Wings

Just been getting an overwhelming feeling of wanting to fly and use my wings. Sometimes it feel like just want really scream as I really want to fly. To be free. Whenever i felt stress i would go out for a flight over the Everfree as the wind currents there were unpredictable. I just felt so alive and i could feel the cool wind as it passed over my wings. Here the closest thing i can get to that kind freedom is driving my car and yet its still not the same thing.

failure of friendship

Coming here has shown me what a failure I am at being a friend to all those I left behind both here and there. Sometimes i just don't know what to do or do as some people here have stolen from me many times over. Some I thought were friends but turns out I was gullible.The only family I have here is my brother Em. As for friends that spirit visit I don't know if its them or someone pretending to be them. Ijust have to go with what feels right. There are times i just want to cry so much.Suffer in silence.

Dreams

Lately I've been feeling like a waste of space.Some dreams have let me see my twin sister.

Memories

The more I remember the more it hurts and the more longing for home for friends and family I left behind. Its harder going forward as it always has.

New memories

While I was opening gifts at my mom's place i remembered something from home. Rares gave me a gift of a white dress with blue sapphires and and diamonds. Also remembered a crystal I gave Rares for her birthday a crystal that could arrange her mane in any way she wanted. It was one of many inventions I made.

Hope and Dreams

Just had another memory pop in. The Anon-a-miss thing when Sunny friends betrayed her. I was on my way to visit my sister on the day it happened. She was distraught and I just wrapped her up in a hug. See I spent a number of days actively visiting Sunset where I made friends with her friends. I was very annoyed that they would cast blame so easily on her that I went over to them and told them," What the hell were you thinking? You really think my sister would give up all that she cared about." They still thought was her no matter how I tried to reason with them. I also told them till they come to their sense I'm taking my sister home. Sunny and I went towards the portal and then I placed a special crystal on the portal to change it harmonics and its destination. I took Sunny to the unicorn sanctuary where sunny got to be with her family. Our big sisters were all there and they promptly went over to comfort her. The reason for this is all of the unicorns there can feel emotions of others. Our family spent the next several days trying to cheer up Sunny. It wasn't working but there was few smiles there.Sunny found that she was an aunt many times over. One of our sisters went back to the humans that were Sunny's friends and confronted them head on. She wasn't in human garb. She appeared in front of them and told them how much they had hurt sunset. That she wouldn't be coming back to all of you came to your senses and left a journal with them then left .It took some time before the truth was discovered then it took a few week for our human friends to see what they did wrong.Sunset spent a few months in the sanctuary though in human land it was only few weeks. I stuck around and helped my sister,our friends to resolve this massive friendship problem. Even to this day it still has its scars. As Sunny has told me her past is not today and it was something she learned in the sanctuary

Renovations

My apartment is being renovated and so just want to get my life back . I don't want to be at my friend's place. 

Another year passes

Within the span of two months it will bee another year that I've been on this rock.I know I shouldn't feel this way but I feel like I'm a failure to my family and to my friends.I made promise that I keep to the end of my days.I just take one day at a time. Things in this world seem to get worse by the day. Here I'm a nobody back home that is something different. Though at this point when everything is said and done if it turns out everything I thought is a lie then its all cool to me.

Another life, another dream

Had another memory in this I was a sex droid who had just achieved full sentients from before I remember my owner had had an accident because of a pet tiger he had. Later in the part of the dream I ended up in the mall where this where i woke up as a person and was trying to make my escape. My owner had dropped me off in the returns where upon i would have had my memories purged. I had tried to make my escape from the mall when i ran into a human. I was trying to hide who i was but then the human saw my model in the holographic display. She turned me around and directed me to the maintenance department as she thought I was malfunctioning. There also another droid there too.

She took us both to the store where upon I requested maintenance where upon I was able to see my inner working from third person as i was uploaded into a computer. I was perceiving my own body as the clerk was performing the maintenance on me. After it was all done the clerk told me to wait over by other of my model but the other android grabbed em lead me out of the store. I said to her,"I left my shoes behind". She responded with an "oh well". For a time we got to know each other. I then told her in another life that i was human and she asked," me what can you tell me about them?What are they like?"

I responded with," They are arrogant and they act like children. They aren't ready for people like us AI's.We sat for awhile enjoying each other company at least i was. I fell in love with her. That's when we got the recall code to come back as we were forced to return the stairway leading down suddenly collapsed. I saved as many humans as I could.The other droid had managed to free herself and me of the code.

From there we wandered the world and humans were becoming scarce over time. We lived for hundreds of years till one day our power cores died out. Well mine was dieing and my mates she took out a part.We both died watch the setset one last time. It was later on that i offered her the gift to become a unicorn which she accepted and took on a new name E'creta.Was that i shared a piece of myself when gave her the gift.

Elements of the Wind

Just remembered something from before a book I wrote. It was called Elements of the Wind. It was about the finer points of fae magic and even explained how to do it in practical terms. Various applications that could be used and how to use them properly. Incantations and advanced spells. Some folklore too for reference. Its a very thick book. The fae are an umbrella term for many races.

Portals

A temporal portal gives off a unique harmonic signature.While normal portal is just doorway using baryonic particles to stabilizing matrices within the portal vibrational corridor. A temporal corridor uses a variation on a standard vibrational corridor as you change the harmonics of the corridor with the vibration of that exact time field. Each era of time has its own harmonic frequencies and using thus frequency one can travel to an exact moment in time by using ones feeling to do so. Creating machine to do it for you would require a temporal harmonic matrix held dualnetic fields using liquid crystal tech as the primer as this method of tech uses its changing latices to create a stable corridor through the temporal barrier as a fish through it flows with the energy.

