new memories

 I kept hearing about these so called great hunts that the humans had been doing and it was sort of in the past. So my brother and I made a plan to travel back to the point in time and rescue those unicorns. It was fairly easy to do. We ran ahead of the unicorns and I told them to follow my brother while i would lead the humans on a wild goose chase. I made myself slightly out of phase and used a light clone as well to confuse the humans. My brother got them safely back to the sanctuary and I got there a little afterwards picking a few foals who got lost. GM knew what I did and yet she wasn't angry her major domo was extremely angry with me. Yelled at me and tossed me out of one the gardens though when gm found she yelled at him. That was first time i had ever heard her yell. Also the unicorns we rescued went to live on in the sanctuary. The humans were hunting them for sport. The foals who were crying and Emerald made them laugh.

Living

 Sometime you have to live through pain and learn at least it seems that how it appears here. That some people who you think are friends here in this turn to be less than friends. Who only want to use you for their own ends. I don't know where my path will take me in this life. But once it ends here I'm never coming back to this world ever again and as far as humanity is concerned there are coming storms that will test humanity on a scale the likes of which they have never seen before. Things are in motion ,Change is in motion. Either go with or it will crush you in its wake.

Pain

 Kind of dug an old memory of sorts. The week after Aunty Lu got banished mom sent us way through a portal. I remembered I cried a lot along with my sisters and brother. I spent the next 1000 year in the unicorn sanctuary a place that is outside of time. My father never really kept any of his promises and I would get shuffled around between sisters and brothers. Every once in a while i would get to see my Twin sisters and my other sister and brother. Given names that were translation of our equestrian names into light language. I remember telling somepony that my name was Radiant Dawn and they would keep calling me Ko'onthra. Over time I just kind of accepted it. I guess there is some resentment there to what happened and being given a new name while living outside of equestria. Now its in the past but still hurts. At the time I felt like i had been abandoned. Like I wasn't wanted. There were times I cried myself to sleep. A few of my older sisters became mother figures to me. 

The fun of research

  In my reality we did the research on the elements even finding how the crystalline structure allowed for the energy to focus through the lattices. Also finding out that the pony was the source of the energy being taken then focused through certain type of lens thus allowing for the transfer of energy. All of the elements were connected through a harmonic field thus allowing them to come together. Also found that Tree of Harmony has a great deal of control over the elements through harmonic energy besides it being connected to Twi's castle which allowed it to use map to pin point areas of disharmony and use whatever ponies as a means of proxies to solve the disharmony going on. Further research on the tree back fired in a way that effected all ponies in my reality. In the attempt to map the crystalline structure of the tree and boost its effectiveness lead to a harmonic wave. I did see how the tree how the tree was connected to everything and the effects of us returning our elements to her. It was found the elements through their use would copy the vibrational signature of the pony wielding it and thus this would be shared with the tree upon returning the elements. The tree itself is an energy being of sort I hadn't seen before in Equestria . I found out that the physical form was just a proxy along with its other connections. As a element bearer I can tell when  the tree is in distress and can act to defend it as can any of the element bearers. Was also able to grow harmony crystals as a means of creating new elements of harmony based off what I learned from the tree and the elements. Wasn't to hard though with the help of my friends. To describe what the harmonic wave was it was a massive release of harmonic energy though the side effects were instant. It healed and gave every pony immortality to a point. The point being they could still die if by accident. Also it returned those of an advanced age to middle age in an instant. It also was later discovered that the tree had full control over the release of this energy and its desired effects. The tree also created a harmonic shield around itself though element bearers could freely pass through said shield as we were harmonically attuned to the shields frequency.

Doing research on how Twi's castle to could detect areas of disharmony was alot of fun in try to figure it out. we then made few discoveries in which Twi's castle acts like radar of sorts sending out sub  frequencies of harmonic energy and show it in real time.Part of the tree acts like a computer that processes the information coming in. It was also found that Twi's castle had defences of sort in regards that it could erect a shield around ponyville if the need were to ever arise. Though umm we accidentally caused the shield to be deployed took a few days for us to turn it off. There were other things within her castle that were of great interest such a hidden library of book made by Starswirl the bearded which greatly excited Twi in the extreme. I guess when the Twi castle was forming his collected works were part of the information and the library section too. I did learn in the outer realms how to grow cities and other advanced forms of magic. Starswirl attempts here were on the cutting edge of equestrian magic though in the greater sense they be viewed by an outsiders as baby steps to full child being able to walk in terms of civilizations growth. The research the went into this wasn't just me. It was Twi,Sunset,Starlight and Sunburst who helped make it a reality.        

