A message from great mother

well tonight is going to be very busy cause great mother is going to be there and she is going to explain things to you. She also did say that if she isn't there in time that you are indeed her guide referring to the one you just met recently child. Sorry i'm talking through ko things have been very hectic over on this side of things a great change is on its way weather the humans like it or not. Its coming. It will happen. My honor guard ahura z is just one of my trusted friends though at times he calls me goddess which i don't think i deserve and many of my children only see me as mother which makes me happy . If you need guidance then seek ahura out he can help you as can lia's daughter. Though with ahura understand he works with angels and is in their hierarchy with rules and laws . Some unicorns have chosen that path and some choose like you and ko ,zami,qu and others to live free and explore. I believe in freedom above all and i don't want that taken away from my children. I want you min to act as her guide .Be there for her and protect her through the troubled times ahead. Things are about get bad . Some face great change in their lives while others like ko things will get easier for them know that i will be watching. Also if you tell ahura that I do that he makes me so proud and his dedication to duty will make all those serving under him proud. He is a testament to those who serve in my honor. I don't at times understand why i need such a guard but the angels said was a good thing. No idea why . I can take care of myself. I'll be watching over all of you . If you need me call out to me. Know that it might take a little time but i will come.

A message from Rashek

this had been an incredibly hard year for you maaten. so had that our connection is faint. even though you can still hear me. i love you beyond measure and treasure you beyond your diamonds. this pain….this overwhelming pain yo feel…that is the worlds pain/ you feel every in justice done to you and the world and it can be overwhelming and hopeless. you mUST be strong, especially now. a change is coming, and it is coming soon. i look into your future and i se a monarch on the throne who will be hated at first but lead the country to great things. i don’t see a buffoon spouting hot air. i see you leading the charge, full of your righteous fury that made many fear you in the past. i give back to you an olf name: storm bringer, the bringer of necessary chaos. you refuse to have things as they are because you will not and cannot tolerate injustice in any form. you refuse to see those hurt and kicked around be treated like that forever. the old proverb says, anger not the storm lest they reign curses upon you. you are more powerful even than that hokolnta, as puffed up as a leader he claims to be. this is why you clashed. he was intimidated.you refused to play his game. i am proud of you maaten. you have survived so many hardships. it is i who make your attempt fail. the world needs you. don’t kill yourself and deprive the world and yourself of learning."

Never give up

Never give up even when the odds are stacked against you. We all have strong wills and can accomplish anything we set our minds. Always keep moving forward and learn from your past mistakes. Remember there is wisdom in others. Learn from others mistakes.

Andy Grammer - Honey, I'm Good (with lyrics)

Derezzed (NTEIBINT Remix) - Daft Punk - Tron: Legacy. This song resonates with the core my being

Rants

Seems like i always betray someone without even trying. I'm starting to be really good at it. Cause i don't even know how I do it in the first place but i'm guilty anyways. I'm always guilty of everything. Oh hey ko its your fault that i got into fight with so and so. Its your fault the seas are being poisoned. My life so much easier when i wasn't awakened then i start having these dreams and i don't know what fuck is going on. Then poof finding out that i'm a unicorn and that family on the other side has been looking for me. Maybe it would have been better if i never found them in the first place. You i never knew about arilin and tispir till met arilin on the grove after hok tossed me aside so much garbage then i say one thing wrong or I'm completely unaware of all the bs being said behind my back .

You know most of the time arilin started ranting me i have absolutely no idea why. Fuck i was playing fucking and minding my own business and he starts ranting about being betrayed and i don't even know why. For fuck sacks when he needed someone to rant to i dropped everything just to help him out. Hell i even lowered my guard around him. My first big mistake and i got hurt from that. I'm so tired of all this high school crap. Ever since waking up here all I've known is pain and misery weather i caused it or arilin blaming for something i don't much about. Or private conversations that should have remained private somehow got shown to other parties and someone gets hurt. I should never have left my shell , my fortress of solitude which i'm going back into. All i'm going to do is play my games and that it. Talk to those i consider family and those who are my friends. To those who don't want me around I really do hope you find peace in this life and the next. i promise no more drama.

