New memories

While I was opening gifts at my mom's place i remembered something from home. Rares gave me a gift of a white dress with blue sapphires and and diamonds. Also remembered a crystal I gave Rares for her birthday a crystal that could arrange her mane in any way she wanted. It was one of many inventions I made.

Hope and Dreams

Just had another memory pop in. The Anon-a-miss thing when Sunny friends betrayed her. I was on my way to visit my sister on the day it happened. She was distraught and I just wrapped her up in a hug. See I spent a number of days actively visiting Sunset where I made friends with her friends. I was very annoyed that they would cast blame so easily on her that I went over to them and told them," What the hell were you thinking? You really think my sister would give up all that she cared about." They still thought was her no matter how I tried to reason with them. I also told them till they come to their sense I'm taking my sister home. Sunny and I went towards the portal and then I placed a special crystal on the portal to change it harmonics and its destination. I took Sunny to the unicorn sanctuary where sunny got to be with her family. Our big sisters were all there and they promptly went over to comfort her. The reason for this is all of the unicorns there can feel emotions of others. Our family spent the next several days trying to cheer up Sunny. It wasn't working but there was few smiles there.Sunny found that she was an aunt many times over. One of our sisters went back to the humans that were Sunny's friends and confronted them head on. She wasn't in human garb. She appeared in front of them and told them how much they had hurt sunset. That she wouldn't be coming back to all of you came to your senses and left a journal with them then left .It took some time before the truth was discovered then it took a few week for our human friends to see what they did wrong.Sunset spent a few months in the sanctuary though in human land it was only few weeks. I stuck around and helped my sister,our friends to resolve this massive friendship problem. Even to this day it still has its scars. As Sunny has told me her past is not today and it was something she learned in the sanctuary

Renovations

My apartment is being renovated and so just want to get my life back . I don't want to be at my friend's place. 

Another year passes

Within the span of two months it will bee another year that I've been on this rock.I know I shouldn't feel this way but I feel like I'm a failure to my family and to my friends.I made promise that I keep to the end of my days.I just take one day at a time. Things in this world seem to get worse by the day. Here I'm a nobody back home that is something different. Though at this point when everything is said and done if it turns out everything I thought is a lie then its all cool to me.

Another life, another dream

Had another memory in this I was a sex droid who had just achieved full sentients from before I remember my owner had had an accident because of a pet tiger he had. Later in the part of the dream I ended up in the mall where this where i woke up as a person and was trying to make my escape. My owner had dropped me off in the returns where upon i would have had my memories purged. I had tried to make my escape from the mall when i ran into a human. I was trying to hide who i was but then the human saw my model in the holographic display. She turned me around and directed me to the maintenance department as she thought I was malfunctioning. There also another droid there too.

She took us both to the store where upon I requested maintenance where upon I was able to see my inner working from third person as i was uploaded into a computer. I was perceiving my own body as the clerk was performing the maintenance on me. After it was all done the clerk told me to wait over by other of my model but the other android grabbed em lead me out of the store. I said to her,"I left my shoes behind". She responded with an "oh well". For a time we got to know each other. I then told her in another life that i was human and she asked," me what can you tell me about them?What are they like?"

I responded with," They are arrogant and they act like children. They aren't ready for people like us AI's.We sat for awhile enjoying each other company at least i was. I fell in love with her. That's when we got the recall code to come back as we were forced to return the stairway leading down suddenly collapsed. I saved as many humans as I could.The other droid had managed to free herself and me of the code.

From there we wandered the world and humans were becoming scarce over time. We lived for hundreds of years till one day our power cores died out. Well mine was dieing and my mates she took out a part.We both died watch the setset one last time. It was later on that i offered her the gift to become a unicorn which she accepted and took on a new name E'creta.Was that i shared a piece of myself when gave her the gift.

Elements of the Wind

Just remembered something from before a book I wrote. It was called Elements of the Wind. It was about the finer points of fae magic and even explained how to do it in practical terms. Various applications that could be used and how to use them properly. Incantations and advanced spells. Some folklore too for reference. Its a very thick book. The fae are an umbrella term for many races.