traveling to new places

 Had another out of body experience I got visit Sunny and her friends for a short time. Somepony had a loud me to channel through them. It felt so good just be back in equestria for a short time. I got to introduce myself to them. They were very happy and Sunny's father was alive. I was able to talk to Sunny and her friends that they achieved something great. I had informed them that there others in the world that needed friendship. I also made a promise to return there if they needed me as a friend. Was in a toy shop and talking to few ponies till I lost focus. After this experience I feel at peace.

So desperate to talk to somepony

 I just have the overwhelming urge just to talk to another pony. Anypony to be exact. I don't mean to really  just to talk or well in this case type. I just need to talk some pony. I really wish i could make some good friends here. There are few good friends. I just wish i could just talk to fellow kin well I guess I already just wish I could relate more.Sometimes I worry that I will mess up and drive them way. I really suck at this. 

More memories

 Had a bit more of memory pop up from when i destroyed my mom's tower. Well there were 5 of us alicorns there 4 sisters and 1 brother. Sunset, me , Cadance, Dawn Light, and Emerald Night.Light didn't want to get into trouble and just watched us. Sunny had learned a new spell she had wanted to show us. Em, me and Caddy tried the new magic. Sunny was showing off that could use the offensive spell with ease by blowing up small boulders and not wanting feel out left we joined her. After while Sunny and i got into a contest of who could destroy the largest boulders. That's part where missed and hit moms tower blowing it up. We all knew how much trouble we were in so we decided to try and keep it a secret. Didn't last long cause Light confessed and the rest kind went downhill from there. Mom had in her room looking down at me with that kind look that moms have. She knew i had did it though i kept saying I wasn't there and that i was over friends house. She then asked which friend and I couldn't think of what to say. Eventually then truth came out which lead to another line questions who taught you that spell. We all cracked and revealed it was Sunny which lead to all of us being grounded. Besides that my sister Light was always the quite one while Sunny was a trailblazer. Back then she could be a bit arrogant and even stubborn hell we were all stubborn in our own way. I just remember one she wasn't there and no pony knew where she was and mom wouldn't tell me where she was. That really hit me hard.  She and I always had a friendly rivalry as sisters though in my neck of woods she my paternal twin sister along with Caddy.  We just sort drifted apart a little bit. Sunny was the glue that kept us all together. We each sort us went our own ways along having different spheres of friends. Still love one another. Who knows how things would have turned out if Sunny had stayed.(edited)

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One last thing me being taught magic by great mother was a choice I made which took me away from my family for 7 years in Equestrian time. It had been a year after getting my cutie mark. She ended sending me to different parts of the fae realms and other places to solve problems. In those places i learned about different magic and technologies. Some even took me far into the past and some into the distant future. It was hard road till one day i came home. A lot of happy faces along with reconnecting with friends I had. I had changed a bit. Mom had me promise that i wouldn't show any pony the books i had wrote or the inventions I had created. The way she had said it could have dire effects on Equestria's natural evolution of magic. Over the years i found loop holes that i could help my friends in subtle ways with my tech. An example would be everything that Equestria took as sold fact was wrong in so many ways. Like unicorns couldn't become as powerful as Starlight or the portals that many used were extremely primitive compared to other places.That some magics that were dead ends in equestria had whole branching trees of research of their own

Also one final thing I kept Communication devices with my friends from home throughout my journey. I kept in constant contact with them. I don’t think I could’ve made it through everything I’ve been through without them. Because I knew them since I was a filly.

Sunny Diamond

 Sunny Diamond one of my best friends growing up. Used to have sleepovers at her parents house in canterlot's south side a small stream flowed by her house. She was always telling me to be patient and i would get my cutie mark. That's the conversation we were having on that day. I can remember how she got her cutie mark we were playing around with clouds that day seeing if we could make funny shapes with them and laughing. She made this one cloud it really looked really cool and she got her mark. She was so excited and I was extremely happy for my friend. She was very understanding and a good friend. She got a job at the weather factory molding clouds. Every cloud has her signature touch to it. Eventually she made supervisor and was charge of whole department. After work the both of us would meet at a local donut shop where we would unwind from a long day and just chat. I would always make the time to go visit when i didn't have work. Just as she would make the time as well.

