early bedtime for you?
no i was just overcome with a suddenly becoming tired.
just woke up
Hrrm. I'm getting overcome with that right now myself. it was a really long day
i can relate
Nighty night
good night
hiya ?
Hey.  How are you feeling?
feeling much better but still useing crutches to move around. have to get used walking again
how have you been?
Okies.  Life rolls on much the same.
I am sure mobility is a relief,  even if it is limited
it is. better than being bound to bed in the hospital and eating food that tastes like card board
its good hear that life going well for you.
I am sure it was a bummer.  Seemed to hit out of the blue and very hard.
very true. It felt like i was going to pass out so i called 911 and the people i gave rides too dropped me like a bad habit
Ouch. Well they say you find out who your friends are when things get tough. I am sorry that you were left behind like that.
very true. Illiane'thi was there for me as well as my unicorn family who helped me through it. My human grandmother also visited too
Nice. Usually family can be trusted to fall back on :)
very true there
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Here in case you need a smile.
thanks sis
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Voltaire- USS Make Shit Up- Lyrics: https://youtu.be/4bBD5yyT-s0
There we go.
hehe
thanks for the smile and laughter
Np
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Nighty night
The Last Goodbye- Billy Boyd- Lyric video.The Last Goodbye- Billy Boyd- Lyric video.
https://youtu.be/r4j_kCQ4f2Q
good song
It is.  The lyrics are familiar but I don't know why.
cause its from the movie the hobbit the battle of the 5 armies
Ah. That'd be it. Only watched it once.
still it was good movie
Not sure I can agree with that. To me it was passable by comparison to the other Hobbit movies.
well i  mean i did enjoy it.
good night
Night night.
hello sis
Hey how are you?
doing good though it seems back home the unicorns are tring to put togeher a republic.
aslo hokolntha turned on roam
I am sorry to hear it. Some things never change.
very true
hokky stepped down as leader of some of corns back home.
He does that too. Give it a week or two.
You ok?
I'm doing good
though he did get upset about me not being around. Though can say starting to get tired of his royal highness. He shows all the signs of being bipolar.
I'd agree.
oh well what can you do
Nothing. It's his life. Roam knows that too. She'll be ok. And he will have himself, for better or worse.
true its his path. Gm is still going to help guide the big lug give a good swift kick in the ass if he needs it
I have absolutely no idea what he needs. And I'm very glad it's none of my business anymore.
I think its getting to the point he is just going block me again. After that i want no part of him anymore.
It wouldn't surprise me. I'm sorry. I think in some ways knowing him was a lesson in what I don't want in a friend or a partner. I wish I could say something positive about the experience but really it just served as a warning of what to watch out for.
Well at least he helped in my time of need and helped me get stronger connection to home. That preaty much all the good he ever did
That is something. It is ok to be grateful for that. I am grateful because I needed to figure out what my boundaries were and by being involved with a person who did not respect boundaries, I learned something about how to set them and define them. I respect that. I don't owe him for it though, not in any sense. I respect his personess and pain but I don't have to like him or walk with him on the journey.
very true
Is Roam getting settled in her new place at all?
Don't know? Ican ask her?
I just was curious if she had mentioned it. I know she's been going through a lot lately with her family. I can poke her.
shes online
though poking her might tickle her
bad joke
Lol. I recognize it
hehe
qu can mke people laugh more than ican
You try. And you do a good job
true
seems great mother leader of all the unicorns now.
they voted her in
Fair enough. Idk why they need one but I don't really feel I have a stake there
no idea her idea
I think it was to unite all our peoples.
Be well Ko. :)
you too sis
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Dreams

Had another dream visit from Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, and Twilight though for some odd reason i ran away from them for some reason. When I came back asked some person where they were and I missed being able to talk to them. I cried in dream. Within the that same dream i had a memory. Something had happened between Rarity and me. I was heart broken so I ran into apple Jacks old barn in her back lot. Ran around a hay bale,created a shield but i made so no pony could see me and I cried . Twilight was able to get past my shield and was there when i needed her. Turned out to be a misunderstanding though i believe it was the first time I told rarity of my feelings for her. I another dream visit Twilight visited me with a few friends but then I felt they were in danger so i teleported them all to safety. I felt sad that couldn't at least be able to have just some time with them as they really can't visit me all the time.

Inner Unicorn Pathwork by Stephanine Small

Inner Unicorn Pathwork by Stephanine Small

This is a way of going through a creative visualization technique to a beautiful place to find your special unicorn guide. First, find a place to relax, somewhere in nature is preferable. Now, it is best to go through the grounding ritual I just mentioned. Let your mind drift without focusing on any particular subject. Now, visualize yourself walking along the path. Examine the path and make sure you notice any plants, rocks, ect along the way. Stop for a moment along the way and just come to understand where you are along the path.