Portals

A temporal portal gives off a unique harmonic signature.While normal portal is just doorway using baryonic particles to stabilizing matrices within the portal vibrational corridor. A temporal corridor uses a variation on a standard vibrational corridor as you change the harmonics of the corridor with the vibration of that exact time field. Each era of time has its own harmonic frequencies and using thus frequency one can travel to an exact moment in time by using ones feeling to do so. Creating machine to do it for you would require a temporal harmonic matrix held dualnetic fields using liquid crystal tech as the primer as this method of tech uses its changing latices to create a stable corridor through the temporal barrier as a fish through it flows with the energy.

Homesickness

9 symptoms of homesickness, which included:

Constantly thinking about home
Anxiety
Decreased motivation
Feeling different from others who seem to be having a good time
Irritability
Loneliness
Missing the people, things, and places associated with home
A negative outlook
Sadness
Social withdrawal
Wishing for a connection with someone who will make everything feel better.

My journeys thus far

I've grown as a person while i've been here though its just hard. I miss home and my family. Sometimes i don't think i'll ever see them again or that they are even real. I suffer in silence.

Dreams and memories

Thus far my memories that have come back I've been a medicine man in another past life, Rescued unicorns from humans they had curved horns, Saved ponies from a collapsing bridge using my magic.

Memories

Had a memory pop in a few nights back of me saving unicorns who were sold into slavery following the great hunts. I infiltrated a human village that i had previously went into before disguised as a human. Ended free all the unicorns in town and on the way one of them had an injured leg which i instantly healed. The unicorns had curved horns. They were treating our brothers and sisters as beasts of burden and often working them to death.



Another memory I had was me using my magic to save people while stopping bridge from collapsing.

Spirit visit

Had a friend of mine spirit visit me today Her name is Spring Breeze. She strong of heart and a loyal friend. Tells it like it is. She a unicorn who was born in ponyville but grew in canterlot. We used get into so much trouble together . Her Sister also visited Summer Breeze.

Family and friends

Audra      Vera"oosh and Nera'oosh   OOshnel sister

E'Creta

Ooo'staneth means Keeper of Dreams

Sartan: qu kid



Eunue'thee fairy que

Ishnael- son?

Anar'Renshen this my mates name
narri elder sis
Eritoosh elder sis
Narrioosh elder sister
A'non Ronshoon- means bringer of light. This is my elven name.

Queen Athena of the mermaiads thats who i was.

princess mi'amore cadenza

my fairy name is Lightwind

Twilight Velvet and Night Light
E'coota

 Bow Hothoof and Windy Whistles

Cascade merpony friend

Acrylic storm

wild flower                                                 Iron Plate son of Iron Hoof