Friends

Grumbug and his wife are both good friends of mine.
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Starwing
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Bronzewing
many others that i can't remember

Choices

Our choices and actions define who we are, Not race, not what you are born as. Just be you and don't let others define who you are.

Lesson from Illiane'thi

a shard is like a tiny sliver of your core being. When you give it to another they take it into themselves and part of them becomes you and vice versa. Which is why aja can no be rid of that part of her who me and I can no more be rid of the part of her who is in me. As for connection I feel what any of my shards feel and vise versa . It is the deepest connection one can ever have. It is gift that one has to consider because you will forever be connected to that person. Never give it to someone that you are likely not to get along with cause you are and will always be connected. This is a connection that can't be broken.
 you can be in multiple places at once you even create multiple shards of yourself and have them merge with others. It also broadens what you learn and feel. Also allows your shards to become their own unicorns with their personalities. There is no limit in what you can do.
We are the next generation of elders. We can exist in multiple places or dimensions at once it more about focusing on the place.
One last message" Remember to seek peace and love. Be lover in others do not seek revenge as that will corrupt the person you are. There are other ways to seek vengeance if that what you want. Another way is to live better than they do. Seek out those who have wisdom and always ask questions. Be Careful there are those out there seek to mislead you or are unaware of their own misconceptions. Also on another note anyone seems to think that i'm merging with this person or that person . I may have let them use a shard but i will never let my core being be merged with anyone nor will give up my family to pursue some idiotic quest for knowledge. Be at peace everyone."

Past lives

In many past lives fought in various wars. I've in alot of them and in this life I almost joined up. Probably wouldn't have awoken and possibly could have died . After all this i'm left to wonder what was the point of all these wars and what was gained by killing each other. Learning about many of  the past lives I had were not my own. Thus were shared experiences.

Past live

I just remember one of my past lives.The last thing i remember that i would never see my mom again. The last sound i heard before i passed on was the sound of the huey medivac taking off. I was a radio man and i had got hit they call the medivac in.

Evanescence-My Immortal lyrics

Learning

When you crossover you have choice of what you want to do or be. Everything is choice and learning to better yourself. You never stop learning new things, Some religions do have a lot of pros but also have alot of cons too. Like punishment after death because you didn't worship god or another. This idea so absurd to me. Back home we unicorn don't bow to any gods or kings. The very idea is insulting. We embrace freedom but we do have our leaders and every corn choose their leader we all agree or we don't. Humans still have long way to go before they can transcend the dimensional barriers. One wonder if they will ever make it without blowing themselves up or maybe some aliens are helping stop them from ending all life here.

The great unicorn hunts

My dam told there were many such hunts. I now that they treated like common animals to be hunted for sport. I know i once tried to reason with a king,but that had no effect. How can one species hunt another for sport. They do it even now. They kill elephants for sport or at least they did. Elephants mourn their dead, they have families like humans do and yet they treated like dumb animals. Just like dolphins. Both are taken away from their families and are locked away and forced to tricks for peoples entertainment. I wonder how many captured unicorns ended up in the same sort of feat. Dance and prance for the kings and queens. Unicorn foals given to spoiled little princesses or other noble children. Yes there are good humans but if they didn't raise their voices then they were just as much responsible for what happened. Oh well just rant about the past but if we ever hope to reconnect with the humans one day they have to acknowledge the past or we won't be so nice this time around. The human race seems to be a bunch of bullies and the only way to deal with a bully is to stand up to them.