Cutie marks and rediscovering an old friend

 I agree with you. With mine is a heart with 3 stars and wings coming out of it. I just know I was a late bloomer and tried lot of advanced magic which got me into a lot trouble. I was coming home from a friends house i had slept over her name was Sunny Diamond and we were crossing the old stone bridge in canterlot. I heard crumbling sound and I didn't think I just took flight and flew under the bridge. Saw it was falling apart and I just used my magic to hold up the the whole bridge. I can remember the pain in both my wings and horn. My friend had flown down and i told her to get everypony off the bridge. I also remember some sort of booming sound and being given huge in flux of magic. It felt really good like I could do anything. Then I woke up in a hospital bed from the image i could see somepony sitting in a chair at the end of my bed.I felt so weak and tired. For me I tend to follow my heart. I love learning about magic and how its tied to the land. Also flying everything about the freedom of being able to go where ever you please. Feeling the wind as it passes over your wings just feels really good. For me my cutie mark it an an extension of myself as I see it as for meaning I think its hope and change.

Harmony Wave

 Its when you try to combine source energy with the tree of harmony. The idea behind it was to try to strengthen the the tree. Though it had rather unexpected side effect that effected everyone of the pony race with immortality,healing wounds and restoring anything lost to the body ie legs ect. It was one of my major screw ups as it was my idea. Twi and Starlight helped along with the other elements. It did have its desired effect of strengthening the tree just the wave wasn't really expected to happen but with heavy cost. While it gave somepony infinite life you could still die if say you fell off a cliff.

Immortality effects the time you have in the world as you can still get sick or break a leg. I learned about source energy from great mother and the magic around it. Along with engineering aspects that go along with it. There were many teachers in the sanctuary that taught in many ways. Most taught in the way of sharing their experiences from their own perspective. In a sense you live through their own experiences. Most what i learned came from them at the direction of GM.(edited)

Visit from family and inventions recalled

 I had dream visit from Caddy and Shinning. It was really good to see them again and this time i could literally feel the magic in the air. Felt like I was in equestria for a short time. Also remembered an invention of mine called Continuous Runes. Most other runes over time lose their charge. I created a tool infused with a small amount of source energy that aloud the one making the rune to infuse the rune with source magic thus allowing it never to be recharged again. To undo it just simply apply the same tool and it remove the energy thus removing the rune magic itself.

Foolish

 Also recalled a memory that I'm to keen to remember. One of the most stupid things I could have done. As Tirek was approaching Canterlot I decided to try to take him on by myself. I don't know where Twi was. I just thought i could take him on. I had the training to do it. Truth to be told I was out of my league so I did something equally reckless I used the same spell I would normally get source energy to power my inventions with except here. I opened myself up to the whole thing except i couldn't control it my whole body hurt just trying to control the spell and my horn hurt so much. I was trying charge up the spell. Trying hope the parasite would notice and take my magic with the spell. He didn't take the bate and hit me fist first into the ground. I barely had enough time to throw up a shield even then he kept punching the shield till I blacked out. Later I woke I was with the girls I barely had enough magic to heal myself. I felt so weak even when we all used the rainbow laser on him. I was still very weak and could barely stay wake. Just remember passing out.

Intro

 Name: Radiant Dawn/ Ko'onthra

Age: 44

Gender: she/her

Kin-types: Pony, Alicorn, soul shared the rest Kitsune,fairy, Centaur, Elf, mermaid

Explanation: Up to this point in my life I've just come accept who and what i am. I've had numerous spirit visits from my mates and friends from home. Soul sharing which i had explained to me via a dream visit from a fairy i know. She explained as a sharing of energy. Also it gives the ability to shift to form of your mate. It would be as if you were born of that race also creates a family bond with their family becoming yours.Example your mate's sister becomes your sister. I'm Alicorn from Equestria. It's just who and what i am.