torch wood

Cedar wood

Princess Essence

Charcoal Stormwood
 Istoro - hind
Toe-Tapper
 ?Torch Song

 female named Raynebow and a foal called Silver Bullet

Ulysses

Alehembria

Tutti Frutti


Oosh'nana

Sandy Grove  and Sandle Wood

OOsta' Nath

OOda'oonaka'ooda

Arinaroho sister

dimensional Rift

Origins and the past

Canterlot was a summer palace and the silent grove is a part of that.We were born there and for a time we lived there. We lived there for few hundred years we were still very young and we didn't our cutie marks. We were being tortured in magic studies by starswirl the bearded. We learn history from our other tutors Sandy grove. We often visit the castle of the pony sisters to visit our my moms but up asn till a point mom wanted to keep all us away dawn light and Emerald night were not allowed to go there as something bad was happening to luna. Weird laughter could be heard we were frightened. All of us were huddling together when mom burst and teleported us away. She didn't even give us all us a chance to say goodbye. It was later we found out the our aunt luna was banished to the moon. Emerald and dawn were devastated as were the three off us sunset,me,candace. We all cried mother came to the sanctuary and let stay there. Told us it wasn't safe to return. Sandy came to live there with her family and Star swirl came there as well father and our elder sisters were always there when we needed them. Eventually we did move past and it was painful.I'm still sort used to using the royal speak so if i sound strange it use the of this language. We all got our light names from greatmother if were to stay among our cousins and others here we were still different.We got out cutie marks in the sanctuary with its advanced studies Starswirl came one last time and never returned told us that we would not see him again and that he would see us again one. Even to this day I don't really like Ko'onthra it was given to me. Father insists that it is a proper unicorn name but i also told we are equestrians . He thought it was cute was arguing with Mom would visit when she could it seems like every day there were injustices. Both me and emerald joined the protectors or in english sentinels though not really its name. Mother was angry we joined them without her permission but i told her i was old enough to make my own choices to which she relented. Sunset has grown distant and mother is going to take her back to canterlot. I visited home for abit I found our home in the other castle had been destroyed.Me and brother were visiting home on leave as our time is not our own. Cadence moved to the summer palace to live with mom and sunny. Dawn light is still in the sanctuary. I was told she came home for brief time only to her mom in the moon and the pain was too much. It still hurts to look up at the moon and know my aunt and mom is a corrupted being if emerald and I were what are now we would have destroyed without a second glance. Both of us feel like we are living weapons and we don't want this power anymore the training will remain. After this event my future self told. I know the protectors will not exist much longer and we will be free to return home. 

Books of the past

Magics of the Source- Its a book on advanced healing magic useing source magis to better heal someone useing there own energy to do it.Another way of healing the Healer uses a harmonic scan of the person spiritual self in which the being fully whole and is completely healthy and is able to use that as template to heal the person phsically. Even replacement of missing limbs is an easy affair.


Though clear quartz crystal can work like that tool given a enough time and energy poured into it. Useing the tip you just focus on the crystal or rock to change the latices. The Lemurian shaping crystals to do that and the clear quatz should do though its not as effective but it should work.It what i learned from them when i studied there before coming here.



student of many master through many realms. From atlantis to the Elves of the silver wind.

Tough thinking

I'm a failure at almost everything i do. I just don't often think that i can go on. But i do it anyways.

