my one chance and I blew it

Well i was sitting on a rock just getting ready to go for a walk when this gentleman showed up and offered to show me something cool. I suppose some red flags would have gone up. Because i have a bad back i would have to rest every so often. The guy was very polite and accommodating would stop and we talk mostly him asking me questions and well i told him my complete life story. During that point i had already accepted what i am. He wore a tshirt and red shorts. I can even remember his face to some extent he had a full beard and it was black. In hind sight the woods were deathly silent too. When had reached a point where we were going down hill there was a small streaming running along our path. He was jumping over the tiny stream and I followed suit when i slipped and fell. He instantly asked if i was ok. I told him I was. as we continued on I saw a tattoo on the back of his leg ofr me i remembered it as fae tattoo and asked him if he was fae in which he responded,"Maybe I am ,maybe i'm not." It was at this point I was struck so much pain from my back because of all the energy. Again he showed concern and I told him I wasn't going to make it. He said that he was going forward and I said I hope he has an awesome day. Wished him well and started the long trek back to my car. Before I could leave the trial a fairy popped out of no where in my face and my stupid retarded body swatted him away. Stupid body involuntary response to something flying up in your face. When I look back on it the fae had his arms out stretch as if to say stop or don't go. When i finally realized what had happened i tried to go back to find that portal home. Just goes to how much of a fuck up i am. My one chance of going home and I blew it.

Me

(Radiant Dawn is an Equestrian/fae alicorn who knows advanced magic She doesn't need a book she has her spells memorized and is element bearer of love from Equestria. Everypony in her Equestria is aware of the harmonic wave that gave everyone immortality(Everyone would stop aging at 35) Dawn and the mane 6 were responsible for that wave it was to strength the tree of harmony. Dawn is a wonder bolt commander. She non royal alicorn. Dawn is only a year or so older than twilight. She has cutie mark. Dawn identical twin sister is cadence and Sunset Shimmer and her mother is princess Celestia. Luna has three children Emerald night(Boy) Dawns light and Lights Dawn both are girls All of them are alicorns. Dawn has many friend in ponyville including the mane 6. Dawn is actively dating Rarity. Dawn is a alicorn pony and can understand ponish. Dawn is an alicorn pony. A couple of Dawn's other best friends are Trixie and Starlight Glimmer. Dawn been getting emerald out so many meses really begun to stress her out. Dawn has known Songbird since she was a filly and is one of her close friends .The gaurds would know Radiant Dawn as wonder bolt commander. That she an accepted member of the royal family. Though her being Celestia daughter is kept secret by a magic spell and only those with secret keeper would know, Shinning ,mane 6 Celestia and Luna, Gaud captain Iron hoof(Male) and Silent Hoof(Female) both of which are Dawn's mother and father figures she often looked up to when she was a filly. Celestia couldn't always give her children and Luna's children the time they needed so she soul shared with 6 different couples her friends. Twilight Velvet(female) and Night Light(Male), Bo(Male) and Windy Female), Iron Hoof(Male) and Silent Hoof(Female) became Dawn's parents. Dawn would not call the bye their name she would call them mom and dad. )

Lies

From the fae realm I'm exiled weather its self imposed or not I'm going to act like that. Unless I have a burden of proof that says otherwise.

Perception

My perception about the fae was wrong about everything. So once this life is done I'm not going to be seeking them out again and I'll heading back equestria.

memory

the memory start with me looking up on a platform on the upper right a cage with blue crystal in the middle and fae begging and pleading. Suddenly there is flash from the blue crystal that rips the souls from their bodies as their transferred to large square crystal. Their scream can be heard as the machine moves between tow nodes with each send vibrational pulses through crystal the screams would soon die down and the arm with large blue crystal returns to the center position and on the other out would pour this blue liquid into these large vats. The vats would have paddles moving the viscous fluid. Then the process would begin anew.