Memories

My sister gave me back some of my memories. I remember playing game with leprechauns and a animal keeper.The game was called destroyer exact version the human game of hide and seek.We had a lot of fun playing of course i was it.To count down we used copper pennies on a string.I also remember something called the great unicorn hunt. I was there and  I manage to save a few dozen unicorns and bring them back to the sanctuary.I remember we so happy to be safe and sound. I remember i was in space as unicorn more energy at the moment i was passing by this world. They looked almost human except for their hands and their faces. They lived in this artificial world it was constructed around their moon. I watch and for a time i saw disaster that would destroy them. I saw people running in terror as the force fields on the bio dome failed mass amounts of people were sent out into the hard vacuum. Then i yelled" I will not stand by and watch them die." .I acted and used my power as a unicorn to save them and prevent the disaster from ever happening.  I was curious about these people so i shape shift into one of their people. Lived among them for a long time and was able to change back. They had an active democracy. They loved life and were full of it. They could travel between their home world and the colony i had saved in record time. Think of star trek they were that advanced or even more so cause they didn't fear anyone.Of course no one knew i had saved that colony but i didn't really care. I remember walking onto the grass and the museum people were really upset yelled at me to get back on the path. I also remember their is a race of beings advance as the unicorn who are the watchers and they really detest us. Cause we act and save people whenever we are around.They believe in galactic balance and would rather watch. Do nothing as not to upset the balance between good and evil. I met one during the great unicorn hunt and asked for his help and he said there was nothing he could do. I just know the people behind it were human. Some rich lord or king maybe even an emperor. When I asked Illiane'thi about the hunt she told me she had heard of it. Many unicorns had lost their lives to it.She also said "all were reborn as unicorns can't die." Qu'soolin was there too he helped calm the other unicorns down with his humor and making some of the crying foals laugh at him. Many had lost someone they loved.Afterwards i was angry at the humans after they had betrayed us and turned on us. It was a betrayal of epic size. I had talked to this human king and i thought had convinced him not to hunt unicorns for sport and he created the hunt for all his rich friends. It was to be grand affair. They had dogs and horses where they slaughtered unicorns by the masses and it was all for fun. This hunt took place over a 6 month period where any lord or lady could come in and hunt a legendary unicorn.

Diddy-Dirty Money - I'm coming home w lyrics

Rants and raves

I'm sick and tired of liars. Those that say something and do another. Those that make themselves seem like they are bringing good into this world but instead bring pain and misery to everyone around them. those that seek to divide and cause constant drama.I've dealt with all these kinds people. Some i called friends and others are just lost causes. Why can't people say what they mean and mean it. Instead of making excuses. All this referring to people i've known growing up. I've had false friends that use me to steal something of mine. I mean really it just seem so stupid. When you put your trust in these people they only disappoint you. Life here is one of constant struggle. Not many of understand why humans constantly hurt others or lie over stupid crap.  This is just rant. My blog sso i'll rant. I just needed to get this off my chest. With me I'm always sacrificing for others its just a part of who i am. I know things are settled with my dam. I just did what i did to get her attention. I'm so sorry it hurt her. I just wanted her to talk with all of us. I mean all of us have busy lives too and we make time to talk to each other even if its for a small duration. There is no competition for her attention. Like always me being stupid. At least ajashara got to talk to her again and qu got to talk to her again. Even if I'm on her shit list and I did promise i would never hurt her again and i will keep it.
                                       I've just gotten to the point in my life here i just don't care about all the drama people throw out. I just don't let it bother me anymore. That what certain people like to cause drama then complain about it afterwards. I swear some just want more drama. Some humans seem thrive on it like it was some kind of drug. Ah oh well what can you do. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off and move on.

Discovery

               I had dream that i was healing an injured animal and I used my horn. I realize the kind of unicorn i am. I'm a healer in many ways both physically and mentally. Its just feels right. Just like giving makes you feel good and telling stories to children and watching their faces light up in wonder. That what i used to back home and what i'll continue to do. There are many more adventures waiting for me back home and here. Never be afraid of who you are. Something i just never understood is when someone says unicorn side and human side. How can that be. There is only one person doesn't matter if you are incarnated as a human or animal unless you are system of beings sharing one body.You can never truly run away from yourself like a darker half. Learn to embrace that side of you. Just as the other part of you being must do the same.Be in balance with each other. Yin and yang.

The Fray - How to save a life - Lyrics (HD - 720p)

Light

Be a guiding light to others and lead them through the darkness. A small spark can become a fire. Never lose hope for we will always be there when you need us. Call out to us when you need us for we will hear you. This is the collective voice of the unicorns. No we are are not a group consciousness we value our individuality. Note we shall never give that up. Be love,be light, guide those who need your help.