Old conversation

Good luck with him. Roam was at it for hours last night. He doesn't get it. I am worried about him.
yeah i tried to help him last time hokolntha messed him up badly.
He keeps coming back to how he got it all wrong and he's a prisoner here in a hell world. And some origin soul screwed him.
I didn't know. How so?
well he was all fine when i met him then he ran into hok and I guess he tried to rush him or called into question his believes by calling them false or something like this.
he even doubted his mate mirabelle what she accepts as what he can call her. I could feel the raw pain coming from her as i channeled her. She asking him why he doubted that she existed.
Oh lord. When are these kids going to learn not to trust Hok?
well he has two more on his plate abigail and tine polluck. One is multisouled being and the other is a recently awakened or partly awakened unicorn who lives in germany.
Some people just need to learn the hard way I guess and he goes for the vulnerable folks. Smh poor souls. Hope they aren't burned as badly.
They'll survive. We all do.
I warn abigail though i think tine doesn't understand alot of english cause i remember hok saying was having a hard time understanding her though when i spoke with her. Her english was just fine.
oops i guess goofed my my post a bit. Let me rephrase it. Tine polluck understands english but hokolntha believed at the time her english was poor. Maybe she saw what he was.
I do have a question. What kind of unicorn is Hokolntha? What was he before he came here?
I don't know. I only know what he says which may or may not be true. Why do you wish to know?
just curious is all
I've had positive reaction with both of his mates
illiane'thi and rashek both awesome mares
They are.
I don't go probing into his past tho. Not my business. He is what he is now. That's the one that matters.
no i won't go into his past as isn't any of my concern.
just trying to understand why he hurts so many in his path
I suppose if any of this is real, I am glad I  not a unicorn from this realm. I have no desire to go home with him when I die.
That is a good question. And for me a dangerous one
oh its real. The things I've seen and felt are real. Feeling the energy of a forest for the first time was amazing. Not me but my friend too
I think maybe he from a different place or time
Maybe. Idk. What you call home is lovely. I just won't follow him as a leader or live where that's required of me.
The problem with trying to understand his past is its really tempting to try and fix him and that is a huge mistake. Only he can fix him.
everything i've learned about home is everything resolves around choice. There is no high unicorn or anything of the sort. If there is a leader everyone chooses for them to be leader.
wendy's spirit guide said something about him giving up leadership or something like that.
Yeah. Currently not interested in hanging out the with the group that voted him in. I know some groups make the weakest member leader so they grow but I just have trouble wrapping my head around that choice.
He does that. Every time he counts himself. They he goes back to it.
Doubt's*
I think the way ma'aten said it was that at home there are those who live in the main sactuary and there other glories that make thier homes off the beaten path or small family groups that live with other races.
Eh. I don't worry about it. I get there when I get there.
true. We have other things to fill our plates with on this world.
Exactly
but it also helps when family from home visits from time to time. To let me know that they are there they will tug at my shirt or a gentle nuzzle to  the face.
Whatever works. I am glad you have what comforts you.  I see two unicorns infrequently. The first I don't understand my relationship with and the second is my mate.
thats cool. Can't physically see them.more like feel thier presense
Yeah. I don't see them either exactly.
More like what you said.
i mean sometimes i do get flashes of what they look like. Like once i wondered what i look like and poof staring right back in the mirror was a unicorn with the deepest baby blue eyes you could see. I was greyish with a lomng pinkish mane. I also had wings. This lasted for about half a minute. And another time i was able to see my parsent as if i was standing in front of them. Both were extremely surprised as they could see me as well. Then i felt an overwhemlming sense of hurt come from them.
Makes sense. I have had flashes too.
cool
see you
Ttyl at work so the response are intermittent.
np
have a good day
I will :) you too.
ty ?
good night
Night. Early bedtime for you?
no i was just overcome with a suddenly becoming tired.
just woke up
Hrrm. I'm getting overcome with that right now myself. it was a really long day
i can relate
Nighty night
good night
hiya ?
Hey.  How are you feeling?
feeling much better but still useing crutches to move around. have to get used walking again
how have you been?
Okies.  Life rolls on much the same.
I am sure mobility is a relief,  even if it is limited
it is. better than being bound to bed in the hospital and eating food that tastes like card board
its good hear that life going well for you.
I am sure it was a bummer.  Seemed to hit out of the blue and very hard.
very true. It felt like i was going to pass out so i called 911 and the people i gave rides too dropped me like a bad habit
Ouch. Well they say you find out who your friends are when things get tough. I am sorry that you were left behind like that.
very true. Illiane'thi was there for me as well as my unicorn family who helped me through it. My human grandmother also visited too
Nice. Usually family can be trusted to fall back on :)
very true there
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Here in case you need a smile.
thanks sis
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Voltaire- USS Make Shit Up- Lyrics: https://youtu.be/4bBD5yyT-s0
There we go.
hehe
thanks for the smile and laughter
Np
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gn
Nighty night
The Last Goodbye- Billy Boyd- Lyric video.The Last Goodbye- Billy Boyd- Lyric video.
https://youtu.be/r4j_kCQ4f2Q
good song
It is.  The lyrics are familiar but I don't know why.
cause its from the movie the hobbit the battle of the 5 armies
Ah. That'd be it. Only watched it once.
still it was good movie
Not sure I can agree with that. To me it was passable by comparison to the other Hobbit movies.
well i  mean i did enjoy it.
good night
Night night.
hello sis
Hey how are you?
doing good though it seems back home the unicorns are tring to put togeher a republic.
aslo hokolntha turned on roam
I am sorry to hear it. Some things never change.
very true
hokky stepped down as leader of some of corns back home.
He does that too. Give it a week or two.
You ok?
I'm doing good
though he did get upset about me not being around. Though can say starting to get tired of his royal highness. He shows all the signs of being bipolar.
I'd agree.
oh well what can you do
Nothing. It's his life. Roam knows that too. She'll be ok. And he will have himself, for better or worse.
true its his path. Gm is still going to help guide the big lug give a good swift kick in the ass if he needs it
I have absolutely no idea what he needs. And I'm very glad it's none of my business anymore.
I think its getting to the point he is just going block me again. After that i want no part of him anymore.
It wouldn't surprise me. I'm sorry. I think in some ways knowing him was a lesson in what I don't want in a friend or a partner. I wish I could say something positive about the experience but really it just served as a warning of what to watch out for.
Well at least he helped in my time of need and helped me get stronger connection to home. That preaty much all the good he ever did
That is something. It is ok to be grateful for that. I am grateful because I needed to figure out what my boundaries were and by being involved with a person who did not respect boundaries, I learned something about how to set them and define them. I respect that. I don't owe him for it though, not in any sense. I respect his personess and pain but I don't have to like him or walk with him on the journey.
very true
Is Roam getting settled in her new place at all?
Don't know? Ican ask her?
I just was curious if she had mentioned it. I know she's been going through a lot lately with her family. I can poke her.
shes online
though poking her might tickle her
bad joke
Lol. I recognize it
hehe
qu can mke people laugh more than ican
You try. And you do a good job
true
seems great mother leader of all the unicorns now.
they voted her in
Fair enough. Idk why they need one but I don't really feel I have a stake there
no idea her idea
I think it was to unite all our peoples.
Be well Ko. :)
you too sis
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Dreams

