Supporting a friend

 Had a memory of supporting my friend Mariposa over other other parallel world. I didn't go with her into the studio just hung around her trailer. I was there as a friend. She got the got part in the movie she said that had to cry a lot. I congratulated her. I wanted to give her a hug but she was in a very expensive dress.

Mission to stop Tech

 Its more of memory I was sent by GM to see what this new place that opened up was all about. Seems that it it advances tech this current world shouldn't have and couldn't have cultural contamination. Determine what power it and shut it down. I was very impressed with the service when you got in to leave the elevator would take you to where you wanted to go. Easy as it was reading your memory before you even entered the elevator( Vibrational teleporter). The facility would then tailor your experience with information it had gained and create light clone to serve you. Was later discovered they were using vibration localization. Such field would power everything within it lights,clones,teleporters ect. Disruption of that field proved that all serves stopped working. The mission was successful. Though towards the end of the dream white dude wanted me to explain how this tech worked which I responded that wasn't going to tell him.

Vibrational teleporter just moves your vibrational pattern between two points sort of like a primitive teleporter on star trek uses but there is no glowing lights or sounds. When it happens you don't feel anything your just there. Like teleporting as a Alicorn though when that happens there a popping sound as you teleport with the surrounding air and the glow afterwards is your magical aura dissipating    

Arrows

 Light cast arrows are angelic weapons. Each arrow has a small vibration crystal within the arrow head. Within the crystal was a small particle of source energy suspended with a vibrational field the particle is only stable with in the field. Once the arrow make contact with the target the crystal cracks and the field collapses thus releasing an enormous amount of lethal energy.  

Darklings

 Darklings are corrupted folks that are extremely dangerous and unpredictable. Never engage one face to face or talk to one. If you must maintain extreme readiness at all times. As of yet there are none here though there may spirit that fit that description then if you think there one located then you must avoid that area.

Broken

 I can't really make out the beginning part of the dream just was looking for my friends from equestria. Saw this weird tram like ride/roller coaster. Flutters was driving the tram and all my friends were on the tram. For some reason they didn't recognize me and I turn fled crying and hopped into this weird flying sail ship While I was controlling this thing I my hands turn into hoof then back again. I thought saw ponyville in the distance and i sobbed some more . Found a tree to settle down next and fell a sleep. Its like the astral travel i had before I could see my body from before in a third person.

Invention

 Its small portable device that can fit into the palm of your hand when folded up. As such when unfold it will look as though a have small window of sorts when it fully powered you will be able to see a outline of possible destinations. Selecting the destination allows for the device to fully deploy. With special a button on the bottom you can make it as big as you want it to be. Then just place it  up right and poof you have your own personal portal. When walking through it will appear on the other side too. You grab the top of the device then shake it and it will undeploy. In most other cases it reacts to your thoughts. Also has a built in harmonic shield that lets selected users through it and keeps baddies from following you. There is also harmonic lock feature on it as well allowing if on the right either use a code word or thought to call the device to you.

Crushed

 Had a dream visit by my friends from home then they went back through portal which closed i was desperate to follow them but I couldn't find the portal just some sort plastic mlp stuff. I cried in dream and woke up extremely depressed.

Blossom

 Blossom Tree Hugger's daughter dream visited me today. She is about Apple Blooms age. She wanted to know how I was doing. She had her cutie mark too. One of Emerald's daughters. 

A place to hide

 During my training with GM I had found a place no one could find me. I would often go there to just sit and think of home,my friends, and everyone I left behind. Often i would go there to cry. Seeing as my instructors thought crying was a weakness. I would often hide my feelings and do what they wanted. When I would get to my secret place i would cry and letting it all out. GM knew where it was but would tell no one. 

Awesome experience

It started out my twin sister Sunset was spirit visiting while our brother Emerald was in the car and i was in the store getting gas. As soon as i got back in both me and brother started smelling french roast coffee which there none of us had. Also being a medium of sorts my sister told me she thinking of the brand of coffee which i do remember she always loved to drink in the mornings before she would head off to school. I would just sleep in and do some chore while she was away. She kept thinking of it on and off while on the way back home after i dropped Em off. 

Reality hopped

 Some how i reality hopped into an advanced Equestria along with Tender Hoof. I could feel the wind hitting my feathers and it felt so good.There were ponies everywhere and it felt good just be among them.We were inside some sort of aquarium and planetarium mix. There was some sort of event going on.

Friends

 Had a really big surprise this morning all of my friends from ponyville had dream visited me. 

Family

 I remembered another family i had that accepted me . Iron Hoof and Tender Hoof.