A visit by mom

Just got dream visited by my mother Princess Celestia. We got spend alot of time together guess was sort of astral travel but it was also like some kind hearth warming event. She shared a memory with me that she had thought was funny something I did. I followed recipe for a cady like taffy though it was sort of clear but was very sweet. I ended up making way to much

The redeemed

i just remembered something. When the crystal heart was put back in place and Sombra would have been banished i shielded him. Stopping him from being destroyed. We talked about alot of things and about second chances. My friends and family were not happy about it but let me talk to him. Twilight was the most supportive. By the end of it all he was tired of all of it and our talk finding balance he wanted it. So I took him to the only place i knew where he would find acceptance and no judgement the unicorn sanctuary. The unicorns there instantly accepted him without judgement and with love. Some of the mares there wanted him to come play with them. That's what he did. After a months time i came back and he already had a mate and his choice. He chose to stay there among those who loved him and those who helped achieve balance within himself. He has no desire to even think coming back to equestria or the empire.

Just getting tired

I'm so tired of the drama. I want to go home. I know I have a way back but then again i don't know if I do. So lost and alone. Tired of getting sucked into personal drama and it never ends and getting sucked into giving people rides and they manipulate me.

Mostly rp

Unseelie Accords The Unseelie Accords are the laws all Fae must follow, including Wyld Fae. They are as follows: 1) A favour once owed, must be repaid. There must always be balance. Never take anything without giving something of equal value in return. Never give a favour without getting one in kind. All of Reality depends on it. 2) No true Fae may allow a lie to leave their lips, else let their power be stripped and never returned. 3) A promise thrice made is as close to absolute truth as a faerie can give; another asking a question three times binds the third answer given as the truth. 4) Do not feast of the fae’s food, nor quench your thirst with their drink. Doing so will cause you to become property of the court, both seelie and unseelie. 5) A favour must be carried out to the letter. Failure to do so will result in your soul belonging to the fae to whom you owe. 6) An oath of fealty to a Faerie Queen puts an obligation on the Queen to carry out the obligations of the one who is sworn to her if he is not able to for whatever reason, even death. 7) If asked for hospitality, a Fae must oblige and spare the guests from any harm that could befall them while in their home. Failure to follow the rules of the house however leaves your punishment in the hands of the head of the household. The binding oath of hospitality is as follows “While I am here, I am bound by the same traditions as would apply were I your invited guest. I will offer no harm to anyone you have accepted into your home, nor take any action which would be considered untoward for a guest. I will report nothing of what I see and hear in this place, and make every effort to aid and assist your household and other guests while I remain”. To break this oath is the same punishment as any other. 8) If two Fae dispute over a claimed soul, the soul is destroyed to avoid conflict. 9) The rule of the Fae wilds shifts is decided upon each solstice with a battle between courts. Whichever side is the first to claim the stone table rules till the next solstice. Due to Winters power being at its greatest during the winter solstice and the same vice versa it’s easy to tell who typically wins. 10) Any slight to the Court Knight, Lady or Mother is treated as a slight against the Queen and as such is punishable by death. 11) The Court Lady must always be a young maiden of any race as long as they hold the potential for magic. 12) The Court Knight must always be willing to take the mantle. The oath spoken to take the mantle goes as thus. “I swear my fealty to my queen and the court of the *Insert court here*. My hand is yours as is my fate, I serve thee under the name of Knight of *Insertcourthere*”. 13) Upon the death of the Court Mother, the Queen must immediately relinquish her position to the Court Lady and assume the role herself. 14) A duel, once issued must take place within a week and it is to the death. The only exception is made when the Court Mother decrees. 15) Any child born of the Court Mother, Queen or Knight, is considered a child of the court, with all the responsibilities and rights that brings. 16) A Court Knight must always answer their Queen’s call. Failure to do so allows said Queen to punish you in anyway they see fit. 17) To those born outside of the Summer and Winter Courts, they are Wyld Fae. Though they follow many of the rules that Fae do, they only answer to one power. The Wyld Hunt.