Had another dream visit from Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash, and Twilight though for some odd reason i ran away from them for some reason. When I came back asked some person where they were and I missed being able to talk to them. I cried in dream. Within the that same dream i had a memory. Something had happened between Rarity and me. I was heart broken so I ran into apple Jacks old barn in her back lot. Ran around a hay bale,created a shield but i made so no pony could see me and I cried . Twilight was able to get past my shield and was there when i needed her. Turned out to be a misunderstanding though i believe it was the first time I told rarity of my feelings for her. I another dream visit Twilight visited me with a few friends but then I felt they were in danger so i teleported them all to safety. I felt sad that couldn't at least be able to have just some time with them as they really can't visit me all the time.

Inner Unicorn Pathwork by Stephanine Small

Inner Unicorn Pathwork by Stephanine Small

This is a way of going through a creative visualization technique to a beautiful place to find your special unicorn guide. First, find a place to relax, somewhere in nature is preferable. Now, it is best to go through the grounding ritual I just mentioned. Let your mind drift without focusing on any particular subject. Now, visualize yourself walking along the path. Examine the path and make sure you notice any plants, rocks, ect along the way. Stop for a moment along the way and just come to understand where you are along the path.

Now, set your sights forward. Imagine the entryway to your unicorn's sanctuary. It can be a castle, gate, archway or whatever you believe it to be. Take a moment to examine the entryway. Do you need a key? Is it open? Is there light around it? Now, if necessary, pull a key whatever you would need to enter the sanctuary (you might not need to do this if your unicorn is not behind locked doors).

Now, step through the entryway to your unicorn's sanctuary. Examine this sanctuary....what does it look like...are there plants, rocks, trees, magical lights, fires? First, just look around and imagine this place in great detail. Know that this place is safe, pure and a place of learning. Now, when you feel this place is ready....allow your unicorn to approach you.

Pay particular attention to how the unicorn approaches you. Does it come out in a flourish of light, water, fire? Does it emerge from stone? Does it rise from the water or step from the trees and foliage? Allow the unicorn to come close. What does your unicorn look like? Is it a special breed? What color is the unicorn? What does its horn look like? Don't make any decisions about the unicorn though, just observe.
Now, allow the unicorn to come close and touch your forehead with its horn. Understand that the unicorn now speaks to you. Allow the unicorn to bond with you. Does it teach you? Can you ask it questions? What does you unicorn want you to learn? When your time here is complete. Thank the unicorn for its time. Recognize its power. If you know its name, address it and thank it. Now, you may leave once again from the sanctuary. Walk through the entryway and go back to the trail. As you walk back down the trail and away from the sanctuary, let yourself rise back to consciousness and open your eyes.

