Feeling defeated.

I try to be friends with everyone. I misunderstand kulstor I screw everything. It like oh pick this side or that side why we all just get along not fight. By the light just want everyone get along even if they don't fight to forgive and forget and move on. I just give up. I'm tired oh be on this side or that side. Don't be friends with him or her cause i don't like them. I just found my elder sister and I'm going to lose her all because my screw ups. I'm just so defeated.I have stallions from home useing me as a piece meat. Now I will never expet defeat to anyone or anything