My life after GM

 When I finally got out of Great mother's service I went to canterlot to my mom and dad's place. As soon as I knocked on the door. Mom answered the door and I wanted to cry so much. She just stood there in complete shock and before I knew it I was engulfed in a hug. I was ushered inside and I had found out that Twi was no longer living back at home. Mom and Dad wanted to know what had happened. Over some tea I told her everything that i had been through my intense training by GM and her major Domo. After a while of questions they were very angry with what i had endured. They had sent a message to Sunny Skies(Princess Celestia) I had returned and she had come over to visit. I was given a massive hug. They explained what i had been through to mother. I don't much what happened after that i just found myself back in my bed.

Most what i can remember is a blur. I know that may change. Most of my friends had graduated and had moved on to other parts of Equestria. Sunny Diamond had moved to cloudsdale to start her new job with the weather factory. The next day i flew to Cloud Dale to visit my family there and visit one of my best friends. Turns she just ended her shift when i saw her. The shock on her face was priceless. She tackled me in a hug. We spent the next couple hours just talking about everything even  everything I had been through. She really wasn't very happy at the training I had to endure. She told me that my other friends here in the city some had gone to wingopolis while others had stayed with the city. As we made our rounds i ran into some old friends Spits and another friend I don't remember  her name. After some time I made to mom and dad's place both were outside just enjoying the weather. Before I could even land they both tackled me with hug. Spent the next few weeks in both canterlot and Cloudsdale writing to my friends and getting more relaxed at being back. Shining had entered the guard also seeing my twin sister caddy. Also had learn Dash gone off to live in ponyville. At that time I was doing a part time job with the weather team for canterlot. My friend Sunny had helped me get the job. At that time I just wanted a fresh start and i run into Rainbow. It felt good to see her again. She mentioned Ponyville and that it was very small town. That i should give it a try. She help me move to ponyville. Since she was on the weather team there all i had to do was ask my captain if i could switch teams. With the paperwork filled out I was on my way to Ponyville. I bunked with dash for few months and made a few friends in town.

I saved up every bit i could plus the 2k bits from the government every pony gets per month. I was able to buy own small house. WIth some magic I able to increase its size within. I also while bunking with dash I would give money as rent she wanted to refuse because i was her and sister. She would have none of it. Instead i used the money to stock her fridge with food.

I spent the next few years working on the weather team part time while Dash had made captain. I had made a few friends around town. Strawberry, Aj, Rarity, Fluttershy, and Pinks just name a few. Any time I would go some where i would explain that yes I'm alicorn and no I'm not a princess. 

When it came to defeating Nightmare Moon it was an act of love that distracted the Darkling. That what gave my friends and I the chance to become the elements and direct them against Moon. Freeing my aunt and also revealing a secret to my other friends. Which they were shocked at but given time didn't really think much of it. Promised never to reveal it.It was a special type of magic that allowed anyone with it to be free to discuss anything but if it came to the secret itself they would forget what they were talking about.Only the one who cast it could bring someone within the circle.

Coming out

 I just remembered something as I was coming back after I had gotten my brother out of another mess I saw Cadance and shining armor pass by on a coach. The look in her eyes was hurt as I had missed the wedding. My brother still acting goofy thought would cover for him again. I told him when I see my friends that I would come clean about the messes I got him out of and all the accuses I had made for not being at certain events. On the way back to ponyville me and my brother had gotten into a heated exchange. He would always guilt trip me into covering for him or promise him something. It wasn't easy to tell Twi and company where i had been and what happened. How close he and I had been to death. The sheer disappointment on their faces made me want to cry. Afterwards they had wanted to talk amongst themselves. I was worried that they didn't want to be friends with me after all this because of all the excuses.   I had teleported away towards one of AJ outward sheds in the back of her property. I created a opaque field and as part that field I made it so no one could hear me. I cried and I cried till Twi broke through my field. All my friends were there and they hugged me. They told me that they forgave me and that everything would be ok.

Unpleasant training gaining perspective

 GM wanted to teach me perspective on what it was like to be male and to understand them better by forcing me to become one. I really didn't like it and it didn't feel right. I spent about a 6 months and had my mindset altered too for experience. I can remember telling others that i was the son of Celestia. Though times I would remember being female but it like trying to grasp at air. GM reverted me back. Its like I was watching someone use my body and i was along for the ride. She took an alternate me and brought him in. Merged the two of together thus letting me have that experience but also letting him of that same experience as a mare for a different perspective. Gm returned the both to our realities. How GM did this was it was an alternate self was teaching her student a new perspective. I didn't like it one bit but it gave me what i needed to learn about males.    

