Walking Paths

 I would often spend time visiting my family in the unicorn sanctuary.One time  gm took me to the higher planes of existence to visit and for a lesson. From my own eyes it really didn't look that much different than here or anywhere else. Though you could feel others emotions and even use them to talk to one another. This where I met my great aunt and uncle who live there Aunt Shara'Atena and Uncle Batten'Onooth both are brother and sister. I also have a few sisters there too. When someone laughs it tickles you can feel it in your being. Though when I was there i was very young so my perception was very limited. The adults made it so I wasn't overwhelmed. They let me incarnate on very simple thing as an asteroid. I could feel being weightless and I could slightly perceive the world around only through vibrations. When the lesson was over i was blown away by what i had experienced and I was filled with even more questions most of which they would tell me. As they would often say," You will discover it in time. Don't rush it, experience it, Take the slow path and enjoy life." Both my Aunt and Uncle were so full of love and understanding. If I made a mistake they were always to encourage me through love and understanding.

Massive Mistake

 I recently had an epiphany thought my mission was to get my brother Emerald out of a mess but I've come to realize that I was one who screwed up. My brother told everyone where he was going and what he planned on doing. I didn't think to ask . I just acted without thinking. So now I'm stuck here.

Dream of the Past

 When GreatMother sent me to help and learn from the elves. I learned alot magic along with fighting the corrupted to help my elven friends. I shared my heart with my mate and gained an elven family. Kiree is my elven sister who slowly corrupted by a stranger who entered fort that i commanded. Lost control of said fort and my sister/friend was corrupted. On a patrol it was easy to break through the shambling hordes all they were was a bit of magic in simple harmonic matrix that given direction. After break through my Corrupted friend was expecting to fight instead all told her was i wanted to talk. I got her agree to release my friend and leave the fortress. Released her corrupted self into the corrupted lands. As far corrupted selves go its like having an echo of the person you used to be roaming around.

Good friends are often hard to find

 Had dream memory I was over at Scie-Twi's house over in the other world. I was helping her clear the snow of my car and hers. Also clearing the snow off her drive way. I was suppose to visit her on Saturday at 10:30 am because of her birthday. She one one my best friends over there. I had rented a apartment in advance and had a car there as well. I also get the feeling she dating my sister Sunset or she going to pop the question. Also had memory of a friend over in Ponyville who is a doctor with a syringe cutie mark. Though describing her as Scie-Twi really just feels insulting. She shines in her own light.

Homesick

 Every day is the same sort thing I'm always homesick even when i can distract myself from it. I guess i should surround things that remind me of home though most those very things do exist in this human world. Often times i will never understand humans no matter how long i live here with them. Greed is so out of control it isn't even funny. They devote so much to thier military and let their common citizen starve and not have a place to call home. This is utter insanity why do they this happen? To anyone from who reads this know that I'm trying my best to remain positive.

Atlantean Soul Harvester

 an Atlantean soul Harvester. Purpose of taking spiritual energy and breaking it down useing vibrations. It operates like a metronome going between two points. On the hand there is crystal that glows a soft blue. The machine is ornate. A discharge of energy is given to the crystal as it moves between the nodes. I remember hearing the screams of those that were being broken down. They would fade after a while then out the other end of the machine would come this light blueish fluid that would collect in a pool. There were many pipes from this pool leading holding tanks. The reasoning behind said machine is to provide fuel from spiritual energy

  There is a filtration system built into the inner working of  the machine. The fuel in question a had positive and negative charge to it. Given what this kind fuel was used to power were the weapons of war as such the feared siege golem. Said golem used the fuel to both charge its weapons and its own inner workings. As such it had a holding tank of a sort that used a vibration field that would switch back and forth between negative and positive. The rest of machine was built sort of like an organic body with a heart to pump the fuel around the body as needed. There a interal computer of a sort though used several liquid crystal latices to maintain its internal systems. As for main driving intelligence there really isn't any there just a basic friend or foe computer along with targeting. Said computer uses liquid crystal tech to do the calculations. It was found the fuel over time would corrupt the inner workings of both machines as well as wipe out all life around said machines

Truth

 To get where i am today has taken me a long road to get here. Dealing many things some of which were lies and other drama I had to deal with. Now in the middle of a pandemic with no end in sight. I still have a long road ahead of me.

Mark of Destiny

 Remembered how i got my cutie mark cause up to the point i was something of late bloomer. I had some lessons in vibrational magic from one of my sisters. I constantly was wondering when i would get my mark. The day I got it was a beautiful day outside not cloud in the sky over Canterlot. I was spending time with my brother Emerald and Dawn Light. We were crossing the old stone bridge on the west side of Canterlot. I could see that there were cracks starting to form underneath my hooves. So I acted I flew really quickly under the bridge and used my magic to hold it up with best of my ability. I remember my horn hurting alot and my brother flew down and i told him to get everypony off the bridge. I heard a loud boom and felt huge surge of magic flow through me allowing me to hold up the bridge. I know I passed out afterwards and woke up in my mom's personal medical ward. I felt completely drained and i ached all over. My mom was there sitting there watching over me.  i know she told i got my cutie mark then I fell asleep.