Now, set your sights forward. Imagine the entryway to your unicorn's sanctuary. It can be a castle, gate, archway or whatever you believe it to be. Take a moment to examine the entryway. Do you need a key? Is it open? Is there light around it? Now, if necessary, pull a key whatever you would need to enter the sanctuary (you might not need to do this if your unicorn is not behind locked doors).

Now, step through the entryway to your unicorn's sanctuary. Examine this sanctuary....what does it look like...are there plants, rocks, trees, magical lights, fires? First, just look around and imagine this place in great detail. Know that this place is safe, pure and a place of learning. Now, when you feel this place is ready....allow your unicorn to approach you.

Pay particular attention to how the unicorn approaches you. Does it come out in a flourish of light, water, fire? Does it emerge from stone? Does it rise from the water or step from the trees and foliage? Allow the unicorn to come close. What does your unicorn look like? Is it a special breed? What color is the unicorn? What does its horn look like? Don't make any decisions about the unicorn though, just observe.
Now, allow the unicorn to come close and touch your forehead with its horn. Understand that the unicorn now speaks to you. Allow the unicorn to bond with you. Does it teach you? Can you ask it questions? What does you unicorn want you to learn? When your time here is complete. Thank the unicorn for its time. Recognize its power. If you know its name, address it and thank it. Now, you may leave once again from the sanctuary. Walk through the entryway and go back to the trail. As you walk back down the trail and away from the sanctuary, let yourself rise back to consciousness and open your eyes.

Its a good idea to write down some ideas once this has occurred. Record descriptions of what the sanctuary, path, unicorn and surroundings looked like.

Ways to Attract Unicorns

Dance! Infuse yourself with awe and wonder. Don't sneak or hide, but be unobtrusive. Look for them in wild places, flower meadows, woods, forests, waterfalls, apple and cedar trees, near wild holly (July 8-August 4) and near wild strawberries during the full moon. They are drawn by beautiful dragonflies, butterflies, swans, peacocks and colorful beetles. Use this as an opportunity for shapeshifting if you know how.

Raising Unicorn Magic by Stephanie Small

Raising Unicorn Magic by Stephanie Small This has helped me so much.

Rituals can be great, but you need to ground yourself before you do it. It makes sure you are open to energy, not using all of your own and not wearing yourself out. Its important to ground yourself because it relaxes and focuses you. You draw on the earthy energies that way rather than you own so you don’t get tired, worn out, sick or frustrated. Unicorn energies seem to be best for healing and protection spells, but it really depends on the aspect of unicorn you are calling on. This grounding works best for me while standing because I am already straight. Its good to practice your rituals while walking, laying or sitting as well. However, for now, you can try it in whatever position is most comfortable.

Imagine a cord extending from the base of your spine into the center of the earth (or a tail from your rear going straight down. Sit up straight along this cord. Breathe from the diaphragm and your stomach (like you’re going to sing).Allow energy to flow from the earth through your center up through you heart and out your forehead spiraling up into a single horn up to the heavens.

Do this for a moment then:

Now, imagine your spine channeling that spiraling energy. Imagine your feet as hooves, I like to think of them as sharp, cloven hooves digging into the soil and sinking in a little. I sometimes imaging feathering along the legs that blends down into the energies of the earth. Then sink into yourself and allow the magic of the unicorn to descend into the earth's magics. The spiral is a very sacred symbol and movement. You can spiral your energy down into the earth, or you can descend down with the solid straight energy of a different unicorn breed.

Allow your hooves to move through the dirt, feel the dirt hold you aloft. Then your energy moves through the caves beneath the dirt, feel the air in the caves blow through you, energizing you…then you feel yourself drawing further down, to the water that runs through the caves. Feel the water flow through you…then you move to the very center where the great boiling center of the earth is…fire. Feel the fire blaze into you. Draw on all the elements of the earth to feed your roots. Let it flow from you feet up…up…up. Now you draw power up from the earth with each breath. Pull onto each of the elements…earth, air, water and fire. Feel the energy rising up through your spine. Feel yourself becoming more alive with each breath.

Feel the energy moving up through your body. Imagine great, sweeping wings that move out from your shoulders, then move back down gracing the earth. See your horn spiraling the energy out of your forehead and towards the sky. Feel the power burst from the horn on your head, and the power sweeping back down to the earth creating a cycle, and returning to its source. Feel your wings and the energy of the earth intertwine with the energies around you and the auras that surround you. You can now tap this energy.

Now, after you have raised all of this energy and used it for your ritual, there is still a great deal of power racing through you. Every time power is raised, it must be earthed. Earthing is another form of grounding. If this is not done, the force you feel as vitalizing energy turns into tension and irritability. In the final step before opening the circle we ground all excess energy. A good place to send it to is back to the Earth. Here is how:

Sit or lie on the ground and relax. Place your palms flat on the ground or just lie flat on the ground (floor). Keep what energy you need and let the rest sink through you into the Earth. Imagine the energy flowing down into the ground. Relax, and let the energy flow out of you- -deep into the earth from whence it came. Relax and let yourself drift peacefully.