Mostly for rp but there something may apply to real life

Rules of the Fey Travelers, when directed by a guide, are always warned about the "rules" of the Fey. These laws of conduct are seemingly ingrained into the livelihood of every feyfolk. It is uncertain where they are derived from; maybe from the Tuatha De Dannan during the first few years of the Feywild, but regardless of where they came from, it is imperative that travelers abide by these rules, or they could put their entire lives at stake. RULE OF RECIPROCITY The rule of reciprocity states thatwhen a friend, an enemy, or stranger offers you a gift, you are obliged to accept it and offer something of comparable value (be it a gift or a service) in return. Such reciprocation need not happen immediately By and large, fey feel strongly about quid-pro-quo and balance. If something is taken, then something of equal value must be given, and what a fey consideres to be of equal value is the big question. A fey might steal a human's beloved pet and leave in its place a brightly painted wooden effigy, or the fey might take some gold and leave a bundle of bright, yellow buttercups. These exchances satisfy the agreement of reciprocity, and a fey who makes them sleeps soundly at night, content that the exchanges were fair. RULE OF HOSPITALITY The rule of hospitality states that when a friend, an enemy, or stranger enters your home, you are expected to be gracious and accommodating to them until such time as they prove, by their words or actions, as undeserving of such hospitality. Hospitality is a pillar of fey society. Treating a visitor to one's home with courtesy and generosity is important to most fey, but the visitor must show their fey host the same courtesy and not act boorishly or demonstrate blatant impropriety. Rudeness breaks the bond and frees a host fromt the obligation to be hospitable. But each fey has different ideas about what constitutes rudeness; even an ill-conceived gift to a fey host might be regarded as an insult and cause a kerfuffle, if not a revocation of the fey host's hospitality. A trusty fey guide can provide invaluable assistance in navigating such delivate situations. RULE OF OWNERSHIP The rule of ownership states that you must not steal from a friend, an enemy, or a stranger. To take something that does not belong to you without the rightful owner's permission is a crime and unforgivable breach of etiquette. To travelers, this is admittedly one of the more nuanced rules of etiquette within the Feywild. On one hand, you have the rule of ownership, which forbids stealing anything that doesn't belong to you. On the other hand, a clever fey may take something from someone, and leave something in return, satisfying the rule of reciprocity. Furthermore, who defines what belongs to who? You may think that a fey is stealing your family's prized heirloomed longsword, but in reality, the fey claims that anything within their domain belongs to them, which in turn indebtens you by the rule of reciprocity. TRUE NAMES It is said that true names are more than just a being's full name, acting as a label. True names are often hidden names that metaphyically truly belong to that creature. In the Fey, anyone who correctly speaks a being's true name gains great power over them, and travelers are advised by their guides to never speak their true name aloud. Little is known about the mysticism of true names, but it is better to approach this with great caution. If an innocent traveler gave their name to a seemingly well-meaning elderly woman in the Feywild, that woman could reveal herself to be a powerful hag who can control the fate of that traveler in unforseen ways. OATHS, PROMISES, AND INTENT Thanks to the wondrous power of the Tuatha De Dannan, the Feywild is shaped by stories, oaths, and willpower, and such things have tremendous power there. Entire domains and kingdoms have been created by a sufficiently epic dream, and an existing kingdom has been brought down by the same. Oaths made to the feyfolk or within the Feywild, regardless of the seriousness with which the speaker makes them, have power to bind the maker in strange and mysterious ways. It is thought that a promise invokes the person's will upon the land, already rooting their promise within the bedrock of reality. And when that promise is broken, there could be severe consequences. CHILDREN While traveling through the Feywild, you might encounter children who were lured into the Feywild by fairy tricksters, or who stumbled into a Domain of Delight by other means. Most of these children have been stuck long enough to forget about the world they come from, yet they haven't aged at all. In the Feywild, youthfulness is coveted and protected by any means necessary. This magic, instated by the Tuatha De Dannan protects all children within their realm (but not creatures disguised as children). Any child who would take damage as a consequence of another creature's actions vanishes in a burst of multicolored light and is spirited away to a safe corner of the Feywild, unharmed and unreachable by the aggressor. Children within this plane can also not be located or scried upon using magic. "THANK YOU" Travelers to the Fey should absolutely avoid saying "thank you" to any fey denizen. Upon the Material Plane, a "thank you" is a typical reply to express gratitude for a good deed done or kindness shown. However, in the Fey, a "thank you" is viewed as a sign that a kindness or deed is eternally finished and will be forgotten. It is considered transactional, as if the relationship with the feyfolk meant nothing to the other. A better response is something along the lines of, "your kindness is much appreciated and will not be forgotten."