Unicorn

Just remembered something when my friends went to the Grand Galloping Gala I wasn't there cause i had to get my brother out of another mess he got himself into. He did something to anger some really powerful people and I managed to get him out of it. I think he went off to try and save some unicorn ponies who were enslaved only to be caught himself. I set the ponies free and got my brother out of the mess he was in. Even though the ponies there thought of me as a savior I still wasn't much of a friend. Its just another regret i have. I know for fact i would still have gone to save those unicorn ponies. They had curved horns.

Teleporting

 When teleporting anywhere you just need to focus your will on the target destination. How I did it back home was I would think of my home or the place I wanted to go. Focus on that place and pof i would be there. Though of course there is alot to teleporting it's all about the focal point ie the target place you want to go to and charging up the right amount of magic for the spell. Constant practice its what let's you get to any place and always start small. Baby steps.

Wonder Bolt

 I remember in the reserves operated on a merit based system. The more merits one has the more responsibilities one gets. Merits would be given to those that showed leadership skills and would often be given a rank in the reserves. There was also tier system too. There was an idea that I floated to Spit Fire. The idea was to create more teams though i really never got around to telling her. Also my nick name is "Hard Luck" as I made really big mistake and I was very hard on myself. The mistake was I overestimated the distance to the landing area and plowed head first into Spits. I knew her before she was a wonder bolt and she never let me forget that mistake too though it was humor based. I also remember Dash didn't want to be a leader of anything once she made the team, Spits wanted to give her more responsibility thus made her commander of the reserves. In charge of the training,feeding and recruitment. Special cases were to be sent my way for additional training. As the general rule is there is no wash outs.

Incarnated

 I've incarnated here 3 times. This is the third time around and I'm here bring my brother home. The first one was cause Great Mother asked us too . Second was with a sister of mine and we wanted to see something. I'm so tired of this world and dealing with two faced people.

Defend one friend lose another

 I defended one friend today on a rp site and lost 3 or 4 friends. Though the more I think about it the other three were never really friends as they never acted like it. Being here in this world people use a button to make a friend and yet these people arn't friends at all. I go by actions. If you have time for me then i have time for you. Treat me with respect and I will show you the same.

Sunsets of Rhode Island

 

A visit with a lover

 Just a little while ago i was able to spirit visit Rares at the nexus a hub between worlds. She was crying and I just wanted to stay with her. At the same time I was trying to remain focused as if i lost focus i would have been brought back here. I gave her some my magic and she in turn gave me some of hers. When I was there i wanted to cry but if  I did i would have lost focus and I was fighting with all might to stay there with her. Great Mother and many others helped make it possible.Green Leaf also made it possible and without her i would be lost. 

descriptions of great mother and Hard lessons

She is a black Alicorn though sometimes presents herself as a pure black unicorn. She is like mother and a teacher. She teaches by actions  as well as words. She exists in all times and places. She shift her focus to everyone of those selves. She is the leader of the unicorns of the sanctuary and all those who dwell within. She has taught me through action and sending to places where leadership was needed and in so doing showed me i could be a leader. Even though i doubt myself all the time. From those places i helped I came away with family and friends. From those lesson I hope maybe one when I'm ready, I to will lead my people even though i don't want that kind of responsibility. Mistakes of real dire consequences can be made by ones actions or in action. I've learned from her that being a leader is not easy in fact its hard

Sun Control

solar harmonization matrix is a large harmonic crystal that stands as big as a person whose sole function is to contain an out of control solar react. Its does this by stabilizing  the vibration of the star and absorbing the heavy elements within the star. It takes these elements and converts them into energy it needs to run. Thus its function is to control the star. Stars like everything else in the universe vibrate at their own frequencies and know how to control said frequencies allows one to do almost anything as nothing is impossible.

One of my good friends

Amethyst Flare one of my good friends from home. She could always see the good in others and would stick up for her friends. She may not one those ponies who throws themselves into danger but she is one the most bravest ponies i know. She inspires me to be better than myself.

memories

Had another flashback I was in a mall with Sunny and Starlight. Well they had just to the small as i was waiting for them. Prior to that i was staying at sunny's place as I was visiting for the week. So when this whole magic nonsense happened i was there for when it happened with an enchanted mirror that could effectively store everyone vibrations in pocket reality sort like how a containment shere works. Some idiot was using it like a toy and then got corrupted by it. It finally took Starlight get through to the girl while i was able to change the polarity of the mirror. It was a team effort that saved the day.I would always spend as much time as i could to visit my sister. Like after the girls and Twi defeated Sunny I elected to stay with her with my knowledge of portal harmonics I could open the portal at any time. I stayed with Sunny for a few weeks just make sure she was doing ok and for the fact i still had reservations about trusting humans.It with more interactions with my friends doubles I learned to start to trust them even made friends with them.

Can't be whole

Being a transwoman one would think I would be able to get SRS and get rid of the stupid thing between my legs I guess that not ever going to happen as I'll forever be stuck with it because of the blood thinner I'm on.