Experiences: I've become something of a psychic medium though not as powerful as most only able to communicate with  those i have a connection to on the spirit plane. I've been awake for 7 years. When i first started out I thought i was just a unicorn which after this long journey I've remembered that I'm from Equestria. I'm a Alicorn .I've just come to accept that is who I am and moved on with my life. As for being Kitsune I had a spirit visit with my mate who i soul shared with. Thus I'm part kitsune because of that and she in turn is part alicorn. The same goes for the rest of my mates. I've had dream visits from my children from home.

Ideas

 Had few ideas about that in regards to the fall of Equestria  and trying to stop the loss of said magic. Just some ideas i had.  Idea one would be instead of having one council of friendship have multiple councils spread around equestria with having their own sector. A minister of friendship would have to be assigned to draw up report and let Twilight know whats going on also his or her duties would be communicating Twi's order to the other councils. A copy of the map would be provided to each guildhall. Each map would be connected to the tree of harmony. Idea 2 would be a book of friendship using the crystal tech i know which is pure technology just more advanced. The idea behind it is everyone would add their own friendship stories to the book.To the point it would be at some point it would be installed into a time capsule as it could provide some guidance. Said book would be protected from the ravages of time by using time to create a bubble of sorts. Also one could put all the collected works of Equestria into the vault.Said vault would have a harmonic lock on it. The key would be the friendships of each race with each other. As the key crystal would detect the vibration frequency given off by harmony among the friends. As for the loss of magic one would need a tool to follow the trace amounts of magic to the blockage then figure out a way of restoring it. Extreme case would be to funnel magic from another plane of existence via a conduit to the magical leylines of the effected realm also making sure both magic types vibrate at the same frequency if necessary using a converter to make the perfect match.

Iron Hoof

 I got to travel home briefly because earth pony let me see through his eyes.I was physically there. There is an old trade road the leads to equetria and I was 300 miles away from it.Its a boarder town There was a lady who allowed me to send a message though was more a code phrase it was" I am a student of Princess Celestia" I also got see his memories too. The earth ponies name is Iron Hoof a royal guard. I was able to resist the pull of this stupid body of mine for a time then i was dragged back here

Iron Hoof is both friend and father figure from back home.

Strawberry

 While eating some strawberries the other day I remembered my friend Strawberry Fields. She always had the best strawberries and Strawberry jam. She is an earth pony mare with a farm just to the far right of Applejack's farm. She also used to give my brother free strawberries.(edited)

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Family Reunions

My grandson spirit visited me this morning by knocking over the tv remote. Telepathically he very upset that I would be angry with him and I told him to calm down. To take a deep breath in which he did. Went back to sleep and was visited by my daughter Raine she was wearing a very stylish short dress and she had blue florent hair. We were talking for like a little while when i suggested we could go back the physical plane as time passed differently here. I've spent the morning with her which really uplifted my mood a whole lot. She living in the same city as my little sister Narella. Natellia often watches over me here in this life

Happy Reunion

 Had a memory pop in recently. Its about when Aunt Luna finally went home. She had just opened the door to the central parlor to the royal apartments when Caddy, Dawn Light, and Emerald suddenly stopped what they were doing. The shock on their faces was apparent. Caddy exclaimed "Auntie Lu!! and Light and Emerald  exclaimed " MOM!". All Three practically knocked over Auntie Lu hugging her and crying.

Contradictions

 I've really had it with humanity. The usa and the christians support Israel even though that same country does have the right to exist what it doesn't have right do is harm other people. Besides all that dealing with backstabbers and human family that you make 2 mistakes and they jump down your throat. When life is I'm never coming back to this world ever and humanity can go F themselves as far as I'm concerned they are a complete waste of time and space. They going to destroy themselves at some point I say let them. Weather they sink or swim I don't really care anymore. I don't trust humans here in this world. 

Remembering

 I just remembered something when I used to live in Canterlot and Cloudsdale with both my adoptive families. When I was in Canterlot as a filly mom told me I could go anywhere in the city but there off limit places i couldn't go. Like the upper city or leave the city limits. She would always know where i am because of tracking spell. I would never want to see that disproving look from her. When I was in Cloudsdale for flightcamp I had stay within the neighborhood. Both families are my families and I love them all. They were the active parents in my life. My birth would make the effort when she had the time my father was all duty and I hardly ever knew him. Every time I would go to the unicorn sactaury or the fae wood as the herd often move between them. I would be visiting my family there. He broke several promises to me when I was a filly and I used to cry myself to sleep when I was there. Often longing to go back home to be with my loving families.