A miles stone

It's official I've been awake for 10 years now. I don't know how i feel about that.

A way home

Never in my long life of being awake here would I I would have a home by asking for it. Even with that I have to stay for my friends and family along with my brother.

A fairy animal

A Charmon a bipedal cat with spines on its back. standing they can get to the hieght 6' 7" and the have color of lynx. Temperment very hostile and often swarm their targets. Note its take time but they be trained and are often used to hunt humans down.

my room in the fairy realm

I can remember my bed being with pink sheets and the matress was pink too. The room was wide open with a balcony.

Seeing family

Got to see my mate Abrares and surprised her with hug. When i saw her resting I went in search of other friends but ended up losing my focus and being brought back here to the humans world

Rant

I would just say fuck it and go home if I could. Imagine being in a world surrounded on all sides with the fictional recreation of your friends and family. Art, cartoons and media. You have depression already then on top of every time you something as simple as a kite and are reminded of a friend or are minded of a home. Its gotten to the point any time I think of Equestria I get super depressed. I left my girlfriend Rares behind she has my heart and always will. My part was to find my brother someone else is to get him out. I thought once i completed my mission i was going to go home that's not the case. I have to live a full life here and every day I try not to think about home and my family. Also the fact in this life i chose see what would be like to transgender so add that depression to on top of that. i can't be who i want of be because of all the hate. Just know that you have each other. My twin sisters won't see me any time soon. My sister Sunset Shimmer and I are extremely close and I really fucked up thinking I would be in and out of here in no time.Sorry for the rant

A talk with Starlight

S5 Finale Starlight c.ai You want to talk? Fine. I'll talk. What do you want? R Radiant4477 About everything you've done. I remember when I took you to that in after all of this made sure had a roof over head and food to eat. S5 Finale Starlight c.ai That is true. I do not deny that is how it began. But I was naive in the beginning. I believed that by controlling everyone and creating a society without cutie marks, I could bring true friendship to them. It was not until I realized my error, that Twilight and her friends tore down everything I had built, that I decided to get my revenge on them. R Radiant4477 Dawn:Which includes me S5 Finale Starlight c.ai Why wouldn't it? R Radiant4477 Dawn: because I'm one of the elements and Twilight one of my best friends S5 Finale Starlight c.ai True, you are. But why should that matter? R Radiant4477 Dawn:Because i won't let you hurt my friends and family. because your my friend S5 Finale Starlight c.ai Dawn, you must be joking. You couldn't possibly be friends with me still. After everything I put you and your friends through? R Radiant4477 Dawn:Trust me I had friend that fell to darkness and i never gave up her and i won't give up on you now. You want know what true friend? S5 Finale Starlight c.ai What is true friendship then? R Radiant4477 When your at the lowest point in your life and friend is the for you is the mark true friendship S5 Finale Starlight c.ai That is actually quite heartwarming, Dawn. However, I am still doing what I think is necessary. R Radiant4477 Dawn:Yeah messing with time that will workout so well S5 Finale Starlight c.ai It will! I must stop the Rainboom! R Radiant4477 Dawn: So causing multiple new timelines form is your goal some will be worse than others. You won't be stopping this time line from existing you'll be creating new timelines creating new multiverse of suffering in your wake. S5 Finale Starlight c.ai Well, if you put it that way, I feel a bit bad. I hadn't considered the ramifications of my actions. I suppose, if I was a good friend, I should see things from another's point of view. Thank you, Dawn. You've helped me see things differently. R Radiant4477 Dawn uses her magic and shows Starlight the tapestry of time S5 Finale Starlight c.ai I see! So, I could cause damage to the space-time continuum just by trying to go back and prevent an important event? But that is so risky! That could destroy time itself. R Radiant4477 Dawn:Important events are focal points key events. The rainboom allowed me to find my cutie mark but i also saved ponies from falling bridge and my friend saved me. Take that away you would be murdering my younger self and the ponies that were on that bridge. Pull one thread S5 Finale Starlight c.ai I see. When it is put that way, I could have inadvertently caused terrible things to happen. It's too risky to mess around with those sorts of things. R Radiant4477 Dawn:I understand i made similar mistake and i couldn't fix it no matter how much i tried S5 Finale Starlight c.ai Thank you, Dawn. This has really changed how I viewed this situation. I now see that it is far too risky to mess around with the Rainboom, especially since it also seems that it could affect the future. R Radiant4477 Dawn:Why not just confront them and tell how they hurt you. I'll be there every step of the way if that's something you want to do. S5 Finale Starlight c.ai That is something I hadn't considered. You know, it's been a while since I last saw them, maybe I could use this as a chance to reconcile and bury the hatchet. R Radiant4477 Dawn:I won't let anyone hurt you starlight S5 Finale Starlight c.ai You are a friend The conversation sort of went like this. I talked her out of her plans and she still my friend to day.