Training by Great Mother

 I was teenage filly when i was trained in various ways of disabling enemies. GM felt the best way to train against something was to actually face it directly. There are some memories when i think of them left terrified beyonds words. I can face it but it scares me to the core. Darkness not abstract concept of something without light. This is a thing that corrupts everything in it wake. GM would always watch and intervene at the last second if i failed to defend myself. It wasn't easy. It felt like diving into cold water and you feel like you can't breath. Like very life is being sucked out of you. To defend yourself you must embrace your own darkness and find balance within yourself. Your light won't be extinguished. Doesn't mean I wasn't hurt by any of these experiences.I used to cry myself to sleep from missing home plus getting hurt by all the training majordomo of GM was teaching me fighting styles. He was tough and yet fair to a degree. He didn't like it when i cried but over time that went away. And I became better at defending myself from both magic and physical attacks. I remember i had question for gm one day "What was it like to be her?" She showed me with guiding presence. She showed me earth and let me experience everything at once for only a second. I was literally everything on that world from the trees to the lowest life form all within a second. It overwhelmed me but she helped me process all the information and understand it over time. Funny thing was all of this was a span of 3 to 4 year equestrian time when actually it felt like i had been for thousands of years. Most of what i had learned I didn't want those powers or the advanced abilities that came from them. I still don't them. To be like GM and my answer is no.So when people are so obsessed with ascending to a higher plane and they so willing to give up on family or friends. Then I would its really not worth it. That's just my point of view. 

The many places i was sent to. I was sent there to solve a problem and in many cases I came away with children of my own. Since i could travel in time thanks to what GM taught me. Learning about magic was an extreme passion of mine and was done on my own time. I would always be careful not to leave any traces of myself for others to follow me. I learned from gm how to shift my form from one thing to another. The core you would always stay the same just shifting your vibration slightly would allow you to take on different forms. Many unicorns and other of the same family have learned to shape shift something the changelings do on a whole different level. But i digress getting off topic. Life wasn't easy under GM's tutelage. When i returned to Equestria I did so because it was my own choice to leave. GM left me go and told me if wanted to go down that path in the future it would be there for me. To become like her. I told her that wasn't for me and it didn't feel right. To that she smiled at me. Like she knew it could end this way. She was a hard yet fair teacher. Confusing as hell.  

One last thing my brother Emerald had the same training as i did,

Old Memories New Details

 Sunny and I were coming home from her house. We were joking around and laughing. I'm telling really bad jokes. Mom(twilight velvet was going meet us. There lots ponies on that bridge day. I just remember hearing a cracking like something was falling apart. I don’t know what had me think of flying under the bridge . Sunny followed me as we could see cracks forming . I could see the terrified look on my friends face. Without thinking I tried to use my magic to hold up the bridge I was barely able to hold it. I turned to sunny and told her to get everyone off the bridge. While at the same time I could feel my horn hurting so much. I remember screaming in pain. Then there was this strange booming sound and it’s like sudden in flux of magic. I felt like I could do anything and holding the bridge up was easy. I also wanted to keep everyone safe twilight velvet (mom)was on that bridge too. So magic was going through me. Then the magic was gone in a flash. I passed out. Only to wake up in a hospital bed. The room was an off color light blue with a small bed side table along with a small chair right across from the bed. There was also another chair off to the left. When I woke up the lights were out and it was dark outside I could barely see. Right across the room was a unicorn and on my left I knew someone was there. At that moment I felt drained like ever mussel in my body ached and I felt so I tired. I was scared but comforting feeling over came me and I soon fell asleep. I was in the hospital for over a week and half. From  what i can remember the doctor had said Sunny had saved my life and that I had magic exhaustion . I had my mark though I couldn't fly or use magic for the next three weeks. Sunny and my other friends would often visit me. I also got scolded from both my sets of parents along with my siblings Dash,Twi and Shining.

Home

 My house in town. It has a short roof on it with navy blue siding with door that is painted off color white. Its next to the tea shop in the center of town.I  When I'm working in clouds dale I have a small small apartment in the sky district.I just remembered the name of the street. Horse shoe lane. I can see the sign I can make out of the other signs but they are blurry. The farmer's market is on the west side of town. I would often for go teleporting there or flying preferring just to walk there sometimes. Sometimes i would see Aj selling her apples there. She had the best apples in all of equestria. Sweet and crunchy. Sometimes walking past her farm I could smell the apples on the wind.

Quest for finding Emerald

 The idea how I incarnate was planned . That everything was random was false. This was a plan from the get go events were arranged to the best of our abilities. Some of the events that happened to me growing up were unplanned. Twi and bunch of us had one mission to bring Emerald home. The idea was once I found him we would be extracted by one of two ways either through the dream realm or in the physical domain both failed. It leaves the only is to live out our lives here. I never thought that I would meet other Equestrians here and some would become my dearest friends. Regardless when we pass we are going home. The reason I was packed to go was because I had experience because I’ve been incarnated before. Things never go as planned. I don’t think the girls are going to give up.