Its a good idea to write down some ideas once this has occurred. Record descriptions of what the sanctuary, path, unicorn and surroundings looked like.

Ways to Attract Unicorns

Dance! Infuse yourself with awe and wonder. Don't sneak or hide, but be unobtrusive. Look for them in wild places, flower meadows, woods, forests, waterfalls, apple and cedar trees, near wild holly (July 8-August 4) and near wild strawberries during the full moon. They are drawn by beautiful dragonflies, butterflies, swans, peacocks and colorful beetles. Use this as an opportunity for shapeshifting if you know how.

Raising Unicorn Magic by Stephanie Small

Raising Unicorn Magic by Stephanie Small This has helped me so much.

Rituals can be great, but you need to ground yourself before you do it. It makes sure you are open to energy, not using all of your own and not wearing yourself out. Its important to ground yourself because it relaxes and focuses you. You draw on the earthy energies that way rather than you own so you don’t get tired, worn out, sick or frustrated. Unicorn energies seem to be best for healing and protection spells, but it really depends on the aspect of unicorn you are calling on. This grounding works best for me while standing because I am already straight. Its good to practice your rituals while walking, laying or sitting as well. However, for now, you can try it in whatever position is most comfortable.

Imagine a cord extending from the base of your spine into the center of the earth (or a tail from your rear going straight down. Sit up straight along this cord. Breathe from the diaphragm and your stomach (like you’re going to sing).Allow energy to flow from the earth through your center up through you heart and out your forehead spiraling up into a single horn up to the heavens.

Do this for a moment then:

Now, imagine your spine channeling that spiraling energy. Imagine your feet as hooves, I like to think of them as sharp, cloven hooves digging into the soil and sinking in a little. I sometimes imaging feathering along the legs that blends down into the energies of the earth. Then sink into yourself and allow the magic of the unicorn to descend into the earth's magics. The spiral is a very sacred symbol and movement. You can spiral your energy down into the earth, or you can descend down with the solid straight energy of a different unicorn breed.

Allow your hooves to move through the dirt, feel the dirt hold you aloft. Then your energy moves through the caves beneath the dirt, feel the air in the caves blow through you, energizing you…then you feel yourself drawing further down, to the water that runs through the caves. Feel the water flow through you…then you move to the very center where the great boiling center of the earth is…fire. Feel the fire blaze into you. Draw on all the elements of the earth to feed your roots. Let it flow from you feet up…up…up. Now you draw power up from the earth with each breath. Pull onto each of the elements…earth, air, water and fire. Feel the energy rising up through your spine. Feel yourself becoming more alive with each breath.

Feel the energy moving up through your body. Imagine great, sweeping wings that move out from your shoulders, then move back down gracing the earth. See your horn spiraling the energy out of your forehead and towards the sky. Feel the power burst from the horn on your head, and the power sweeping back down to the earth creating a cycle, and returning to its source. Feel your wings and the energy of the earth intertwine with the energies around you and the auras that surround you. You can now tap this energy.

Now, after you have raised all of this energy and used it for your ritual, there is still a great deal of power racing through you. Every time power is raised, it must be earthed. Earthing is another form of grounding. If this is not done, the force you feel as vitalizing energy turns into tension and irritability. In the final step before opening the circle we ground all excess energy. A good place to send it to is back to the Earth. Here is how:

Sit or lie on the ground and relax. Place your palms flat on the ground or just lie flat on the ground (floor). Keep what energy you need and let the rest sink through you into the Earth. Imagine the energy flowing down into the ground. Relax, and let the energy flow out of you- -deep into the earth from whence it came. Relax and let yourself drift peacefully.