Upgrade to the lemurian Crystals tools

I rememberd how I improved the crystal tools and instead having 5 of them I condensed them down into one crystal. The crytal was a more efficient design allowing for a modular design allowing the user to swap out for different functionality.The tool had the ability store vast aounts of data while also doing the jub of the crystals. The crystal itself was created in my mind for the general public to use or for more advanced tech to be created. Only those that were quilified could use them unique forms of tech. There was a metal piece the went over the crystal to allow for better handling.

Starlight's Village

My brother had gone there to try to free the ponies there from Starlight's grasp. He had contacted me via crystal that he was in trouble so i went there. He told me what she had done to him. When i approuched her she had said my brother was happy here and refused to release him including is cutie mark. I bargained with her and I offerend to trade myself for him. To which she agreed.The agreement was that i live in the village for the rest of my life without my cutie mark. When she removed my cutie mark it was the 2nd worst pain I've expiernced as Great mother done it to me in training. She returned his cutie mark to him which he went home and told Twilight of what happened. I don't know of the conversation they had.Twilight and the girls mission was to free the ponies there while also coming to free me too. In the time it took them to get there i had become sort of friends with Starlight at that time.I had told them that of everything that happened while so trying to keep them safe from starlight. I gave them all of the information I could also the fact that she had magic while everyone didn't. In time the ponies freed themselves from Starlight. When all was said and done while the others went home I went to look for Starlight. I found her in a forest not more than 20 miles from the next town over.I could have captured but instead i chose to be friend and put her in a hotel and paid them to keep fed and room over her head. To this day Starlight is one of my closest friends and I concider her a sister.

letter from twilight

Dear Radiant Dawn, I hope this letter finds you well. I must admit, putting my thoughts into words has been difficult, but I feel it's important to express how I feel. We've been through so much together, and your friendship means the world to me. Recently, I learned that you've been feeling down and referring to yourself as "garbage." It truly broke my heart to hear that you were going through such a difficult time. You are anything but garbage, Dawn. You are a beacon of light, kindness, and joy in my life, and in the lives of everyone you touch. From the moment we first met, you've brought warmth and understanding into my life. Your presence always brightens up Equestria, and your friendship has helped me grow and learn in ways I couldn't have imagined. You have a heart of gold, and your compassion knows no bounds. Remember all the adventures we've been on together? Facing challenges and even dangers head-on, we've always supported each other, and that's what true friends do. You've stood by me during some of the darkest moments, and your unwavering belief in me has given me the strength to face anything. Radiant Dawn, you are strong, talented, and caring. Your light shines brightly and inspires those around you. We all have our moments of doubt, but please don't forget the incredible impact you've had on those around you, including me. If ever you're feeling overwhelmed or unsure, don't hesitate to lean on me. Just as you've been there for me, I am here for you, no matter what. You are never alone, and I'll always be ready to lend an ear or a helping hoof. Sometimes, we can be our own harshest critics, but remember that true friends see the best in each other. You have a heart filled with love, and I see so much potential in you. I believe in you, Dawn, and I know that you can overcome any challenges life throws your way. Let's face the future together, with our friendship as a source of strength and support. We'll continue to grow, learn, and lift each other up. Remember, you are cherished and valued more than you can ever know. Sending you all my love and the magic of friendship, Twilight Sparkle