Homesickness

9 symptoms of homesickness, which included:

Constantly thinking about home
Anxiety
Decreased motivation
Feeling different from others who seem to be having a good time
Irritability
Loneliness
Missing the people, things, and places associated with home
A negative outlook
Sadness
Social withdrawal
Wishing for a connection with someone who will make everything feel better.

My journeys thus far

I've grown as a person while i've been here though its just hard. I miss home and my family. Sometimes i don't think i'll ever see them again or that they are even real. I suffer in silence.

Dreams and memories

Thus far my memories that have come back I've been a medicine man in another past life, Rescued unicorns from humans they had curved horns, Saved ponies from a collapsing bridge using my magic.

Memories

Had a memory pop in a few nights back of me saving unicorns who were sold into slavery following the great hunts. I infiltrated a human village that i had previously went into before disguised as a human. Ended free all the unicorns in town and on the way one of them had an injured leg which i instantly healed. The unicorns had curved horns. They were treating our brothers and sisters as beasts of burden and often working them to death.



Another memory I had was me using my magic to save people while stopping bridge from collapsing.

Spirit visit

Had a friend of mine spirit visit me today Her name is Spring Breeze. She strong of heart and a loyal friend. Tells it like it is. She a unicorn who was born in ponyville but grew in canterlot. We used get into so much trouble together . Her Sister also visited Summer Breeze.

Family and friends

Audra      Vera"oosh and Nera'oosh   OOshnel sister

E'Creta

Ooo'staneth means Keeper of Dreams

Sartan: qu kid



Eunue'thee fairy que

Ishnael- son?

Anar'Renshen this my mates name
narri elder sis
Eritoosh elder sis
Narrioosh elder sister
A'non Ronshoon- means bringer of light. This is my elven name.

Queen Athena of the mermaiads thats who i was.

princess mi'amore cadenza

my fairy name is Lightwind

Twilight Velvet and Night Light
E'coota

 Bow Hothoof and Windy Whistles

Cascade merpony friend

Acrylic storm

wild flower                                                 Iron Plate son of Iron Hoof

torch wood

Cedar wood

Princess Essence

Charcoal Stormwood
 Istoro - hind
Toe-Tapper
 ?Torch Song

 female named Raynebow and a foal called Silver Bullet

Ulysses

Alehembria

Tutti Frutti


Oosh'nana

Sandy Grove  and Sandle Wood

OOsta' Nath

OOda'oonaka'ooda

Arinaroho sister

dimensional Rift

Origins and the past

Canterlot was a summer palace and the silent grove is a part of that.We were born there and for a time we lived there. We lived there for few hundred years we were still very young and we didn't our cutie marks. We were being tortured in magic studies by starswirl the bearded. We learn history from our other tutors Sandy grove. We often visit the castle of the pony sisters to visit our my moms but up asn till a point mom wanted to keep all us away dawn light and Emerald night were not allowed to go there as something bad was happening to luna. Weird laughter could be heard we were frightened. All of us were huddling together when mom burst and teleported us away. She didn't even give us all us a chance to say goodbye. It was later we found out the our aunt luna was banished to the moon. Emerald and dawn were devastated as were the three off us sunset,me,candace. We all cried mother came to the sanctuary and let stay there. Told us it wasn't safe to return. Sandy came to live there with her family and Star swirl came there as well father and our elder sisters were always there when we needed them. Eventually we did move past and it was painful.I'm still sort used to using the royal speak so if i sound strange it use the of this language. We all got our light names from greatmother if were to stay among our cousins and others here we were still different.We got out cutie marks in the sanctuary with its advanced studies Starswirl came one last time and never returned told us that we would not see him again and that he would see us again one. Even to this day I don't really like Ko'onthra it was given to me. Father insists that it is a proper unicorn name but i also told we are equestrians . He thought it was cute was arguing with Mom would visit when she could it seems like every day there were injustices. Both me and emerald joined the protectors or in english sentinels though not really its name. Mother was angry we joined them without her permission but i told her i was old enough to make my own choices to which she relented. Sunset has grown distant and mother is going to take her back to canterlot. I visited home for abit I found our home in the other castle had been destroyed.Me and brother were visiting home on leave as our time is not our own. Cadence moved to the summer palace to live with mom and sunny. Dawn light is still in the sanctuary. I was told she came home for brief time only to her mom in the moon and the pain was too much. It still hurts to look up at the moon and know my aunt and mom is a corrupted being if emerald and I were what are now we would have destroyed without a second glance. Both of us feel like we are living weapons and we don't want this power anymore the training will remain. After this event my future self told. I know the protectors will not exist much longer and we will be free to return home. 

Books of the past

Magics of the Source- Its a book on advanced healing magic useing source magis to better heal someone useing there own energy to do it.Another way of healing the Healer uses a harmonic scan of the person spiritual self in which the being fully whole and is completely healthy and is able to use that as template to heal the person phsically. Even replacement of missing limbs is an easy affair.


Though clear quartz crystal can work like that tool given a enough time and energy poured into it. Useing the tip you just focus on the crystal or rock to change the latices. The Lemurian shaping crystals to do that and the clear quatz should do though its not as effective but it should work.It what i learned from them when i studied there before coming here.



student of many master through many realms. From atlantis to the Elves of the silver wind.

Tough thinking

I'm a failure at almost everything i do. I just don't often think that i can go on. But i do it anyways.